- Jan 5, 2023
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-ˋˏ ༻❇༺ ˎˊ- A half moon hung in the dark, inklet sky and stars glittered from above. The camp was quiet say for a snore from an older warrior or a kit fit in a nightmare. The trees blew with a cooling breeze, but something stirred in the midst of the nursery. A figure had slipped out of the den entrance and into dirt place, before stopping just feet after it. Couldnt go out into the forest just yet even if it was so desired, as bad as it has been, so just inside of it would have to do for now.
Cream fur shines in the moonlight before the figure sits down, head hanging low before shoulders started to shake. Why did this have to happen? What happened to forever? Was everything said, every promise made, every memory had just a lie? Everything- hurt. Like someone had taken their claws and struck them deep into their chest, only to rip and rip until there was nothing left but liquid of their heart.
Soon sitting became hard and they collapsed to the ground, letting sobs come forward. They racked their lithe body and they gasped for air between whys, how comes and i miss yous. This was never something they’d think would happen but yet it had- and all cause of another cat.
Why were they never enough? Quillstrike had left them for another tomcat, Chrysaliswing rejected every offer and touch they’d ever offer and now- they choke on a sob. They didnt want to think about it but it hurt to know that everything they’d said, exchanges and deepest fears now lied in someone they no longer could call their love. That morning flashed behind dark green hues and they burrow their face into their paws.
They just wanted to be enough.
Honeysplash had only ever wanted to be loved, truly and fully. Yet everyone she’d consider family, friends, loves- they all dropped off like flies. Was it something she was doing wrong? If so- why had no one told her what she’d done wrong? Couldnt they fix it? Couldnt things have worked out? They didnt know, but in the midst of the night they felt so alone. So unworthy of being in the clan she once called a home and thought she could return to, to pick up and make a life.
Now everyone she loved or cared for avoided her like she had yellowcough.
They shake their head slightly, why did Starclan put this upon them? What was so wrong with them that no one wanted to stay? They tried to be happy, to be cheerful and spread love and positivity every where they could- but it wasnt ever enough. People just walked over them, casted them aside. Honeysplash lifts her head from her paws, staring at the wetness on her pads from her tears. Theyd all taken advantage of her. The realization hit like thousands of needles pressing into her chest, sharp, painful and numbing.
That was going to change. Honeysplash had the rash decision of no more cheerfulness, no more skidding around and being anxious- it was time to hold her own. No one was going to be there for her, no one was going to be by her side ever- so she had to be on her own side. The cream warrior swallowed thickly and wiped at her eyes, but they kept coming regardless of her hollow, empty feeling they had in her chest.
Then there was soft footsteps.
Cream fur shines in the moonlight before the figure sits down, head hanging low before shoulders started to shake. Why did this have to happen? What happened to forever? Was everything said, every promise made, every memory had just a lie? Everything- hurt. Like someone had taken their claws and struck them deep into their chest, only to rip and rip until there was nothing left but liquid of their heart.
Soon sitting became hard and they collapsed to the ground, letting sobs come forward. They racked their lithe body and they gasped for air between whys, how comes and i miss yous. This was never something they’d think would happen but yet it had- and all cause of another cat.
Why were they never enough? Quillstrike had left them for another tomcat, Chrysaliswing rejected every offer and touch they’d ever offer and now- they choke on a sob. They didnt want to think about it but it hurt to know that everything they’d said, exchanges and deepest fears now lied in someone they no longer could call their love. That morning flashed behind dark green hues and they burrow their face into their paws.
They just wanted to be enough.
Honeysplash had only ever wanted to be loved, truly and fully. Yet everyone she’d consider family, friends, loves- they all dropped off like flies. Was it something she was doing wrong? If so- why had no one told her what she’d done wrong? Couldnt they fix it? Couldnt things have worked out? They didnt know, but in the midst of the night they felt so alone. So unworthy of being in the clan she once called a home and thought she could return to, to pick up and make a life.
Now everyone she loved or cared for avoided her like she had yellowcough.
They shake their head slightly, why did Starclan put this upon them? What was so wrong with them that no one wanted to stay? They tried to be happy, to be cheerful and spread love and positivity every where they could- but it wasnt ever enough. People just walked over them, casted them aside. Honeysplash lifts her head from her paws, staring at the wetness on her pads from her tears. Theyd all taken advantage of her. The realization hit like thousands of needles pressing into her chest, sharp, painful and numbing.
That was going to change. Honeysplash had the rash decision of no more cheerfulness, no more skidding around and being anxious- it was time to hold her own. No one was going to be there for her, no one was going to be by her side ever- so she had to be on her own side. The cream warrior swallowed thickly and wiped at her eyes, but they kept coming regardless of her hollow, empty feeling they had in her chest.
Then there was soft footsteps.
┌── Take your time Im only dying
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Patiently I kneel here dying ──┐
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Honeysplash ✩ she/they/it, Warrior of Skyclan, 31 moons.
⭃ a lithe, short haired cream tabby and white patched cat with mossy green eyes
⭃ sister to Orangestar,Applefrost, Apricotflower and Cloudberrythorn // aunt to; Cherryblossom, Eggbounce, Tawnyclaw, Glimmersun // crushing on; No one // mother to; Cloverkit, Adderkit, Weaselkit
⭃ peaceful and healing powerplay permitted / / underline and tag when attacking
↛ see battle info here
⭃ penned by wolf ↛ @wolf_1997 on discord, feel free to dm for plots.
