- Apr 21, 2023
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What does love feel like? She wishes she once asked her father that. A man such as he would've thought love a dangerous weapon, a knife poised over an already bleeding heart. He would've warned her to stay far from infatuations because they would tie her to someone weak, they would make her weaker. Having Buckgait by his side was both his greatest strength as well as his most profound fragility. Losing her lessened him. Stay away from love, he would have said. But how can she avoid something she knows not what it looks like? What it feels like, tastes like, smells like? If she must bar her senses from falling helplessly in love then what tools could he have given her to save her? The truth is, he couldn't.
For, hours and days at a time, she understands what love may be. What love is.
It's growing aware of her appearance, grooming unruly blue fur only for the chance to be seen. It's breathing out a sigh of relief when another is released from the medicine den, with a clean bill of health - and then refreshing their nest for them before they return to the den that night, so they mustn't worry about it. It's watching them sleep, watching their chest rise and fall before deciding to fall asleep herself. It's in the way they walk, the way they talk, their manners towards their superiors and their ability to entertain kittens and - StarClan, it's the way they forgave her. With grace, with a smile, Robinheart freed her of her sins despite begging to be put down like a lame horse. Robinheart freed her... only to cage her so desperately in this useless, overpowering sense of love. She's stuck and she's alright with that.
Robinheart, your eyes are like sunflowers, she could say. She spends daylight looking for such blooms around the territory, nearly tempted to scout out WindClan or ThunderClan land for a better shot. But she cannot find anything more than small bushels of flowers - of which she plucks a few and holds the stems in her mouth. Robinheart, your voice is lovelier than your namesake, alas, that would mean another caught robin, and perhaps that's still a sore spot for the both of them. She stubbornly watches the water as she strides past it, the sun dipping down behind the horizon line. Robinheart, Robinheart, Robinheart...
She sees her - night fishing, beneath the moon and stars. Her attention is so focused on the ripples of the river that Brookstorm does not so quickly capture it. She's allotted moments of watching russet and coal fur shimmer with the light reflecting off of the water. The way Robinheart's nose wrinkles slightly in her focus, her golden eyes even while narrowed are so kind and warm. She's poised, and she nabs a fish straight from the waves, dispatching it nearly in the same second. Is it then that the mottled molly notices her? Yellow eyes flick to her eventually, surprise maybe in them, and her mouth opens to say something. Brookstorm speaks partially through her greeting.
"Be mine," she demands, but her words are weak, pleading almost. "You and I - we should -" she stumbles, but catches herself as soon as she notices. Her paws draw her closer to the other warrior, ears twitching. "Be my mate, Robinheart. Don't make me ask again," again her tone is quiet, and the demand shakes into something far softer. Brookstorm doesn't think she can watch the face of the other, only pressing closer, brushing her cheek against Robinheart's and murmuring a subtle, "Please."
For, hours and days at a time, she understands what love may be. What love is.
It's growing aware of her appearance, grooming unruly blue fur only for the chance to be seen. It's breathing out a sigh of relief when another is released from the medicine den, with a clean bill of health - and then refreshing their nest for them before they return to the den that night, so they mustn't worry about it. It's watching them sleep, watching their chest rise and fall before deciding to fall asleep herself. It's in the way they walk, the way they talk, their manners towards their superiors and their ability to entertain kittens and - StarClan, it's the way they forgave her. With grace, with a smile, Robinheart freed her of her sins despite begging to be put down like a lame horse. Robinheart freed her... only to cage her so desperately in this useless, overpowering sense of love. She's stuck and she's alright with that.
Robinheart, your eyes are like sunflowers, she could say. She spends daylight looking for such blooms around the territory, nearly tempted to scout out WindClan or ThunderClan land for a better shot. But she cannot find anything more than small bushels of flowers - of which she plucks a few and holds the stems in her mouth. Robinheart, your voice is lovelier than your namesake, alas, that would mean another caught robin, and perhaps that's still a sore spot for the both of them. She stubbornly watches the water as she strides past it, the sun dipping down behind the horizon line. Robinheart, Robinheart, Robinheart...
She sees her - night fishing, beneath the moon and stars. Her attention is so focused on the ripples of the river that Brookstorm does not so quickly capture it. She's allotted moments of watching russet and coal fur shimmer with the light reflecting off of the water. The way Robinheart's nose wrinkles slightly in her focus, her golden eyes even while narrowed are so kind and warm. She's poised, and she nabs a fish straight from the waves, dispatching it nearly in the same second. Is it then that the mottled molly notices her? Yellow eyes flick to her eventually, surprise maybe in them, and her mouth opens to say something. Brookstorm speaks partially through her greeting.
"Be mine," she demands, but her words are weak, pleading almost. "You and I - we should -" she stumbles, but catches herself as soon as she notices. Her paws draw her closer to the other warrior, ears twitching. "Be my mate, Robinheart. Don't make me ask again," again her tone is quiet, and the demand shakes into something far softer. Brookstorm doesn't think she can watch the face of the other, only pressing closer, brushing her cheek against Robinheart's and murmuring a subtle, "Please."