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He was an afterthought now and it was something he would once consider a great offense, but now he took solace in it. Snowpaw didn't want to be noticed, be remembered, he was an eternal ache in the heart and reminder of things that should not have been and for this reason he accepted his fate now as a pale shadow on the sidelines. It wasn't a bad thing, it wasn't even a good thing, it just simply was. Some cats made themselves known, some cats wanted to be known, some cats died never being known. His legacy was not one he wanted, but he could live with it, he could adjust. When he died he hoped it would be as a warrior of SkyClan and not a killer; it was his only goal. A lofty one but, he felt less scared about it now. A touch more hopefully.
It was why when he spotted the dove on the freshkill pile he stared at it so intently his eyes watered from lack of blinking and when he jerked his focus upward it was to see someone else reaching for it. Snowpaw reacted with a, "Oh-wait-" Sputtering out as he ambled forward and raised a paw to place on it, stopping teeth from claiming it as theres. "Can I-can I have the feathers? When you're done?" Biting it like that would damage them, he wanted to pluck them off first but if he had to wait then he didn't mind. The warrior chuckled at him, seemingly amused but simply grabbed something else with a wink and left him to the limp pale bird in peace. The blue tabby blinked his eyes in silent gratitude, grabbed it to take it a spot at the edge of camp he could pluck a select few pristine white feathers in peace before eating the rest; thankfully most of the plumage was free of blood spots but the few there he was able to run through his mouth and clean; letting them dry again on the ground next to him. The apprentice marveled quietly at how simple that was, removing the blood stains; washing the white. You would never know they were there unless he told you.
Snowpaw tucked his paws up to his chest where he lay, stared down at them in silence for a moment. They looked pretty clean to him. You wouldn't even know by looking.
It was enough to tear him up again but he caught it, held it in and swallowed it back down before picking up a now dried white feather and sticking it into the fur of his back above his tail where it could lay back flat like the plumage of a dove's tail feather. A few more were added there as well until he had what he thought was a presentable display of white feathers and a quiet vow to keep them clean.