- Dec 15, 2022
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Ashpaw isn't hurt. She didn't do anything special or get into any particular danger, and she's been hurt badly enough before that these few cuts and bruises seem like nothing. She'd tangled with a WindClan apprentice a little younger than herself, held her own till the retreat, and she's... too shocked to be proud of herself. She thinks they're all shocked. Their own home ransacked and bloodied, a peaceful night destroyed.
She's shivering, when it's finally over—WindClanners retreating, RiverClanners regrouping, the camp utterly trashed, dens broken and herb scattered. Adrenaline crash, maybe. Screeches and howls echo in the back of her head. Everything reeks of blood and horses — she wonders how long it'll take to fade.
She hears screaming — she hears Cicadastar screaming, then Clayfur, and she watches survivors gather. Someone's dead, she thinks numbly. She doesn't move toward the fallen warrior, stuck to her spot, unwilling to look. If she doesn't — if she doesn't—
Clayfur's sobbing is so loud. And then Stoatsplash is running for Beesong, and Gillpaw is crying out someone help him and Ashpaw hears the name, Clearsight, and she doesn't know what to feel. Devastated, mostly, because Clearsight was a good warrior and so many people loved him and it isn't fair but also — for just a moment, the smallest fraction of relief. Because — because it isn't Willowroot, or any of Willowroot's little babies, or any of Ashpaw's friends. Is that awful, does that make her awful?
She finds herself searching for Iciclepaw first — why does she do that? Why is Iciclepaw so important? — and stumbling toward the other girl when she sees her. "Icy," she calls with a watery voice, and she thinks of blood and broken bones and Clayfur crying and crying and imagines Iciclepaw, beautiful Iciclepaw, who is so nice and cares about Ashpaw for no good reason — imagines Iciclepaw —
"Icy," she repeats, reaching the calico at last, horror seeping through her at the state of her fellow apprentice — why would WindClan do this to them? "I'm — you — are you — ?"
Are you going to collapse and die in front of everybody? Are you going to drown in your own blood like he just did? Am I going to be the one screaming? No, she thinks, no. Not Iciclepaw. Iciclepaw, who she's known since they were kits. Iciclepaw, who defends her and makes space for her, who used to never be gentle but now ... now. Iciclepaw, one of Ashpaw's closest friends.
"A-Are you okay? What did they — " do to you, she wants to finish, but Icy won't like that phrasing, she thinks. Because she's strong and she fought just like everybody else. But she is so — so wounded. Stars. She looks so hurt.
"You need Beesong," Ashpaw says, almost whimpers, stepping closer to her friend on unsteady paws, not from injury but from fear. "Please let me help you."
She's shivering, when it's finally over—WindClanners retreating, RiverClanners regrouping, the camp utterly trashed, dens broken and herb scattered. Adrenaline crash, maybe. Screeches and howls echo in the back of her head. Everything reeks of blood and horses — she wonders how long it'll take to fade.
She hears screaming — she hears Cicadastar screaming, then Clayfur, and she watches survivors gather. Someone's dead, she thinks numbly. She doesn't move toward the fallen warrior, stuck to her spot, unwilling to look. If she doesn't — if she doesn't—
Clayfur's sobbing is so loud. And then Stoatsplash is running for Beesong, and Gillpaw is crying out someone help him and Ashpaw hears the name, Clearsight, and she doesn't know what to feel. Devastated, mostly, because Clearsight was a good warrior and so many people loved him and it isn't fair but also — for just a moment, the smallest fraction of relief. Because — because it isn't Willowroot, or any of Willowroot's little babies, or any of Ashpaw's friends. Is that awful, does that make her awful?
She finds herself searching for Iciclepaw first — why does she do that? Why is Iciclepaw so important? — and stumbling toward the other girl when she sees her. "Icy," she calls with a watery voice, and she thinks of blood and broken bones and Clayfur crying and crying and imagines Iciclepaw, beautiful Iciclepaw, who is so nice and cares about Ashpaw for no good reason — imagines Iciclepaw —
"Icy," she repeats, reaching the calico at last, horror seeping through her at the state of her fellow apprentice — why would WindClan do this to them? "I'm — you — are you — ?"
Are you going to collapse and die in front of everybody? Are you going to drown in your own blood like he just did? Am I going to be the one screaming? No, she thinks, no. Not Iciclepaw. Iciclepaw, who she's known since they were kits. Iciclepaw, who defends her and makes space for her, who used to never be gentle but now ... now. Iciclepaw, one of Ashpaw's closest friends.
"A-Are you okay? What did they — " do to you, she wants to finish, but Icy won't like that phrasing, she thinks. Because she's strong and she fought just like everybody else. But she is so — so wounded. Stars. She looks so hurt.
"You need Beesong," Ashpaw says, almost whimpers, stepping closer to her friend on unsteady paws, not from injury but from fear. "Please let me help you."
—— " i found gold in the wreckage "
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there is so much fractured emotional introspection here whoops but HERE U GO @iciclepaw
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- 9 month old orange tabby with green eyes
- apprenticed to lead warrior willowroot
- crushing hard on iciclepaw
- happy-go-lucky, mischievous, hardworking
- very friendly, but defensive of riverclan!
- got real fucked up as a kid so if she seems like she was fucked up as a kid, that's why
- "speech" -
- KICKED FOX ASS
- she is on a JOURNEY