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It had been stupid of him, but to bite his tongue and hold his silence felt dishonest and callous. Sootstar’s vision was obviously her paranoia rising and misplacing blame; he knew for a fact that StarClan would not have sent her warning of him when they wanted him here to help stabilize things, but what could he do now. Would they even speak to him anymore with this demotion of hers? Would he receive a sign that he was right, that he should do something?
Or had he been abandoned? Was he on his own in this. There was nothing left to do but await his fate unless he tried to leave but part of him didn’t want to abandon the clan to suffer without a skilled healer; even if they wanted his blood spilled by her word he still could not find it in him to forsake them like that. Sootstar knew that she was using it against him and she had purposefully picked Vulturemask to spite him as well knowing he would not lie or fight the other. His friend, a tom he wished he had been more brazenly outspoken to before but it was too late now and it didn’t even matter anymore. He remembered watching him return with his little siblings, another leverage against him, and how close Bumblebreeze stood at his side. Dandelionwish gave a snort of amusement as he stalked to the den, that he was sentenced to death on a long fuse but was thinking of his own bitter jealousy instead.
He didn’t let the thoughts sink in, the switch in his head flipped to focus on his tasks alone because the realization he was walking a thin wire was already so prominent; each step felt fragile. He’d splinter into pieces if he wasn’t careful, so he moved with a purpose.
A tail flicked, demanding Tigerfrost to remain outside his den because he didn’t need the extra body taking up space and being in his way and for a moment he wanted to breathe deep and let the facade crack for just a second. He didn’t know a lot as it were, enough to manage in a clan where the most injury was claws or teeth but there were so many little things he didn’t know still. He couldn’t fix bones, sprained or broken. He didn’t know how to help tooth pain or cracked pads or…stop. STOP. Stop thinking about it. If he thought about it he’d lose his cool again. So he thought about something else. The sepia point grabbed what he needed and took his time setting it up just at the mouth of the den in careful piles.
“Right, if you’ve a scratch or injury, come here. This will be our first lesson…” He turns, mismatched eyes on his dark-furred friend and he wants to say something encouraging, thoughtful, he wants to apologize he was forced into this, he wants to tell him so many things. But instead he smiles his fake smile, lacking sincerity or genuine cheer; he didn’t think he’d be able to smile genuinely again now. "Shall we?"
Guard tag - @TIGERFROST
Other - @VULTUREMASK & @Periwinklebreeze.