dripping eyes dissecting me—(swanpaw)—cut my life expectancy

[.Swanpaw]

BASIC VISUAL MENTALITY RELATIONSHIPS & INTERACT SKILLS CODE

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  SWANKIT SWANPAW ; he's deathly afraid of swans
  

  a nervous and miserable wreck. swanpaw thinks the world would be better if he was far from the clan, as he believes that he's haunted by bad luck. whether he is or not (he isn't) doesn't matter, he's convinced everything bad happening is because of him.

  ⤷ his mother liked swans, which is ironic because he doesn't
  — male; he/him & masc terms; bisexual
  — apprentice of riverclan, loyal to riverclan
  — created 13.10.2023 at 7 moons / ages every 13th
  
  

  
  — penned by catburger; HEARTCHART ; PINTEREST ; PLAYLIST wip
  
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  BASIC DESCRIPTION
  swanpaw is on the taller side of the younger apprentices, with long scrawny limbs and a ratty, disheveled appearance. even if he hasn't been water the entire day, his fur still manages to look soggy, no one's sure why, or how he looks so disheveled, he just does. he is a classic grey tabby with darker swirls and a lighter underside and chin. his skin is a pink with spots of lighter pink and brown, his eyes are a soft jade green and he has a series of scars on the right side of his face from an accident when he was a kit.
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  cowardly / nervous / emotional / spineless / weak-willed / caring / wallflower / people-pleaser

  there's no real way to describe swanpaw aside from pathetic. he'll let anyone walk all over him if it means he's useful, and often goes out of his way to volunteer for stuff no one else would want to do just so he doesn't have to watch people fight over it. he'll willingly hand over any cherished possessions when asked, even if there's nothing in it for him, he doesn't even need to be threatened either.
  
  despite his cowardice, swanpaw still loves the clan dearly and would lay down his life for it at any given moment. he fears that bad things happen to the clan because of his existence, and that maybe they'd be better off without him, but he refuses to leave them as he fears he'd be even more vulnerable outside of it, that and he refuses to leave his sisters side.
  
  
  hunches over, fiddles with his paws, kneads the ground anxiously, looks over his shoulder
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  SINGLE; BISEXUAL; OPEN TO ROMANCE
  refuses to believe someone would like him, flusters easily
  SOUNDS LIKE: soft, dreary. fern - adventure time
  SMELLS LIKE: sea salt & wet animal.
  speech is #6BA8A8, baby doll

  
  ?? xx ?? sibling to bubblepaw | mentoring n/a , mentored by lilybloom
  Mate to n/a
  NOTABLE FRIENDS: who?
  NOTABLE ENEMIES: who?
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  ○○○○○○○○○○ HUNTING: poorly. unrefined skill, still needs to learn

  ✪✪○○○○○○○○ SWIMMING: decent (for his age. compared to the older members of the clan, swanpaw is average at swimming, he is around half a pawstep ahead of others his age, held two steps back by his fears

  
  

  ○○○○○○○○○○ TRACKING: poorly. unrefined skill, still needs to learn

  ○○○○○○○○○○ COMBAT: poorly. unrefined skill, still needs to learn

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