- Jun 7, 2023
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Everything had happened so fast that Sootspot hadn't given himself the chance to be a cat. He found himself surrounded by enemies. Every word was a weapon, every glance was an attack, each emotion upon his face was a vulnerability they could sink their teeth into. He thought himself perfect, that StarClan's curses would not matter if he turned his back upon his ancestors, but a pit in his belly had formed in the quiet of the moon. Sootspot had ignored it for as long as he could, plain and simple, it was weakness - he blamed others for its existence. Alone in the territory, Sootspot sat with his back to the sun, his tail curled beside him. "They wouldn't tell me where you were. When one is lost, imagination must suffice to make it found." A shrike with a broken neck, its thorn stabbed into its heart. He mourned more for the one who had nothing to give, than the one who could've given him everything but settled for scraps. He remembered how jealous his sister had been of his promotion to Lead Warrior, but all Sootspot could think was: 'is that it?'
He'd enjoyed having a sibling that wasn't a competition and enjoyed knowing that she would never be the apple in Sootstar's eye before he was. With nothing to prove, it had been easier to love, easier to be loved, now, his last confidant was dead, killed by the very creature he'd worked all his life to appease. Alone in WindClan, Sootspot was only just beginning to understand what that meant. He dipped his head in a rare show of respect. "One can hear your laughter from whatever afterlife took you: oh brother of mine, why do you speak to the bird instead of me?" A digger's claws sink into the soil at the mockery made in his own mind. A smile appeared on his muzzle, almost sincere, but grown twisted by the fluffy white witness floating by in the sky. "The bird won't talk back." He knew not what the dead would say to him should he join them, it was a possibility he would prolong as long as possible - the sole reason why he breathed air while Sootstar's lungs were suffocated by soil. It was time for Shrikethorn, or rather, his personification of her, to join their mother. Beside the bird, his black paw slowly began to dig.