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the sky is grey with early dawn. a heavy mist layers the meadowlands hed made his home many moons ago, shading the lands in a sullen haze.
the falls pound in his ears and — when was the last time he'd eaten? his stomach pangs and it only elicits a snarl, a ripping back of gnarled black lips where his mottled body lies crouched, tucked into the undergrowth where the waters pour into the river below. a thicket of tall grass, one smelling of root rot and waterlogged wood, decay. fish bones and scraps of scale, of old moss and something more, stuck far in his nostrils. something mangled, something cinnamon - striped and broken, water lapping lazily at short ends. blue eyes do not blink where they stare across the water, towards where the horizon greys into a bleak, horrible nothingness. colors and sound move amidst the smog and cicadastar winces, thrashes his head back. his brain, his eyes, it all seems to swirl.
his mind ticks.
where is his clan? had they survived? had they escaped the claws of such viscous enemies, ones that has taken him life for life for life — his children, they looked like him, like their father. cicadapaw's horrible howls for him sounded in his ear, ones he caught through glimpses of life, through the taste of copper and warmth that flooded up his throat and through pristine teeth. he'd never been able to take a hit, not really. thin - boned and swimmers muscle, he was lean, stick - like. his strength had been so firmly placed in speed, wit — he'd no chance, not after the one had gotten him down. not when another, another, another rips their teeth into his soft flank and delicate curls. stars path their way across his mottled body and the godless eat them anyway, do not seem to mind the burn of glory in their mouths. his arms raised to swipe and met nothing but thorn - like pain, ribboning up his scorching, oozing shoulder. when he'd awoken his body was discarded, broken, still bleeding from bites unable to heal, bites and tears that had not killed.
yet death, and death again.
he feels small here, in the cove he'd made for himself. rogues swarm in packs through the land, and he knows better, even now, to wander in search. he is small, crouching away from something — from his mother, with wasprattle. white foam and too - big teeth, his ears flattened to his skull and shrinking further with each staggering stride. he'd never been small. she'd told him that herself, before she'd been this dripping, lunging thing before him. he still hears the sound of his loved ones running, of more paws slipping from the water, taking their camp, their food, their meadow. he still hears the sound of his colony scattering, the ones that hadn't succumbed to the white virus leaping over browned tin and rotting wood ( wood rot — his nostrils burn ), never minding the two youth in their own escape. helpless then as he is helpless now. life had taken from him again and again, and not even the heavens, he thinks, could have changed this fate. shapes form in the horizon and he does not blink, feels the strain in his eyes and the fear, rigid in his bones, keeping lids wide.
he blinks, finally, and the world returns to grey.
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i. @Smokethroat
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★ ⋆ CICADASTAR
−−−−FOUNDING LEADER OF RIVERCLAN. HOMOSEXUAL, MATED TO SMOKETHROAT. FIFTY MOONS, FATHER TO STARLIGHTPAW, CICADAPAW && BEEPAW. PENNED BY ANTLERS−−−−−⁺₊✧
─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ── smells like wet moss and meadowland thunderstorms.
─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ── notoriously paranoid and closed off, cicadastar will tend to lie, assume, and jump to conclusions whenever it suits him. any 'suspicious' ic actions he witnesses or hears about will have a strong effect, and will have ic consequences! if you're unsure of an interactions outcome, please feel free to send a dm!
no character opinions represent my own.
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