- Dec 11, 2023
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it hits my head and I feel numb✧————————————————————
Cats had been driven out of the clan because of what they did to Halfpaw and him. Now he was to go about life as normal, as if the WindClan deputy hadn't brought him back to his home, as if he hadn't been told that ShadowClan didn't like them, that they were orphans with no one expect each other. He had been glazed over, like a husk of cat. He had been in ShadowClan for two moons, in that time he had come to have a few thoughts of his own, then he was in WindClan and they gave him ideas and now... now he was nothing. He was quiet and let Halfpaw talk instead of himself. He preferred to analyze the clan with the same flaming orange eyes that Smogmaw watched them with. He felt alien compared to them, like a foreign body, eventually he would be rejected by the host.
He was barely out of kit-hood and yet already mossball and games of pretend seemed obscure and uninteresting. What was mindless fun compared to trying to fit a mold. He was to remake his mind from the ground up. Sootstar's voice still rang in his head, but he wanted to give his family and clan the benefit of the doubt. He would try to silver his tongue, try to stomach the taste of frog, try to be more than a returned kitten. He sat there, watching the cats around him converse, joke, eat and work. Laurelpaw was going to be just like them. Whatever cat approached him first would be the first trial.
my body's looking wrong✧———————————————✧penned by WriteAboutRadish