private gotta admit im a hypocrite // caterpillarpaw

[✧ Siltcloud.]

♡​♡ SOLD HER SOUL AT SEVENTEEN ♡♡​

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siltcloud & 15 moons & female & she/her & shadowclan warrior​

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Siltcloud waits until the crowd has dispersed, before paws carry her to the edge of camp, waiting patiently. She knows little of what to expect - being a mentor alone is new to her, but like many, she has realized that caterpillarpaw cannot see. A challenge in of itself she supposes, but not one she will turn down from. Perhaps this is chilledstar seeing her worth - though really, she's not certain how she'd caught their attention, when she'd been trying so hard to... not. Or maybe she'd just been an available set of paws, and one that they figured wouldn't leave the child out in the marsh to die - like quite a few clanmates she can think of.

"Caterpillarpaw," she says slowly, not moving once the child is there - for once green eyes are staring, instead of averted. It's not as though this child can see through her, like she's always feared they might. "Before we begin... I'd like you to tell me what your world is like. Is it just darkness, or can you see shapes? What can you smell, what can you hear?" each question is phrased slowly, one after another, though she pauses in between - she needs to know what will make things easier for her.

She refuses to be like flickerfire after all - she will be a good mentor, everything that traitorous woman was not.

— a beautiful and broken mess ♥

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  — a dust hued cinnamon tabby with white markings and sage green eyes. her fur is dull and unkept, her figure frail and slight. she's usually quite passive, and rarely makes eye contact or speaks above a whisper. she has five toes upon all four paws.
  
  — physically medium && mentally hard
  — non-violent powerplay allowed && healing powerplay allowed && minor injury powerplay not-allowed
  — please attack using [b][color=#905d5d]action here[/color][/b] and tag account

 

[CATERPILLARFUZZ.]

BLINDED BY THE LIGHTS​

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caterpillarpaw will never admit it but she's distracted. there is about a million other things she wants to do right now, and this isn't one of them. however, there is a feeling within her that she never can rid of... the need to be praised. she has to do everything right, just for those few seconds, so that she feels good. if she wad good enough then no one would leave her again, right? it made sense to her. as they slowed down, caterpillarpaw took in a few of the new senses. it was rather overwhelming before siltcloud spoke up, making her jump ever so slightly.

"yes? oh, uhm. i don't see anything."

she doesn't know how to explain her blindness because she has nothing to compare it to. she's always been this way, and that was simply how it is. pale green eyes move yet again and she finds herself blinking.

"i smell... a lot of things. hear them, too. there is a bird not too far from here flapping it's wings. can you hear it? and... oh! a frog. there is one of those around here. I can smell it but also hear it croaking."

cats notoriously had better noses than dogs, so smelling something was easy. hearing, too, but with a cat who navigated the world without her sight, it seemed even easier... once it stopped being so overwhelming.
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[✧ Siltcloud.]

♡​♡ SOLD HER SOUL AT SEVENTEEN ♡♡​

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siltcloud & 15 moons & female & she/her & shadowclan warrior​

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The dust hued molly nods along absentmindedly, more to herself than anything as she thinks about this new information. She too, can scent the nearby frog - but the bird is beyond her capabilities. Her keenest sense has always been her nose, and then her sight - her hearing lacking in comparison. But... she can work with this, she thinks. "Your nose is correct," she says finally, once her thoughts have been gathered at last.

"Shadowclans territory is dangerous - the marsh is full of not just your clanmates and prey, but predators and other hazards. There are hidden roots and holes that even the most experienced warriors can't always avoid, puddles that are much deeper than you'd think, and of course, there's the carrionplace and the thunderpath - each has it's own dangers, but that's for another day," she says, words carefully spoken, and though she lectures she does so in a more gentle tone than before. "You might be an apprentice now, but until I say otherwise, you are not to leave camp without me - if you're assigned to a patrol when I'm not within earshot, come find me first,"

Siltcloud knows well that Shadowclan is full of dangers not just in the territory, but in their own camp - she would not put it above her brother to dispose of even a child if they said the wrong thing, and she can certainly think of a choice few members who might do the same. Chilledstar had said it themselves - some cats would brutalize their own apprentices, who's to say they wouldn't do the sameto hers? And... she will never forget how harshly sabletuft speaks of loampelt and his own... illness - does not wish to test the waters, to find out what he may have to say of a blind kit, though she can't recall if he's ever said such things to forestshade. It is best to keep them away, she thinks.

"We'll train during the day, so pay attention to when the day warms and when you're nestmates awake - I'm usually out hunting at night, so you don't have to worry about doing night-training just yet," she says, the lie slipping easily from her tongue - she does not trust easily, and caterpillarpaw is no different simply by virtue of their assignment. No - her trust must be earned first, she must prove herself. "Do you understand?" she says finally, once she has laid out her rules - boring as it may b, this sort of structure is what she had always craved from her mentor once she had realized how harsh the reality of being an apprentice was - Caterpillarpaw will come to thank her for this someday, she thinks.

— a beautiful and broken mess ♥

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  — a dust hued cinnamon tabby with white markings and sage green eyes. her fur is dull and unkept, her figure frail and slight. she's usually quite passive, and rarely makes eye contact or speaks above a whisper. she has five toes upon all four paws.
  
  — physically medium && mentally hard
  — non-violent powerplay allowed && healing powerplay allowed && minor injury powerplay not-allowed
  — please attack using [b][color=#905d5d]action here[/color][/b] and tag account