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He dipped his head into the medicine cat den, lone orange eye finding his injured daughter easily through the reeds and he was thankfully Ravensong and Moonpaw had stepped out for the time being. When he'd found out Cricketpaw was hurt his mind went to the worst possible scenarios, missing limbs, too badly injured to move, even the possibility of finding them limp and lifeless in a moss nest alone; but thankfully the fears were quelled at the distinct sight of black smoke fur rising and falling and a wound that looked more uncomfortable than serious given the plaster of herbs and cobweb upon it. Smokestar tried not to exhale audibly, didn't want to look like a harried and overbearing parent as he stepped in but his instinctively leaned forward to touch their star-spotted forehead with his nose in gentle greeting. "How are you feeling, Cricketpaw?"
Even as he says the name it feels awkward, he knows it, he hates that it had to be done but he could not bare the thought of the stars clinging fast to any other cat he loved and pulling them away - it was not a blessing, but an honor bordering on a curse. It Smokestar had not drowned in that river moments ago he might have come sooner to see them but he had to sit in the willow tree alone in silence for a moment longer than he meant to as he came to terms with it. You would think after the second death you'd get used to the horrifying feeling but it never seemed to ease, it almost felt worse - as if his body was bracing for a slowly approaching impact, the dread building each time.
"I want to talk if you're okay to. I want to.." Apologize? He did, in a way, he had no intentions of taking it back but he did feel bad, "...I know you're upset with me. I'm sorry. I just needed you down here, I needed you away from the stars." Part of him wants to swallow back the vulnerability, the weakness raw and exposing him, but if he can't show it to his own kits then who can he show it to?
He dipped his head into the medicine cat den, lone orange eye finding his injured daughter easily through the reeds and he was thankfully Ravensong and Moonpaw had stepped out for the time being. When he'd found out Cricketpaw was hurt his mind went to the worst possible scenarios, missing limbs, too badly injured to move, even the possibility of finding them limp and lifeless in a moss nest alone; but thankfully the fears were quelled at the distinct sight of black smoke fur rising and falling and a wound that looked more uncomfortable than serious given the plaster of herbs and cobweb upon it. Smokestar tried not to exhale audibly, didn't want to look like a harried and overbearing parent as he stepped in but his instinctively leaned forward to touch their star-spotted forehead with his nose in gentle greeting. "How are you feeling, Cricketpaw?"
Even as he says the name it feels awkward, he knows it, he hates that it had to be done but he could not bare the thought of the stars clinging fast to any other cat he loved and pulling them away - it was not a blessing, but an honor bordering on a curse. It Smokestar had not drowned in that river moments ago he might have come sooner to see them but he had to sit in the willow tree alone in silence for a moment longer than he meant to as he came to terms with it. You would think after the second death you'd get used to the horrifying feeling but it never seemed to ease, it almost felt worse - as if his body was bracing for a slowly approaching impact, the dread building each time.
"I want to talk if you're okay to. I want to.." Apologize? He did, in a way, he had no intentions of taking it back but he did feel bad, "...I know you're upset with me. I'm sorry. I just needed you down here, I needed you away from the stars." Part of him wants to swallow back the vulnerability, the weakness raw and exposing him, but if he can't show it to his own kits then who can he show it to?
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—⊰⋅ Leader of RiverClan
—⊰⋅ He/Him
"SPEECH", 'THOUGHTS', ATTACK
—⊰⋅ Black tom w/vitiligo & one orange eye.