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Grief.
The whole of WindClan knows it. They have all lost, in one way or multiple. Lost cats, lost territory, lost hope, maybe. Scorchstorm is not so miserable yet. But she does not roll in her riches, either, for she is not rich with anything except maybe sadness of her own. She mourns Nightingalecry as if she was a mother; she mourns Bluepool as if she was a mate; and then there is Rumblerain.
Rumblerain, the littermate she mourns while they still breathe. She thinks that she mourns them wholly — she thinks that she knows them. But does she? The question has been tugging at her throat like an enemy's teeth. The Rumblerain she knows is not Rumblerain at all. She sees them still as that soft-faced kit she'd known in her youth, back when Sootstar had not been raving mad (can she even allow herself that memory?), back when Badgermoon had still been deputy, back when he'd called her littlie and my dear. She'd hunted butterflies with her littermates; had placed an amber and black-spotted wing behind Rumblekit's ear with a giggle. Once she'd tried to smack a grasshopper off their muzzle, only to accidentally hit them in the face instead. Would they have laughed about it now? Would they have shared tongues, licking ash and weariness off each other's pelts?
They had looked so skinny. WindClan has always been small, and they are even smaller now in the wake of the fire, but... she could have counted their ribs, if she had only held their focus. Instead they had slavered after Gravelsnap with all of a hound's aggression. When had they gotten so fierce?
When had she?
Scorchstorm draws thin white claws across a scrap of granite. It must have been shed from the Tallrock many seasons ago, perhaps before the colonies themselves had been founded — it is worn, soft at its rugged edges, and wonderful for sharpening her claws against. Each scrape is the same as the last. She draws her paw across the thing over, and over, and over again, ember gaze dim. Elsewhere. She is preparing for war, just as the rest of her clan is, but whether DuskClan or ShadowClan will reach them first... only StarClan knows. In the pale pink light of dawn, Scorchstorm continues her work, oblivious to intervention.
What could I have done to keep them? Maybe Scorchstreak asks herself the same question. Maybe Frostwind does, too. And Luckypaw... does he even know of their sibling's betrayal, rolling in the farmhouse hay? She has not seen him in some moons. I should have paid them more attention, she thinks. I should have put my nest next to theirs. And with some trepidation, she concludes, I should have brought them on the journey with us. She does not stop to entertain any alternative. No staying home, no abandonment — she didn't abandon them, after all. They had known that she was finding a cure, hadn't they? They had known that she and Scorchstreak and Luckypaw were only doing it to help them, hadn't they? With so many of their kin sick, sitting in camp just hadn't been an option. And yet, Rumblepaw had done it. Had they wanted to join her? Had she refused them, somehow?
She doesn't know. She switches the paw that she scrapes across the stone. Each stroke produces a dull sound, as if the airwaves themselves could sense her weariness.
They must have been scared. Scared, lonely, a prime target for Sootstar's raving ideology to sink its teeth into and poison. Scorchstorm's stomach twists, and a grimace cracks its way through her stoic black frown. WindClan had ousted Sootstar. Had killed her now; eaten through every one of the nine lives StarClan had granted her (and oh, how could they be so misguided in their judgment of a cat?), and yet she still twines her claws in their hearts like bracken. Bluefrost had said it best: they could not cast her shadow away from them. Rumblerain especially so. She could not protect them from Sootstar. She could not rid them of the disgraced moorland queen that still lived in their mind, puppeting them against their clan. Is it StarClan's judgment that they should die at WindClan's claws, rather than fighting with them?
I can save them yet, she thinks with a decided, final scrape against the stone. Scorchstorm's tail lashing behind her betrays her fear that it may be impossible. When she finally realizes herself, laying sour-faced in the middle of camp, she realizes she has company. "Sorry," comes her hoarse mumble, "did you say something?"
The whole of WindClan knows it. They have all lost, in one way or multiple. Lost cats, lost territory, lost hope, maybe. Scorchstorm is not so miserable yet. But she does not roll in her riches, either, for she is not rich with anything except maybe sadness of her own. She mourns Nightingalecry as if she was a mother; she mourns Bluepool as if she was a mate; and then there is Rumblerain.
Rumblerain, the littermate she mourns while they still breathe. She thinks that she mourns them wholly — she thinks that she knows them. But does she? The question has been tugging at her throat like an enemy's teeth. The Rumblerain she knows is not Rumblerain at all. She sees them still as that soft-faced kit she'd known in her youth, back when Sootstar had not been raving mad (can she even allow herself that memory?), back when Badgermoon had still been deputy, back when he'd called her littlie and my dear. She'd hunted butterflies with her littermates; had placed an amber and black-spotted wing behind Rumblekit's ear with a giggle. Once she'd tried to smack a grasshopper off their muzzle, only to accidentally hit them in the face instead. Would they have laughed about it now? Would they have shared tongues, licking ash and weariness off each other's pelts?
They had looked so skinny. WindClan has always been small, and they are even smaller now in the wake of the fire, but... she could have counted their ribs, if she had only held their focus. Instead they had slavered after Gravelsnap with all of a hound's aggression. When had they gotten so fierce?
When had she?
Scorchstorm draws thin white claws across a scrap of granite. It must have been shed from the Tallrock many seasons ago, perhaps before the colonies themselves had been founded — it is worn, soft at its rugged edges, and wonderful for sharpening her claws against. Each scrape is the same as the last. She draws her paw across the thing over, and over, and over again, ember gaze dim. Elsewhere. She is preparing for war, just as the rest of her clan is, but whether DuskClan or ShadowClan will reach them first... only StarClan knows. In the pale pink light of dawn, Scorchstorm continues her work, oblivious to intervention.
What could I have done to keep them? Maybe Scorchstreak asks herself the same question. Maybe Frostwind does, too. And Luckypaw... does he even know of their sibling's betrayal, rolling in the farmhouse hay? She has not seen him in some moons. I should have paid them more attention, she thinks. I should have put my nest next to theirs. And with some trepidation, she concludes, I should have brought them on the journey with us. She does not stop to entertain any alternative. No staying home, no abandonment — she didn't abandon them, after all. They had known that she was finding a cure, hadn't they? They had known that she and Scorchstreak and Luckypaw were only doing it to help them, hadn't they? With so many of their kin sick, sitting in camp just hadn't been an option. And yet, Rumblepaw had done it. Had they wanted to join her? Had she refused them, somehow?
She doesn't know. She switches the paw that she scrapes across the stone. Each stroke produces a dull sound, as if the airwaves themselves could sense her weariness.
They must have been scared. Scared, lonely, a prime target for Sootstar's raving ideology to sink its teeth into and poison. Scorchstorm's stomach twists, and a grimace cracks its way through her stoic black frown. WindClan had ousted Sootstar. Had killed her now; eaten through every one of the nine lives StarClan had granted her (and oh, how could they be so misguided in their judgment of a cat?), and yet she still twines her claws in their hearts like bracken. Bluefrost had said it best: they could not cast her shadow away from them. Rumblerain especially so. She could not protect them from Sootstar. She could not rid them of the disgraced moorland queen that still lived in their mind, puppeting them against their clan. Is it StarClan's judgment that they should die at WindClan's claws, rather than fighting with them?
I can save them yet, she thinks with a decided, final scrape against the stone. Scorchstorm's tail lashing behind her betrays her fear that it may be impossible. When she finally realizes herself, laying sour-faced in the middle of camp, she realizes she has company. "Sorry," comes her hoarse mumble, "did you say something?"
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ooc. for june prompts <3 SORRY it is so long. the interactable part is that scorch is sharpening her claws in camp and looking pretty dour, the rest is a lot of introspection and regret.
It wouldn't be unfitting to call you a wayward leaf tossed around in the wind; you're shredded and the edges, and your journey never really stops, not against the currents of life. You're even as scattered, with all the kin that shares your blood strewn across the territories, all in varying stages. At least you still have Scorchstreak, but with recent events... she is most unlike herself. You like to take on a guardian role — the no-nonsense attitude and cold exterior certainly help —, but you cannot protect anyone against what fate dictates for them. How do you cope with that? -
SCORCHSTORM —— warrior of windclan, mentored by sunstar & badgermoon . scorchstreak x badgermoon . littermate to rumblerain, frostwind, and luckypaw ✦ penned by meghan
✦ a broad-shouldered tortoiseshell with low white and dual-toned amber eyes. extremely loyal to sunstar and her family, and enjoys a deep connection to the moorlands
✦ demigirl / she they pronouns / lesbian / 14 moons & ages every 1st
✦ peaceful and healing powerplay permitted / underline & tag account when attacking
—— will start fights / will not flee / may show mercy. fights honorably and with great ferocity. can tank a few hits, but is not the sturdiest cat in windclan. starts fights with the intention of finishing them permanently, but will not aim to maim or kill obviously young cats
✦ "speech", thoughts, all opinions are in character
✦ full biography — msg on discord for plots — toyhouse
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