private but there's still time 〰 florabreeze

[edenberry ?!]

"Hope I'm not uhh.... interrupting your big lead warrior duties," they chirp, drawing up beside Florabreeze with a forced grin. It's exciting... for their friend to find such success in SkyClan, even if it does feel... weird. They aren't sure how to describe it, the pride and disappointment and how they mix in their belly; so overjoyed to see someone else happy and yet, bittered by the feeling of falling behind in their own life. It's their own fault though, right? They should be grateful to even be considered for the next round of mentors after their extended absence. After how much of a worrisome lie they've shoved down everyone's throats.

But... they don't really care to bother the daylighter for her new responsibilities, there's something far more selfishly embedded in their thoughts. If there was one thing Edenberry was good at, it was digging up rumors and drama. It had taken some time to sift through as many details as had slipped by since they'd left and returned but this... this one stood out to them most.

Their bobbed tail lashes nervously, feeling they may be prying too much to even ask- we're friends right? They don't ask, worried the answer might be no. That time apart had ruined that chance. Maybe it's for the best... to keep others at bay. Would spare them as many judgmental gazes later. "I heard that you and Honeysplash aren't.... together anymore," they admit, glancing away as if discussing it aloud has made them a guilty participant in their separation. "And that maybe... you've got eyes for someone else already?"

They realize their phrasing borders on accusation and scrambles to reclarify, "Which is fine! I just... wanted to ask.... if you still maybe love... Honeysplash? A little?"

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𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊 〰 i want no more than this

• @Florabreeze
• -- edenberry / skyclan daylight warrior / any pronouns / 17 moons
  -- mostly white with black pinstripe and green eyes / scarred face and back
  -- color #728c69​

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[Florabreeze]

There's a look of purpose in Florabreeze's lime gaze, staring with purpose at a red and black splotched insect. A ladybug, sunning against a spare twig. Bugs weren't really a topic of interest for her but it's one of those things she neglected to pay attention to as a kittypet. There was always some attempt of observation for the little things like this, she wondered if her fellow daylighters or even other clanmates would pass by this critter without batting an eye. Edenberry’s chirp called her head to point skywards, sitting up from that crouch she had found herself in. “I don't think bug watching counts as big leader warriors duties” there's a pause before her meow is followed by a whisper “unless… do you think Silversmoke or Slate secretly also did this?” They're the first ones to come to mind, since it seemed unlikely that they would ever consider this a past time at all.

A plumy tail practically wags in excitement, the calmness of her activity washing into delight over seeing her friend. “So, have you heard anything new around camp?” There was an awareness for Edenberry’s penchant for drama and the like, she herself tried to pry in those circles as much as she could so it was only natural for their paths to cross. The topic at hand was unexpected though really she shouldn't be surprised. It had become increasingly obvious that the distance herself and Honeysplash grew larger with each passing day. She tried to meet their gaze sometimes when crossing paths now that she was able to rejoin the warriors and yet their looks always missed one another.

Florabreeze was learning that she should try to stop trying and let herself no longer seek out cream fur. She parts her maw to speak but promptly clamps it shut at the rest of Edenberry’s sentence. Her immediate thought is to say ‘it's not anyone's business’ but she can't will herself to be so stern with them. Their phrasing was innocent- though it did feel like it walked that fine line of accusations. They fix it though, long before she gained the understand to even begin to think about what to say.

The maine coon clears her throat, bring a paw to rub against her face as her mind scrambled on just what to say first. “We aren't together anymore. You heard right about that” she attempts to keep her tone light yet she chokes up on the words regardless. There's a forced brightness that Edenberry may recognise, as she never wanted to let herself be dampened by the situations around her. Some days were harder admittedly, some subjects were worse than others, this was one of them.

What shocked her more was that her reasoning behind their split had managed to slip out to the more perceptive. Was she that obvious? Had someone overheard? It's not too surprising she supposed, there's not much space for privacy within camps walls. Her throat constricts, skin cold under the heat of the sun. “I do, to both of those things” she figured it was time to face the music, let it be out in the open to someone who wasn't her ex-mate.

“I still love Honeysplash a little, even though I’ve got ‘eyes for someone else’” she shuffles her weight, kneeding at the ground. “Even if we're not together some part of me will still love her and that's okay, even if my heart longs for someone else” it wasn't to the same extent anymore, this type of love was never quite something she could explain and she hoped that she wouldn't have to try to now. A sombre smile befell her, before she realizes that the mood feels too bitter. With an ear flick she falls back to that faux smile “why do you ask anyways?” Florabreeze figured it was fine to question back.

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  FLORABREEZE 𖧧 She/her || Daylight Lead Warrior of SkyClan || 36 moons
  ❥ A large black tabby maine coon with low white and bright green eyes, always wearing her mushroom print collar if she can.
  ❥ Mentored by Sorrelsong ／Mentoring Jellypaw & Sfogliatella
  ❥ “Speech”, thoughts, attacking
  ❥ Penned by Juice ⏐ouijeejuice on discord {open to being dmed for plots}
  

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[edenberry ?!]

The bait to say something less than professional about Slate and Silversmoke is dangled in front of them like a juicy mouse.... and they look around quickly just to be extra sure neither of the massive tom cats are near by to rip their ears off for indulging Florabreeze with an answer. Satisfied in their privacy, the kittypet pulls the corner of their lip into a cheesy grin before murmuring, "I'd bet they do a lot more silly things than just chasing bugs!" They still cling to the mutterings of Cherryblossom when they'd been 'paws... talking about Slate's heritage as a kittypet, the rumors that now spread about him eating naughty kittens. One of the two seemed far more realistic...

But Florabreeze becomes rigid in an instant at their line of questioning, which they can't blame her for but grow weary of immediately. Perhaps they'd over-assumed, like they feared... that they were not close enough to the dappled lead warrior to investigate so thoroughly. To ask a question that digs at raw, tender wounds. (Their heart aches to understand and be understood.)

(You have to know it hurts too.)

But she doesn't snap... or cuff their ears... just swallows down the embers and answers in a tone as measured as she can muster. (It stings.) Her eyes struggle to hide the truth of her heart.... that's okay. Edenberry holds it safely between their paws- they won't sink their claws into it. "Sorry... I know it's... a personal line of questioning." They feel obligated to make it known that they appreciate her transparency... her willingness to be vulnerable with them just for a second.

It's true then... that the tethers stretch but never seem to break. Or was it just a freak circumstance for the two of them to relate to each-other with? Maybe some sort of curse of kittypet affections. They couldn't choose. Wanted it all. Loved too deeply. A barb left in the skin of everyone they touched? The panic in their head whirls until the pin-drop punctuation of Florabreeze's question makes everything stop.

Why do you ask anyways?

"OH.. uh..." they hadn't thought this far ahead, that Florabreeze might actually have a vested interest in knowing why she was being questioned. They'd only ever brought a front of Cherryblossom idolatry to SkyClan and now posed something so blatantly opposite of that- "Just... Well I..." The stammering does little to reassure a lack of guilt, makes it obvious that they're searching for a suitable lie and thus harder to commit to one. "... Just a crush, is all...." A half-truth would have to suffice. "Please don't tell anyone, I'm just trying to figure out if that's... even allowed. If that's something that even can happen or if... I'm just being... greedy."

⟡₊ ⊹ i ll betray you like a man

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• -- edenberry / skyclan daylight warrior / any pronouns / 17 moons
  -- mostly white with black pinstripe and green eyes / scarred face and back
  -- color #728c69

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[Florabreeze]

She finds that she shakes her head at their apology, a weak smile finding it's way to her maw. The art of pretending, unbeknownst to her Edenberry knows it well. To hold up the charade that her heart is still strong, that there is no wear or tear there. "No no you don't have to apologise, I'd rather a friend ask than some random clanmate" she isn't truthfully sure what she would do if had been a stranger. Or even someone she doesn't consider herself as close with, instead she tries to not think about it, certain that it would easier to lie and pretend with an unknown individual. "I really appreciate you asking instead of just... Assuming the worst of me" did anyone think poorly of her right now? She would lie and say that the thought doesn't bother her but she has to admit that it does really hurt. Though she tried to keep a no hard feelings approach to the matter, after all she can't fault others for gossiping when she is prone to do so herself.

She hadn't expected Edenberry to not know immediately why they'd ask, though she suspects it may be because they're trying to come up with an excuse. Once again she can't fault them, she would most likely to the same thing in their position. The lead warrior turns to look at them, from where she had been trying her best to avoid their gaze she now seeks it out.

Then the truth comes out, it was a crush. Aren't they with Cherryblossom? Realisation settles that this must be why they sought her out to question her. "Oh! I see" that chipperness comes back a little, the subject not being solely on her helps with this. Florabreeze still attempts to handle the discussion delicately, giving it the fragility that it deserves. The last thing the warrior needed was their friends judgement, not that she truly was judging them! Surprise had taken her.

"I won't, I promise." It's a soothing whisper, shuffling closer to her friend to keep her tone low. "I don't think you're being greedy at all. It can be normal to want more than one mate or to pad after more than one cat" she gestures to herself as an example, though it is not the most stellar one she can offer. Her head tilts to glance at the sky as she considers what to say next. "As long as you talk about it. Not everyone that you date will want that, but it's allowed. You should follow your heart Edenberry" it felt strange to give advice but she was happy to try and help wherever she can. "If you want to talk about it more I'm happy to listen."

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  FLORABREEZE 𖧧 She/her || Daylight Lead Warrior of SkyClan || 36 moons
  ❥ A large black tabby maine coon with low white and bright green eyes, always wearing her mushroom print collar if she can.
  ❥ Mentored by Sorrelsong ／Mentoring Jellypaw & Sfogliatella
  ❥ “Speech”, thoughts, attacking
  ❥ Penned by Juice ⏐ouijeejuice on discord {open to being dmed for plots}
  

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