- Nov 5, 2022
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❝ WE HAVE YET TO CRASH ✧°.☀ ————————————
To put it plainly, he wanted nothing to do with Nightbird at that moment. Not earlier, not then, not later. If she wanted to shove his face into the dirt and then mock him on top of it all, then fine. It wasn't as if he needed her to begin with. He was fine on his own. He would become a better warrior than she ever would be, and he would do it himself.
Lightpaw had finally been given some time to himself, nobody trying to drag him around for one reason or another. It wasn't enough. If Nightbird wouldn't teach him how to fight, then he would do it himself, away from prying eyes who would tell him otherwise. The young tom slipped out of camp, grumbling to a warrior that momentarily stopped him that he was just ordered to go collect some moss, that he would be back soon, and hurried off before he could be stopped. Thankfully, he was let go.
Through the forest he trekked. His feathery tail swished from side to side, but it wasn't enough to quell the rampant frustration that bubbled within. It never was. He was never good enough. Why? She loathed him, and he knew it. He was a joke. Unreliable. Okay, then how did he become reliable? Protecting his Clanmates! Making sure nobody else died because of him. Her solution? No combat training.
Unbelievable.
Mismatched paws carried him on and on, frozen leaves crunching beneath and breath that wavered with suppressed tears billowing around him. It was the gurgle of a half-frozen stream that slowed him, the biting air carrying the scent of WindClan. He had hit the border. Lightpaw looked behind him, gazing into the trees. This was as far as he could get from camp for now. It would have to do.
With a sigh, a breath, and another sigh, he did his best to compose himself. He was his own mentor for now. Focus. What first? Claws flexed against the chilled earth, and he shook out his pelt. He could still feel her beneath his grip, that SkyClanner he had fought with. By the time he had turned to see the enemy lunging for him, it had been too late. He swallowed back the lump in his throat. Abruptly he twisted, lashing out at the empty air. A pause. Again. Again.
He lowered himself, muscles bunching. For a moment he stopped, Nightbird's warnings to not use such a move so often hanging in his mind. He shook it off, and sprung. Claws stretched out, slashed at his invisible opponent. It was there he continued to practice for a while, envisioning all the ways he could have saved her. If he were just stronger. Faster.
To put it plainly, he wanted nothing to do with Nightbird at that moment. Not earlier, not then, not later. If she wanted to shove his face into the dirt and then mock him on top of it all, then fine. It wasn't as if he needed her to begin with. He was fine on his own. He would become a better warrior than she ever would be, and he would do it himself.
Lightpaw had finally been given some time to himself, nobody trying to drag him around for one reason or another. It wasn't enough. If Nightbird wouldn't teach him how to fight, then he would do it himself, away from prying eyes who would tell him otherwise. The young tom slipped out of camp, grumbling to a warrior that momentarily stopped him that he was just ordered to go collect some moss, that he would be back soon, and hurried off before he could be stopped. Thankfully, he was let go.
Through the forest he trekked. His feathery tail swished from side to side, but it wasn't enough to quell the rampant frustration that bubbled within. It never was. He was never good enough. Why? She loathed him, and he knew it. He was a joke. Unreliable. Okay, then how did he become reliable? Protecting his Clanmates! Making sure nobody else died because of him. Her solution? No combat training.
Unbelievable.
Mismatched paws carried him on and on, frozen leaves crunching beneath and breath that wavered with suppressed tears billowing around him. It was the gurgle of a half-frozen stream that slowed him, the biting air carrying the scent of WindClan. He had hit the border. Lightpaw looked behind him, gazing into the trees. This was as far as he could get from camp for now. It would have to do.
With a sigh, a breath, and another sigh, he did his best to compose himself. He was his own mentor for now. Focus. What first? Claws flexed against the chilled earth, and he shook out his pelt. He could still feel her beneath his grip, that SkyClanner he had fought with. By the time he had turned to see the enemy lunging for him, it had been too late. He swallowed back the lump in his throat. Abruptly he twisted, lashing out at the empty air. A pause. Again. Again.
He lowered himself, muscles bunching. For a moment he stopped, Nightbird's warnings to not use such a move so often hanging in his mind. He shook it off, and sprung. Claws stretched out, slashed at his invisible opponent. It was there he continued to practice for a while, envisioning all the ways he could have saved her. If he were just stronger. Faster.