- Jul 8, 2022
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MY NAME IS BRUTUS AND MY NAME MEANS HEAVY ✧
things should be going well, she should be calm and relaxed by now. hasn't she gotten what she's wanted? perhaps she has not wanted for good, simple things. no. no she pokes where she shouldn't and isn't prepared to deal with what she finds. it's clear to the world that something is off with the riverclan deputy. she's too on edge, too bitter and harsh for the time they are in. shouldn't they expect her to be even the tiniest bit cheerful? she will be an aunt in the coming moons, she will see life be born in riverclan. shouldn't that excite her? yet she can't stop the tossing and turning at night, the nest that feels bigger and bigger with each moonrise. she rises with a heavy loneliness, one that she thought would go away once lighting has acknowledged her existence. yet it still lingers, becoming as close as any partner could. if her younger self could see where she is now, how would she react? a peal of cruel laughter, or an echoing silence? to be so powerful and yet be the weakest version of her?there's a harsh intake of breath as buck looks upon her hunting partner. a singular vole shared between the two. she struggles to silence her call of how pathetic they must be to only manage this. it's true, but she won't say a word. instead her eyes rove over their paws, shared steps in silence. his dwarfs hers, not that she's looking too hard. it's their first outing together since his total ignorance of her. and she can't find a word to say that won't start a fight. but she keeps looking at his paws. watching them expand slightly when there is pressure applied, she wonders if they would be as harsh as hers has been. "your big ugly paws probably scared everything off." it's the first words she's said since they've come back. and they are not as gentle as she wanted them to be.
she was never quite gentle anyway.
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