𓆟 I CARE IF I AM GUILTY .ᐟ ₊ ° ｡ ˚
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ᯓ⟢ Black after prominent black spots and paws, burn based on resilient and passionate nature.
`˳✦˚ Assigned intersex at birth with lean feminine physicality, eventually identifies as transmasculine genderfluid upon early apprentice's age; currently uses she / her pronouns.
`˳✦˚ Seven moons old, as born on March 2, 2024; ages every second.
`˳✦˚ Apprentice of RiverClan, formerly a Loner.
ᯓ⟢ Currently being mentored by Ravendusk.
`˳✦˚ A fiery Savannah golden feline with black spots and paws with heart chest mark, curly whiskers, along with amber eyes; of which three claw marks are present over the right that is generally closed on purpose.
ᯓ⟢ Usually have a thin stick at one end in the mouth to bite onto as a habit.
`˳✦˚ Inspiration: Sanji "Black Leg" from One Piece.
`˳✦˚ Human AU: Amour Yoko Red ( will take upon the personal Black surname when reaching eighteen years old ), middle school student with a dream to find the Everblue, will become a restaurant manager while doing salon work as part time / volunteer.
Little light, little loner, little lover, what is there for you in this world? You always wish to be the greatest protector of your home in endless starlight and dreamdust, even when the darkness around you can be far grand for your fragile existence to bear. Yet, despite it all, you endure and endure and endure in the name of love. Even when you are torn and wounded, teeth baring while all screaming, you only bleed determination. The shadows will quiver before you because of this, little hellfire.
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`˳✦˚ STUDY I : NEGATIVE REACTIONS AROUND PEER-AGED INDIVIDUALS
ᯓ⟢ CW : ANXIETY, NEGATIVE SELF IMAGE, BRIEF YOUTH ABUSE MENTION
ᯓ⟢ CW : ANXIETY, NEGATIVE SELF IMAGE, BRIEF YOUTH ABUSE MENTION
Since her affiliation establishment with RiverClan in late August 2024, Blackkit will often face negative experiences ( in forms of emotions, thoughts, and memories ) when there are at least three similar aged peers present in the same space as her, especially when she is alone with them. With other older individuals also, she may be less so, but while she associates the number of the kits' presence with her three abusive brothers who had often physically and emotionally harmed her ( as well as she had an event of being bullied by three kits due to her loner origin ), she will likely experience awkwardness, anticipation, and / or restlessness, usually believing something bad will happen especially as her being the potential target. Because of the general anxiety that she experiences in being possibly subjected to bullying and judgment, as much as part of her would like to, she does tend to avoid participating in activities with those around her age. She holds a fear that she isn't "good enough" to fit best into friend groups and would rather shy away from being part of them to avoid the daunting chances of having to compete with or being compared to other peers, either by those in or out of said friend groups.
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`˳✦˚ LOVE AND WAR, TIMELINE BETWEEN SHARP AND BLACK
☆ ─ INTERACTION ┊ ★ ─ DEVELOPMENT ┊ ᯓ ─ OFFSCREEN CANON EVENT ┊ * ─ SENSITIVE THEMED EVENT
◜☆◞ HEART GOLD AND SOUL SILVER, early September '24 : First interaction between Black and Sharp with the initial establishment of their rivalry relationship, their mindsets and personalities being a contradictory. In addition, the pair have their first spar that results in a tie with them both being knocked out from high exhaustion.
◜*★◞ DID YOU GET ENOUGH LOVE?, mid September '24 : Sharp attempts to comfort Black through their distress and dissociative episode before they have a heavy discussion that tells Sharp about how Black seems to be more haunted than she appears as an embodiment of sunlight.
◜☆◞ PLAY WITH FIRE, mid September '24 : Despite Foxtail's objection, Sharp brings the lamprey over the camp in its full life to show Black for her passion in the marine creatures; he have broken a Warrior Code as a result for not ending its life after catching it and Black's attempted defence still leads to Sharp being punished of having to assist their fellow elders in the following full day.
◜ᯓ★◞ LIFE IS A CLOCKWORK QUICK, mid September '24 : Sharp does his elder centric chores across the next day after the lamprey trouble, although Black insists working with him, much to his bafflement. Regardless of their occasional arguments, this chore series miraculously strengthens their bond. At the end of the day, Sharp attempts to understand their reasoning of accompanying and Black answers she needs to be disciplined as well despite her age and grasp the seriousness of the Warrior Code ( but also, to Sharp's unawareness, they don't want him to be all alone ). In return, they ask him if he truly meant to share the lamprey rather than using it to prank them, and Sharp admits it was originally a prank, but ultimately did it to make them feel happier while considering their special interest. Black is annoyed at his lack of common sense, but still deeply appreciative of the gesture.
◜☆◞ MY SAILS ARE SET, late September '24 : Black makes a grand gesture of handing their trinkets to RiverClan as a gratitude for giving them a home. They gave personalized gifts to several certain RiverClanners who had impacted her, but doesn't mention Sharp when they want to give him a surprise. Sharp is disappointed by this because he thought they had something positive despite their overall fiery relationship. He only leaves the camp, which emotionally wounds Black at the misunderstanding their planned surprise seems to create.
◜★◞ LOOK ON THE MAPS TO THE STARS, late September '24 [ currently played out ] : Later at night after the gratitude give-away, Black approaches to Sharp so they can try to gift him the surprises while hoping he will give them a chance.
☆ ─ INTERACTION ┊ ★ ─ DEVELOPMENT ┊ ᯓ ─ OFFSCREEN CANON EVENT ┊ * ─ SENSITIVE THEMED EVENT
◜☆◞ HEART GOLD AND SOUL SILVER, early September '24 : First interaction between Black and Sharp with the initial establishment of their rivalry relationship, their mindsets and personalities being a contradictory. In addition, the pair have their first spar that results in a tie with them both being knocked out from high exhaustion.
◜*★◞ DID YOU GET ENOUGH LOVE?, mid September '24 : Sharp attempts to comfort Black through their distress and dissociative episode before they have a heavy discussion that tells Sharp about how Black seems to be more haunted than she appears as an embodiment of sunlight.
◜☆◞ PLAY WITH FIRE, mid September '24 : Despite Foxtail's objection, Sharp brings the lamprey over the camp in its full life to show Black for her passion in the marine creatures; he have broken a Warrior Code as a result for not ending its life after catching it and Black's attempted defence still leads to Sharp being punished of having to assist their fellow elders in the following full day.
◜ᯓ★◞ LIFE IS A CLOCKWORK QUICK, mid September '24 : Sharp does his elder centric chores across the next day after the lamprey trouble, although Black insists working with him, much to his bafflement. Regardless of their occasional arguments, this chore series miraculously strengthens their bond. At the end of the day, Sharp attempts to understand their reasoning of accompanying and Black answers she needs to be disciplined as well despite her age and grasp the seriousness of the Warrior Code ( but also, to Sharp's unawareness, they don't want him to be all alone ). In return, they ask him if he truly meant to share the lamprey rather than using it to prank them, and Sharp admits it was originally a prank, but ultimately did it to make them feel happier while considering their special interest. Black is annoyed at his lack of common sense, but still deeply appreciative of the gesture.
◜☆◞ MY SAILS ARE SET, late September '24 : Black makes a grand gesture of handing their trinkets to RiverClan as a gratitude for giving them a home. They gave personalized gifts to several certain RiverClanners who had impacted her, but doesn't mention Sharp when they want to give him a surprise. Sharp is disappointed by this because he thought they had something positive despite their overall fiery relationship. He only leaves the camp, which emotionally wounds Black at the misunderstanding their planned surprise seems to create.
◜★◞ LOOK ON THE MAPS TO THE STARS, late September '24 [ currently played out ] : Later at night after the gratitude give-away, Black approaches to Sharp so they can try to gift him the surprises while hoping he will give them a chance.
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"Beyond this place of wrath and tears looms but the Horror of the shade, and yet the menace of the years finds and shall find me unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, how charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul."
─ William Ernest Henley, Invictus