- Aug 1, 2023
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✦₊ ⊹—— he drifts about camp like a wraith, like the phantom his father is, watching kithood bleed away before his eyes, unspent. he doesn't roam with the roving pack of too-loud kittens that play games and pester the warriors for battle stories and make at fake clans, nor does he join his sister in asking the apprentices what the future that grows closer to his own paws every day is like. instead he whiles away the days pointlessly, curled in a tangle of limbs beneath the tired heads of ferns or the safe spot beneath a snug rock, forcing his too-sharp joints into spaces they don't fit. sometimes beekit can tempt him into joining the games for a while, his presence tolerated by the other kits by grace of his name (kingsblood, echoes his mind), sometimes she merely sits with him as he sulks. sometimes she doesn't come see him at all.
today he finds his aimless paws pulled forth for once, not seeking companionship but answers—he remembers fallinglight's words, dim as his memories of a nightmare-soaked evening are: the rest of us are just the back-up, really. he knows his parents are important, knows his dad's out of the den early to do important things and his pa sometimes is too, but still; he doesn't understand what makes them so important? what makes them so important that other cats remark on his name sometimes? that the other kits will include him in their play at times despite his pointed bones? he's not sure, and his observations from beneath the ferns have gleaned little.
"fallinglight?" he mews quietly, pointedly avoiding touching the split-colored tom, bicolor eyes flicking to his companion. it's a black-and-white cat he's not seen before, looking a little like a more rounded version of himself and his dad—tall and lean but not quite as sharp-edged. colored a little like beekit and starlightkit, too, but he knows this cat isn't related to them. he doesn't look quite right for it. cicadakit is pulled taut and close to himself in the presence of these strange cats, large white paws curled close together and leaving him narrowly balanced on stretching legs, a bent tail curled close to his haunches; nobody has stepped on it yet, but that doesn't mean nobody will.
"why are my dads so ... important?" it takes him a heartbeat to retrieve the word, words yanked unyielding from his throat as he stands flawlessly still, awaiting an answer.
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ooc: @FALLINGLIGHT & @SALTSTING !!
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disclaimer: it's important to note that cicadakit is not always in a stable state of mind. his view of the world may not always be accurate to objective reality, which may include seeing things that are not genuinely there, reading motivations or thoughts from actions that are not actually implied, and making assumptions or jumping to conclusions. this is not an attempt at metagaming, powerplaying, or mischaracterization, and is not legitimately true or correct to reality or what your characters actually think or believe.
it will always be noted in the post if he is seeing something that isn't actually there. all opinions & thoughts are ic only and do not reflect my thoughts and opinions as a writer. -
— he/him ; kit of riverclan ; 2 ☾s
— "speech" ; thoughts ; attacks
— penned by dejavu