- Jun 7, 2023
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[ warning for brief mention of self-inflicted injuries! ++ retro to attack (by like 2 minutes lol) ]
They had sinned against him. It had started with Dandelionwish, who'd first exposed him to treachery and how easy it was to wear the skin of a sheep. Every council member had been under scrutiny then, and every council member had proven themselves just as devious. Then, it had been his mother, putting her faith in some ShadowClan mongrel, overlooking him to fawn over traitor siblings, choosing Snakehiss over Deputy instead of him. Then... it had been his apprentice, the same one who had made a promise not to drag his name through the earth but fled WindClan all the same when it was convenient. Agony had clawed at his heart and left a gaping wound when he realised what she and Cottonfang had done, They had signed a death warrant, not their own, but his. Had he stuck around in camp, he could only imagine what sort of punishment he would've received for Downypaw's dissension so soon after promising they would not doubt their home again - with no medic to cure him either. To love something was to set it free, there was so much he could do for his mother, but she had stopped helping herself. The scar on his chest felt like melting lead, oh how he wished he could tear it away.
The breath caught in his throat as he slipped helplessly in the mud and the ice. Blurry grey shapes darted towards him through the cutting winds, and, despite the time to protest their intrusion, the tom collided directly with them, leaving marks upon his pristine pelt. Scratches struggled to pierce the density of his chimera fur, promising the bruise more than bleed, seemingly done from behind, from those that had chased him, perhaps. He knew he had to make it as convincing as possible, with no time, all he could hope was that a few knackered claw marks and soil draped across his spine like the splash of a river would be enough to convince them that he had fought for his right to be before them. In and out the tom's breath racketed, bursting through the tree boundary of the horseplace. He waited for piercing fangs, to taste his own blood upon his tongue for his insolence, but all he could tang upon it was fear - his own. He had thought the most important thing was to be right; everyone he'd ever proclaimed to be a traitor was one. Now, it was plain as day that 'right' did not matter, that justice was an illusion made not only by the stars he'd forsaken but by the cats who claimed themselves better than them. He'd turned his back upon both, he was alone, and even as figures barrelled toward him, there was an emptiness that made them seem like faceless rocks. This time, he wouldn't charge into them.
"My mo.... Sootstar's just over the hill!" He called in a rasp. "She intends to kill Cottonfang and the rest of you with her lackeys," he winced as he spoke - the wounds, he told himself, it was the wounds. He'd made many that day, none quite so fierce as the mental ones, saving his skin had come with interesting consequences when he referred to the very creature he had been yesterday. "You need to move, now." Be that away from the barn or somewhere else.
They had sinned against him. It had started with Dandelionwish, who'd first exposed him to treachery and how easy it was to wear the skin of a sheep. Every council member had been under scrutiny then, and every council member had proven themselves just as devious. Then, it had been his mother, putting her faith in some ShadowClan mongrel, overlooking him to fawn over traitor siblings, choosing Snakehiss over Deputy instead of him. Then... it had been his apprentice, the same one who had made a promise not to drag his name through the earth but fled WindClan all the same when it was convenient. Agony had clawed at his heart and left a gaping wound when he realised what she and Cottonfang had done, They had signed a death warrant, not their own, but his. Had he stuck around in camp, he could only imagine what sort of punishment he would've received for Downypaw's dissension so soon after promising they would not doubt their home again - with no medic to cure him either. To love something was to set it free, there was so much he could do for his mother, but she had stopped helping herself. The scar on his chest felt like melting lead, oh how he wished he could tear it away.
The breath caught in his throat as he slipped helplessly in the mud and the ice. Blurry grey shapes darted towards him through the cutting winds, and, despite the time to protest their intrusion, the tom collided directly with them, leaving marks upon his pristine pelt. Scratches struggled to pierce the density of his chimera fur, promising the bruise more than bleed, seemingly done from behind, from those that had chased him, perhaps. He knew he had to make it as convincing as possible, with no time, all he could hope was that a few knackered claw marks and soil draped across his spine like the splash of a river would be enough to convince them that he had fought for his right to be before them. In and out the tom's breath racketed, bursting through the tree boundary of the horseplace. He waited for piercing fangs, to taste his own blood upon his tongue for his insolence, but all he could tang upon it was fear - his own. He had thought the most important thing was to be right; everyone he'd ever proclaimed to be a traitor was one. Now, it was plain as day that 'right' did not matter, that justice was an illusion made not only by the stars he'd forsaken but by the cats who claimed themselves better than them. He'd turned his back upon both, he was alone, and even as figures barrelled toward him, there was an emptiness that made them seem like faceless rocks. This time, he wouldn't charge into them.
"My mo.... Sootstar's just over the hill!" He called in a rasp. "She intends to kill Cottonfang and the rest of you with her lackeys," he winced as he spoke - the wounds, he told himself, it was the wounds. He'd made many that day, none quite so fierce as the mental ones, saving his skin had come with interesting consequences when he referred to the very creature he had been yesterday. "You need to move, now." Be that away from the barn or somewhere else.