- Mar 31, 2023
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« He shouldnāt feel unwelcome within his own home. He shouldnāt feel shame for the relationships that he holds, and the ones that he clings to out of fear that heāll be left alone, abandoned and still unaccepted. He should be ableāshould be allowedāto live his life as he chooses, without fear of judgment hanging over his neck like a guillotine. But this is SkyClan, and he is Cloudberrythorn, so he keeps his mouth shut and his swirling thoughts to himself.
Yet as he makes the walk from his home to the camp set within the pine forest, the blue smoke can think of nothing else but his concerns. Orangestar was killedānot merely injured, but killed. There was nothing that he could have done to prevent it, but itās a life gone already. Heād always feared this would happen, even back when his older sister had first been promoted to deputy. Her lives, so precious and powerful, being stripped away one by oneā¦ Her clanmates and loved ones, being forced to watch helplessly as she dies over and over again. As she suffers. Cloudberrythorn hates it. He just canāt stop thinking of Briarstar, of Pitchstar, of every other leader whoād lost all their remaining lives in one go. He can only imagine the same fate befalling his beloved sister, who deserves nothing of the sort. She deserves happiness, a good ending tucked away with her mate in the eldersā den. She doesnāt deserve to die over and over relentlessly, terrified all the while. But her first life is gone, and it is all but confirmed in his mind: she will suffer nine times over.
Maybe heās just worrying too much. He tends to do that, after all. He should take his mind off thingsāand better yet, he should prepare. Heās never had to make a nest before, spending his nights sleeping either in the warm sheltered indoors or on a soft bed beneath the porch roof. He knows how to gather the moss, but has no idea where to start. So he turns to the first cat he sees, golden eyes narrowed and pupils thinned to slits. "How do you make a nest?"
Yet as he makes the walk from his home to the camp set within the pine forest, the blue smoke can think of nothing else but his concerns. Orangestar was killedānot merely injured, but killed. There was nothing that he could have done to prevent it, but itās a life gone already. Heād always feared this would happen, even back when his older sister had first been promoted to deputy. Her lives, so precious and powerful, being stripped away one by oneā¦ Her clanmates and loved ones, being forced to watch helplessly as she dies over and over again. As she suffers. Cloudberrythorn hates it. He just canāt stop thinking of Briarstar, of Pitchstar, of every other leader whoād lost all their remaining lives in one go. He can only imagine the same fate befalling his beloved sister, who deserves nothing of the sort. She deserves happiness, a good ending tucked away with her mate in the eldersā den. She doesnāt deserve to die over and over relentlessly, terrified all the while. But her first life is gone, and it is all but confirmed in his mind: she will suffer nine times over.
Maybe heās just worrying too much. He tends to do that, after all. He should take his mind off thingsāand better yet, he should prepare. Heās never had to make a nest before, spending his nights sleeping either in the warm sheltered indoors or on a soft bed beneath the porch roof. He knows how to gather the moss, but has no idea where to start. So he turns to the first cat he sees, golden eyes narrowed and pupils thinned to slits. "How do you make a nest?"
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ā tall, slender blue smoke with bright orange eyes. gruff and overprotective, but a hardworking warrior.
ā sibling to honeysplash & orangestar
ā peaceful and healing powerplay permitted
ā penned by foxlore