[ retro to rta ]
Icebreath has always looked up to Weaselclaw. He was one of WindClan's most loyal, ferocious warriors --- a fierce defender of the moors. Royalty. And now he lies dead in the ground, not slain in battle like a hero but snuffed out by mere illness. She looks down at his corpse through dull eyes, her heart pounding as she thinks about how terrifying this disease is. Cats are dropping left and right; it's crippling the clan. Crippling Sootstar. It almost feels blasphemous to acknowledge it, but it's purely concern that weighs on her whenever she thinks about her leader's deterioration. The great Sootstar, always so untouchable and imposing, is changing. They've heard hushed talk about her delirium, can't help but notice themself how reclusive she's grown. Icebreath can't blame her; they can only imagine how difficult it must be to watch a loved one wither away. The thought of winding up in that position, losing Rainheart or one of her friends, is almost nauseating.
At least he'll rest easy in StarClan alongside the rest of their fallen clanmates; she takes solace in that. But it leads her to wonder the obvious, something that crosses their mind every day: why is StarClan letting such a cruel thing happen? Their gaze drifts up to the sky amid their forlorn musings...
...and then snaps back down when Sootstar's hiss fractures the mournful silence. '
StarClan does not want him.' Icebreath's heart sinks, eyes stretching wide with shock. What in the world? What had Weaselclaw done to be rejected by the stars? Sunstride voices her (and likely everyone else's) question and she awaits Sootstar's answer with baited breath --- though it's Soot
spot who speaks first.
It is StarClan who is in the wrong.
The very notion makes their blood run cold. They glance back upward, faintly expecting lightning to strike down like it had during a past gathering, this time in retribution instead of heavenly support. But as Sootspot continues, his words begin to make a startling amount of sense...? Icebreath has never thought about it this way before; truthfully, when they think of StarClan they tend to think only of WindClan's deceased. But a feeling of unease washes over them at the thought of the contamination that surely must be worsening with the death of every kittypet-born warrior, every snakehearted outsider. RiverClanners, SkyClanners, and it's all being accelerated as yellowcough claims more and more lives. It feels so horrifically alien, blasphemous, to be thinking this way, though; they've grown up worshiping StarClan. And yet... agh, it's so hard to think clearly with all that's happening before her. One whiplash after another.
Sootstar agrees with her son. StarClan has abandoned them. How else could everything be going so wrong? She feels sick.
So, what now? It's a question she longs to ask, but Icebreath can't find her courage nor her voice.