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❀‿ "Thanks for coming with me, bramble collecting is so much nicer when there's someone to help."
There was a skip in her step as Lupinepaw padded out of camp alongside Falconpaw, she was glad to find herself alone with the boy, even if it was under the pretense of doing chores. She hummed as she looked upon the snow-covered branches of the pines sparkling in the sunlight, and a warmth sat in her chest despite being out in the cold.
Lupinepaw had spent her life so far being pushed along with the tide. She wandered behind her denmates as a kitten, joining their games but always too nervous to ever start one herself. When the clans needed their bravest to save them all from a deadly plague, she was crying and shivering in her sickbed, having to take the last of the clan's lungwort and leaving her clanmates to fend off their ailments themselves. When rogues descended upon Skyclan camp, Lupinepaw fled the moment she saw an opening, and could not bring herself to jump into battle when they came to take it back. Even when it came to her own identity, she could only muster up the courage to assert herself as a girl after Drowsypaw came out to her first. Only the stars knew when she would have done it if there was no one beside her...
She was tired of it.
Lupinepaw wanted so badly to be courageous, she was sick of being at the mercy of the wind or the stars or stupid fate or whatever it was! She had hopes and dreams and she wanted the courage to run after them and grab ahold of them with her own paws.
Today, she was going to grab ahold of one of those dreams.
A pine needle is tugged from its branch by the breeze and floats downward in a lazy spiral. Lupinepaw leaps to meet it, catching the needle between two forepaws with a giggle and pressing it into the snow. Her gaze floats back upward to meet sky-blue eyes and she's filled with enough boldness to speak before thinking too hard about it, "Actually, Falconpaw, there's something I wanted to tell you..."
Falconpaw — who was brave, and capable, and so very kind to her. Falconpaw — who was always so mature when all their friends were not. Falconpaw — who bit her tail, but felt bad for it immediately and then apologized so sweetly... It was hard not to like him.
Lupinepaw remembered looking into those soft blue eyes, she remembered seeing the sadness behind them even in the dimness of the sick-den, and she remembered wanting him to be happy. She prayed throughout those long two moons for him to survive — to live to find that happiness. She also prayed, selfishly, that she would be able to spend more time with him. But her thoughts turned to that quiet night under the stars, listening to Blazestar pray for her mother's survival, for a chance to spend more time by her side...
Prayer could only do so much, she realized. And only action could fulfill these prayers. And so, she spoke.
"I like you, Falconpaw. You're so... good and kind and.. I always want to spend time with you and I care about you, like, a lot...!" She said breathlessly, realizing she was starting to ramble, "And I want to express that I... would like to pad after you. And, uhm, yeah. I like you! And it's okay if you don't return my feelings, I won't be mad. I just... had to tell you."
There was a skip in her step as Lupinepaw padded out of camp alongside Falconpaw, she was glad to find herself alone with the boy, even if it was under the pretense of doing chores. She hummed as she looked upon the snow-covered branches of the pines sparkling in the sunlight, and a warmth sat in her chest despite being out in the cold.
Lupinepaw had spent her life so far being pushed along with the tide. She wandered behind her denmates as a kitten, joining their games but always too nervous to ever start one herself. When the clans needed their bravest to save them all from a deadly plague, she was crying and shivering in her sickbed, having to take the last of the clan's lungwort and leaving her clanmates to fend off their ailments themselves. When rogues descended upon Skyclan camp, Lupinepaw fled the moment she saw an opening, and could not bring herself to jump into battle when they came to take it back. Even when it came to her own identity, she could only muster up the courage to assert herself as a girl after Drowsypaw came out to her first. Only the stars knew when she would have done it if there was no one beside her...
She was tired of it.
Lupinepaw wanted so badly to be courageous, she was sick of being at the mercy of the wind or the stars or stupid fate or whatever it was! She had hopes and dreams and she wanted the courage to run after them and grab ahold of them with her own paws.
Today, she was going to grab ahold of one of those dreams.
A pine needle is tugged from its branch by the breeze and floats downward in a lazy spiral. Lupinepaw leaps to meet it, catching the needle between two forepaws with a giggle and pressing it into the snow. Her gaze floats back upward to meet sky-blue eyes and she's filled with enough boldness to speak before thinking too hard about it, "Actually, Falconpaw, there's something I wanted to tell you..."
Falconpaw — who was brave, and capable, and so very kind to her. Falconpaw — who was always so mature when all their friends were not. Falconpaw — who bit her tail, but felt bad for it immediately and then apologized so sweetly... It was hard not to like him.
Lupinepaw remembered looking into those soft blue eyes, she remembered seeing the sadness behind them even in the dimness of the sick-den, and she remembered wanting him to be happy. She prayed throughout those long two moons for him to survive — to live to find that happiness. She also prayed, selfishly, that she would be able to spend more time with him. But her thoughts turned to that quiet night under the stars, listening to Blazestar pray for her mother's survival, for a chance to spend more time by her side...
Prayer could only do so much, she realized. And only action could fulfill these prayers. And so, she spoke.
"I like you, Falconpaw. You're so... good and kind and.. I always want to spend time with you and I care about you, like, a lot...!" She said breathlessly, realizing she was starting to ramble, "And I want to express that I... would like to pad after you. And, uhm, yeah. I like you! And it's okay if you don't return my feelings, I won't be mad. I just... had to tell you."
- OOC: @falconpaw!
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lupinekit. lupinepaw
— trans she/her. 8mo apprentice of skyclan
— tall, long-haired black smoke with low white and green eyes
— smells like sweet lupine flowers and young pine needles
— "speech", thoughts, attack
— icon by antiigone, fullbody and chibi by nya
— penned by eezy
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