- Sep 29, 2023
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Ashenfall presses his nose to the soft white swath of fur of his mate's collarbone, and he is under the impression that he might have already ruined things. Like he'd caught the perfect first snowflake of leafbare and then crushed it beneath his foot before he'd gotten a chance to look at it. He spent a stupid amount of time this past moon searching for that warm feeling he'd held between his paws when they'd decided to build a family. He couldn't find it, he couldn't find it, and all that was left was...
"I don't think I'm ready," escapes him before he can keep himself from speaking. And it feels too real, too grave, too unfair. "They're going to be so small, I'm scared I'll step on one..." It's supposed to be like, a joke or something, but it falls flat.
And now someone was trying to play mossball with his stars-damned kidney and he's painfully aware that he should have kept his mouth shut. "I'm sorry," he murmurs, and shifts to press his head against their shoulder, "I'm sorry, it'll be okay, I'm just..." A mess? Yes, that.
He's too aware of all of his... stuff he's piled on Flintwish, and scoots backward, belatedly embarrassed about his clinginess, and fights the urge to apologize again. He doesn't, and opts to change the subject completely.
"...Do you... have a name you like?"
"I don't think I'm ready," escapes him before he can keep himself from speaking. And it feels too real, too grave, too unfair. "They're going to be so small, I'm scared I'll step on one..." It's supposed to be like, a joke or something, but it falls flat.
And now someone was trying to play mossball with his stars-damned kidney and he's painfully aware that he should have kept his mouth shut. "I'm sorry," he murmurs, and shifts to press his head against their shoulder, "I'm sorry, it'll be okay, I'm just..." A mess? Yes, that.
He's too aware of all of his... stuff he's piled on Flintwish, and scoots backward, belatedly embarrassed about his clinginess, and fights the urge to apologize again. He doesn't, and opts to change the subject completely.
"...Do you... have a name you like?"
- OOC: @FLINTWISH
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ashenkit.ashenpaw. ashenfall
— he/him. 18mo warrior of shadowclan. formerly mentored by smogstar. mated with flintwish.
— smogstar xhalfshade. littermate toapplejaw, swansong & garlicheart. older brother of halfsun and laurelgrin
— a stout, longhaired blue torbie w/ pale blue and amber eyes
— sarcastic, sharp-eyed, sulky, nostalgic, faithful, impulsive, candid, provocative, remorseful
— "speech", thoughts
— penned by eezy