sensitive topics every candle's gotta run out of wax [mentor death]

His mentor’s state has only been declining. No matter how much food he brings her—food from the dwindling prey pile, food that could be used to fill the yawning pit that’s opened up in his stomach—she just isn’t improving. The cure for her illness is lungwort, which his mother and sister are off in the mountains retrieving right now. But they can’t be back immediately, and so his mentor must hold out until they return. If they return. He doesn’t like to entertain that idea, but if none of their clanmates return from the journey, then they are dooming their sick clanmates as well as themselves.

Falconpaw prefers not to consider such things. It’s hard enough to sit in camp knowing that his family is out there, but the apprentice is trying not to get lost in what ifs. He has more important things to do than consider hypotheticals—such as feeding his mentor. His catch today is a mouse, a small thing that’s likely not even going to feed her fully, but he’s sure she’ll appreciate it just as she’s appreciated the other prey that he’s brought to her. Not that she’s eaten much, recently; most of what he brings to her only ends up picked at, hardly eaten. She only needs to hold on a while longer, though, and she’s strong. She’ll be okay, he thinks, as he enters Berryheart’s den with his delivery.

She doesn’t lift her head when she spots him coming, which he finds immediately unusual. Even so ill, she’s never failed to acknowledge him, hazy eyes finding his each time she greets him. But today she lies still, and though Falconpaw calls her name twice, she remains without response. She’s dead, he thinks, and promptly brushes away the horrible concept. She wouldn’t have succumbed so suddenly, not with Berryheart keeping an eye on her. Would she? She must be joking. "This isn’t… it’s not funny," he protests weakly, a whine slipping into his tone. He paws at her flank—she’s never been one to joke, not his mentor, she’s all no-nonsense in that gentle way she always has been—but still she doesn’t move. Her flank lies still beneath his paw, warm despite the icy feeling that washes over Falconpaw at the realization. No. No, it can’t be. There’s no way… she can’t be…

"Berryheart!" The healer’s name is shouted before he fully processes what he’s doing, pale paws scrambling backward to press himself against the wall as far from his mentor as he can get. There’s a weakness in his legs, a tremble through his entire body, that betrays his fear—but it’s not needed, given the stricken look on the boy’s face. His mentor, a protective force for so much of his life, reduced to something empty-eyed and crumpled. He feels frozen, blue-green gaze trained on her body.

// tagging @BERRYHEART bc death, but no need to wait! rip npc mentor
[ find me way out there ]
 
A heartbreaking shout shattered Honeydapple's daydream and formed a familiar knot in her throat. She stood up and rushed forward, darting into the medicine den. Upon her arrival, she witnessed the lifeless figure and the distant form of Falconpaw, looking stunned.

The multi-colored molly wanted to cry out. Don't look! Yet, she knew it was far too late, so Instead, she blurted. "Oh no, no, no." Honeydapple's panicked voice albeit hushed could not hide her fear. Rushing closer to the cowering apprentice. She was torn between wanting to shield the poor cat from the grim sight or respecting their space. Taking a deep breath, she restrained herself from reaching out and looked sadly at the body over her shoulder.

Turning back around she bowed her head. Not another one. Pausing a moment longer to pay her respects before she continued her trek to Falconpaw's side.

Misery paid a visit, pure and cold as always. They were all struggling through this living hell of obscurity. I never expected it to get so bad. The spotted tortie ponderer to herself, knowing it wasn't the whole truth, but a part of her agreed.

First the illness, then the perilous journey, and now rogues – it was all too much. How could they be expected to keep up when warriors were dropping like flies. Their situation seemed to be growing dire, especially with the harshest season of all just around the corner.

StarClan, I know you don't know me well, but I beg of you. Stop this. Her thoughts might have seemed selfish, but it was overwhelming for everyone to bear. Seeing the trembling apprentice pushed her into action. Gritting her teeth the pointed feline stepped into the smaller tom's view, offering a gentle smile and a calming voice.

"Hey, it's okay. I'm here. Do you want me to take you out of this place?" His panic was palpable, so she did her best to remain composed as they waited for Berryheart to arrive. For now she would aim to do her best and help the younger feline.
 

Between his paws, bones turn to dust. They decay away and, without the cure, he could do nothing. Berryheart could hardly face his own emotions- they were locked away as always, dead behind deadened features. Naturally unemotional, the medicine cat made an effort now not to let his sadness show too much- he could not seem hopeless in front of the hopeful. And if he did not look as if he had given up, he would not feel it either.

He knew the cure. They all knew the cure. But some would die never having received it- death's cold claws had reached another, and though his name split the air with no further explanation, Berryheart knew very well what had happened.

Glancing toward Embers, he nodded gravely. The wail of young Snow-spots had speared through him, and his heart wrenched in the claws of that scream; he would not show it on his face. He could not. "Please," he said, tilting his head to incline the apprentice toward the warrior's wise words. This was no place for an apprentice to be, especially not the apprentice of the dead. His star-sent mentor would be given a lovelier goodbye- and one where Berryheart could be sure there was no sickness clinging to her pelt.
PENNED BY PIN ☾
 
make peace with your broken pieces .
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Whitelion padded forward, offering Berryheart a saddened smile. He could not imagine, facing death even when they knew of the cure, but with so little had done nothing but bring a sense of false safety. He breathed, offering the fallen warrior a silent prayer, lingering a golden gaze on the others ridden with sickness.

He turned to Falconpaw and Honeydapple. “Let’s get you out of here.” He knew what grief was, cold and addictive and everyone dealt with it differently, and so he offered the grieving apprentice a saddened smile. “Would you like to get out of camp? Or perhaps we can find a quiet place to settle down.” He offered.
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