- Aug 17, 2022
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Cats often made mistakes. No one was perfect, despite his confidence he might've been at some point. It was funny how quickly one could lose their ego, even funnier how fast life would just twist around to bite you back for nipping at its heels. Snowpaw liked to think he hadn't made a lot of mistakes so far in his life, but he'd certainly made a big one recently and it was going to cling to his coat like burrs for a long time, he could tell already. The apprentice found he had no desire to get back into things like he wanted, his punishment was lifted and he had a little while before Deersong moved to the Nursery; he should be enjoying his newfound freedom with his mentor while he could before she was preoccupied with motherhood. But he shouldn't shake himself from the feelings of anger and unease that kept shifting inside him on the daily. It distracted him so much he had failed every hunt he'd attempted the past few days and was quietly furious with himself for his own failings. He'd failed so many things, the squirrels and birds were hardly the worst of them all...his greatest failure was across the moors now, hidden in tall grass and too far for him to even consider going even with his willingness to take the risk. It was stupid how easily they had just given up like that, submitting to WindClan's demands and...
He rocked back on his hindlegs, dug his claws into the nearest tree and raked them down hard enough that he snagged one and felt it tear but he didn't care; his teeth were grit in a growl of righteous fury and he repeated it again to score the thick bark with his presence. It was a good thing he'd left camp and done this out in the territory, he probably looked like a crazy cat taking his aggression out on the trees.
The blood pooling at the quick of his torn claw steadily dyed the toe of that paw red and when he raised it to tilt he watched it run up his foreleg to his elbow; leaving a smooth red track across his pelt. Blood dragged through the snow. He wanted to scream.
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