CHILLIN', ILLIN', THRILLIN' | chilledstar

[sneezeduck]

Seven moons old, and his eighth moon day was coming up. Sneezepaw should be shooting through the ranks of strength and ability, and yet.. he feels utterly behind. Singepaw is probably battle training already, and Swallowpaw's likely been all over the territory. Perhaps it was the balance between two apprentices that left him feeling so behind. Perhaps it was him, awful at everything besides sitting at home and decorating his own fur - or, perhaps there was nothing wrong at all, and Sneezepaw was just.. fine.

He swallows the thoughts and puts an uneasy smile on his face. Sneezepaw wasn't a complete good for nothing; he could stay brave when his mind warred against his heart.

His worries linger in the far reaches of his mind, quiet but present just enough to taunt him. Maybe he just needed to distract himself for a bit or get some solo training. Sneezepaw's head angles towards the camp's entrance, loosely guarded while most cats are out on patrol. A little mischievous thought crosses his mind, and Sneezepaw shakes his head as if whisking away a bug. He knows the rules - he cannot be tempted.

There's one cat that happens to be nearby, a warrior left out of today's patrol settings, and not so consumed by camp upkeep that they couldn't be bothered. Surely, they couldn't be the only one - but as Sneezepaw glances around for a different option, he finds that all he's left with is Chilledstar themself. Nothing was wrong with Chilledstar, of course - and it's not like he disliked his leader. It's just that, well, they're a leader. And Sneezepaw's just.. boring old Sneezepaw.

Against his better judgement, he finds his paws dragging him towards the stagnant leader and looking up with round, fearful eyes - almost as if he had been dared to speak to such a noble cat. He's never even been this close to Chilledstar, typically averting his gaze or avoiding them entirely.. he was not worthy of a leader's time. Sneezepaw is acutely aware of how silly he looks - like he's scared for his life, held at clawpoint, like talking to Chilledstar was the line between life and death. Where is his bravery now?

"I-" - a brief choke sound, like he'd swallowed his air the wrong way - "Uh - hi. Chilledstar." Sneezepaw's gaze flicks to the camp's entrance again, willing for a different warrior to walk through that wall. Someone he didn't have to impress, someone he didn't have to meet the standards of. Someone mediocre, like himself. Of course, he's let down, and he trails his gaze to his paws. "I- I wanna go outside. But Sharpshadow's training with Halfpaw, and.. and everyone's too b-busy."

Sneezepaw coughs again, awkwardly. His ears feel hot with embarrassment - he thinks that if he begs StarClan enough in his mind, they will grant him the ability to melt into the swampy earth. He fears that Chilledstar will say no, send him away to do some menial work, that they had better things to do than to entertain a lowly apprentice. Nine lives, and one must have its precious time spent talking to none other than Sneezepaw. He forces his words out, but falls short, ending up in a dismissive wave of his paw and a purposefully covered gaze under his long tuft of head hair. "I - will you take me.. n-no!, nevermind. I'm sure you're.. very, very busy.. I don't want to interrupt your.. important work.."
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CHARACTER INFORMATION — ♡ ˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗ ♡ — OUT OF CHARACTER

• sneezekit SNEEZEPAW
  ━━ APPRENTICE of SHADOWCLAN | 7 MOONS ,, ages every 2nd
  ━━ DUCKSHIMMER xx NPC | SIBLING to SINGEPAW and SWALLOWPAW
  ━━ MATE to none | PARENT to none
  ━━ MENTOR to none | MENTORED by SHARPSHADOW​
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• speech is #ffcc8a
  @CHILLEDSTAR. ​

 

[CHILLEDSTAR.]

chilledstar knows they're leader. they know they ask respect of the cats that reside within their clan, and that they can be a bit intimidating. they try their hardest to not be so scary to the youth. they're the next warriors. the future of shadowclan, and without them there would be no shadowclan. so chilledstar tries very hard to make sure that they know that they're appreciated. some cats don't take to it very well. others don't believe them at all, which is a fault of their own. they're cold, and intimidating. they can't help it. it's kind of just who they were. it was a lot easier to close one's self off than it was to try and be open with their feelings. especially when they didn't want to feel a thing.

"huh? oh hi, sneezepaw."

they blinked their eye a few times, trying to get out of the daze they seemed to be in. they tilted their head off to the side, listening to the poor young apprentice stumble over himself and ask chilledstar to take him outside. they can't help the small smile on their face, as their features soften. it's not usual, but something about sneezepaw's demanded makes them feel a little less cold in the way they talk. who were they to deny such an adorable request?

"take it easy, tadpole. i'll take you out. you wanna go hunting?"

they stand to their paws, aiming to gently ruffle the fur on top of sneezepaw's head, offering a smile. they haven't quite mastered too much how to hunt with one eye, but that did not mean they couldn't teach or watch sneezepaw do it.

"i'm never too busy for you, sneezepaw. come along."

———————---***i try to live in black and white***———————---​

but i'm so blue✧ i'd like to mean it when i say i'm over you

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• — black feline with a white marking across their face, a white chin, a white right front paw, and blue eyes. chilledstar is covered in scars, the most prominent ones being the one across their face, and the one across their neck.
  — 46 moons old; ages the 3rd every month
  — they / them pronouns
  — aromantic / homosexual ; currently not looking
  — child of JAGGED and RAVEN
  — shadowclan ; loyal to shadowclan ; other info if applicable
  — mildly difficult to befriend ; trusts barely anyone; trusts no one outside of shadowclan
  — "speech", thoughts, attacking
  — peaceful powerplay allowed

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[sneezeduck]

Sneezepaw feels to lucky to be accompanied by Chilledstar. Lucky enough to be in their presence. But just maybe they weren't as intimidating as Sneezepaw makes them out to be. They readily accept his request to go out, calling him 'tadpole', and he dips his head shyly in acceptance. Was it really that easy?

"Thank you. I.. I'd like to hunt, yes." He remembers how awkward his first frog hunt was with Sharpshadow. He was too fidgety, too distracted - he could barely get his crouch right without feeling sore. Maybe this was an opportunity to sharpen (pun intended) up on his skills.. after all, who could be better at doing Clan duties than the Clan leader themselves? "Maybe.. I can impress Sharpshadow next time we hunt," he'd murmur thoughtfully.

As the pair leave camp, Sneezepaw doesn't seem to feel more at ease. He's still as anxiously shifty as he was when he asked Chilledstar to take him out. His mind is so occupied that he forgets they're supposed to be tracking and hunting. He can't stop thinking about his first hunt with his mentor, how he had failed such a.. seemingly easy task of creeping up on a dumb frog who probably wouldn't see him if he stood in front of it and danced.

Finally, Sneezepaw speaks - explodes, more like, as his words come out in a rushed blurt. As if saying it slow enough for the stars to comprehend would jinx him. "Do you think I'll be a good warrior?" Sneezepaw stammers out. Chilledstar would know, wouldn't they? Then, he slows down to elaborate, though his tone hushes and his head lowers. It felt shameful to ask about, to even consider his possible inabilities. "I mean.. what if I can't hunt as good as everyone else? What if I can't fight? I - I don't even know how to fight. Am I learning fast enough? Am I behind?" Was it something to do with having two apprentices? Was it him?


// SORRY this is kinda poorly written ive been struggling with creativity & muse so i kinda had to force this out hopefully my next reply will be a little better
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CHARACTER INFORMATION — ♡ ˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗ ♡ — OUT OF CHARACTER

• sneezekit SNEEZEPAW
  ━━ APPRENTICE of SHADOWCLAN | 7 MOONS ,, ages every 2nd
  ━━ DUCKSHIMMER xx NPC | SIBLING to SINGEPAW and SWALLOWPAW
  ━━ MATE to none | PARENT to none
  ━━ MENTOR to none | MENTORED by SHARPSHADOW​
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• speech is #ffcc8a​