It had been a long moon or so within the nursery, left with her thoughts, it had given the cinnamon tabby some time to soul-search. She wasn't quite sure what she'd discovered, other than an intolerance for the smell of mint, but the grief of her hero's death had begun to lessen. Talking about Sprucepaw to her little ones had helped, she didn't know if they understood how much the apprentice's sacrifice had meant to her, but from their names to their motives, she hoped they would never forget that devotion to family meant devotion to duty and sacrifice. Her little ones did not need to be loyal to her, but they needed to be loyal to each other, nature was a savage beast and it would not be gentle in the face of innocence. Watching them play among each other, Ferndance stood up and entered a crouch, squinting at the light that pierced through the brambles.
"Bonekit, Bloodkit, Shadekit, Snowykit..." she cooed, voice soft even as she tried to speak over the sound of their mews. A gentle smile graced her muzzle, her breaths accentuated with purrs. 'To have found things that I love more than myself... it makes it all feel worth it'. "It is time to leave the nest... for a time. There are a lot of fun things to explore and bite." Permission to venture, permission to make their views of the world and behave in their ways. Her mama had made it seem easy, but Ferndance couldn't help but feel the flutter in her heart at the idea of them splitting up - her eyes may not be able to track all four at once. She pushed out into the light, throat growing dry: she would just have to rely on her clanmates... the thought was not very inspiring. Pupils briefly scanned for Needledrift before she turned back towards the den, where four shapes lingered. She had prepared her children for the outdoor world for a whole thirty seconds, worries be damned. Life was chaos, and explaining every little social faux pas would be meaningless if they didn't find fulfillment in fitting in. Bonekit, who never seemed able to show just how strong his emotions were. Bloodkit, who seemed so enthused to do the right thing that she had sworn up a storm at another kitten that had been ungrateful towards their surrogate. Shadekit, who had modeled themselves after their mother for better or for worse. Snowykit, who seemed to follow her wily siblings into whatever they wanted to do without thought of the wider consequences.
These were not kittens that wanted to be 'normal' by clan standards, and she was fine with that - it was not like they had been born under 'normal' means. "Enjoy yourself... don't eat the snow, it tastes like soggy leaves."
[ please wait for one of the kiddos to reply first! they're gonna be all over the place HBVJDKS: @Bonekit. , @BLOODKIT , @SHADEKIT , @snowykit ]