- Nov 14, 2023
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જ➶ The sun is rising, heat beginning to bathe the land intensely. The crickets still sing and the birds are walking up. The time for the dawn is a quiet one and a time in which she enjoys, calmly listening and realizing and thinking. The same thoughts churn inside her head and the possibilities are abundant but most of these roads are closed. Once upon a time beckoning her but now all that lies ahead is her own solitude and loneliness. A soft sigh pulls from her throat as she finally allows her gaze to move away from the sky and to the river calmly moving at her paws. Three limbs still and unmoving as she watches it, the water teeming with fish that makes Riverclan thrive. Before she had mastered it, swimming as well. Now she felt neither were under her belt. Nor her way of moving on land. Even though she has grown used to no longer having her leg she still feels like a bumbling fool. With a frown on her muzzle the woman turns away, done with looking at her scarred reflection and now wishing to finally make her decision. Finally. If she is granted such a kindness she will not know how to take it. Perhaps cry. Perhaps go quiet. Either way she steps carefully towards the leader's den. Pausing a moment before speaking up quietly. "Lichenstar...may I come in?"
The quiet settles for a moment and once confirmation is given she walks in. Paws steady, much more steady than they have been in a while. Her aches and pains are well taken care of. Though she will always have them within her missing limb and sometimes suddenly but she focuses on the now, what she has come to ask of the leader. Her maw is set but her gaze is worn as she settles down carefully. "I'm so sorry for bothering you on such short notice. I know you have other things you wish to be doing but I only ask for a moment of your time." A small fraction of it really as she settles now. Her tail swepts and wraps around herself as the snow dusted creature finally pulls herself together to spill what it is that she wishes to ask. "I'm asking...I'd like to be made an Elder. I think my time as a warrior...as anything is over now. I can not provide what I once could to Riverclan. Not as I would like. My mind and body are to troubled. I also wish to apologize for being the burden that I knew I was when I became a Riverclanner."
A burden who forced a clan in leafbare to take her in when she selfishly became pregnant. Left her home to find her mate and child, no longer welcomed back. Nowhere to go. No chance of survival. A foolish thing but she can not see herself changing the choices she had made back then. She couldn't as her family meant the world to her. Losing her sister had broken her, she felt everything slipping through her claws. But that did not mean she had not been foolish.
@lichenstar
The quiet settles for a moment and once confirmation is given she walks in. Paws steady, much more steady than they have been in a while. Her aches and pains are well taken care of. Though she will always have them within her missing limb and sometimes suddenly but she focuses on the now, what she has come to ask of the leader. Her maw is set but her gaze is worn as she settles down carefully. "I'm so sorry for bothering you on such short notice. I know you have other things you wish to be doing but I only ask for a moment of your time." A small fraction of it really as she settles now. Her tail swepts and wraps around herself as the snow dusted creature finally pulls herself together to spill what it is that she wishes to ask. "I'm asking...I'd like to be made an Elder. I think my time as a warrior...as anything is over now. I can not provide what I once could to Riverclan. Not as I would like. My mind and body are to troubled. I also wish to apologize for being the burden that I knew I was when I became a Riverclanner."
A burden who forced a clan in leafbare to take her in when she selfishly became pregnant. Left her home to find her mate and child, no longer welcomed back. Nowhere to go. No chance of survival. A foolish thing but she can not see herself changing the choices she had made back then. She couldn't as her family meant the world to her. Losing her sister had broken her, she felt everything slipping through her claws. But that did not mean she had not been foolish.
@lichenstar