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As he'd told Orangeblossom, for Blazestar, most things go back to Morningpaw. Moons have passed since he'd lost his daughter. An entire season. Snow has melted, and the sun is warm, as is the breeze combing through his long pale fur as he steps from his den. Camp is quiet in the darkness, but for the cat who sits perpetual guard. Blazestar's restless, sleep elusive as a rabbit, and he finds his heart aching, body numb with nostalgia.
She would have liked newleaf. She would have liked to visit the Twoleg gardens where Dawnglare and her brother harvest herbs, he thinks. Morningpaw would have loved the flowers blooming across their territory, across her mother's territory. She would have enjoyed meeting the other Clans under the full moon. She would have--
Futile thoughts, ones that easily lead him to spiral. It's easy as stepping into dark, clear waters and feeling the bottom drop beneath his paws. He has to steady himself, has to close his eyes and focus his breathing. It's alright. It's alright.
His claws sink into the earth -- not out of passion or anger, but to anchor himself. When he opens his eyes again, he feels as though his insides have been scraped clean. Hollow.
Blazestar sees another cat, too-bright with fur the color of Silverpelt, and he blinks with surprise at seeing him out like this. As though StarClan is truly forcing him to face a phantom from the chamber of memories he's locked away with Morningpaw's spirit. Snowpaw had faced his own grief, and Blazestar had cut the white-splashed apprentice out of the picture entirely.
He takes a deep breath. Steady. Blazestar knows Snowpaw has suffered. Has carried the burden of all of their sorrow, as though his daughter's body weighs on his young shoulders still. When he looks at Snowpaw now, an entire season later, when the forest is redolent with rebirth, he feels nothing, and he finds that curious.
"Snowpaw," he calls softly, careful not to alert anyone else. Blazestar pads closer to the gray and white tom. "Would you like to..." He falters, but catches himself before he stops entirely: "Let's take a walk. It's a lovely night, and it looks like you're not tired, either."
// @Snowpaw
She would have liked newleaf. She would have liked to visit the Twoleg gardens where Dawnglare and her brother harvest herbs, he thinks. Morningpaw would have loved the flowers blooming across their territory, across her mother's territory. She would have enjoyed meeting the other Clans under the full moon. She would have--
Futile thoughts, ones that easily lead him to spiral. It's easy as stepping into dark, clear waters and feeling the bottom drop beneath his paws. He has to steady himself, has to close his eyes and focus his breathing. It's alright. It's alright.
His claws sink into the earth -- not out of passion or anger, but to anchor himself. When he opens his eyes again, he feels as though his insides have been scraped clean. Hollow.
Blazestar sees another cat, too-bright with fur the color of Silverpelt, and he blinks with surprise at seeing him out like this. As though StarClan is truly forcing him to face a phantom from the chamber of memories he's locked away with Morningpaw's spirit. Snowpaw had faced his own grief, and Blazestar had cut the white-splashed apprentice out of the picture entirely.
He takes a deep breath. Steady. Blazestar knows Snowpaw has suffered. Has carried the burden of all of their sorrow, as though his daughter's body weighs on his young shoulders still. When he looks at Snowpaw now, an entire season later, when the forest is redolent with rebirth, he feels nothing, and he finds that curious.
"Snowpaw," he calls softly, careful not to alert anyone else. Blazestar pads closer to the gray and white tom. "Would you like to..." He falters, but catches himself before he stops entirely: "Let's take a walk. It's a lovely night, and it looks like you're not tired, either."
// @Snowpaw
[ PENNED BY MARQUETTE ]