[box=71%][center][color=#000][b][size=6]CROWSIGHT'S RELATIONSHIP TRACKER[/size][/b][/color][/center]
[color=#BBBDC1][size=3][justify][columns=3][abbr='Haven't met']♡[/abbr] Haven't properly met yet
[color=black][abbr='Loathes']♡[/abbr][/color] Loathes
[color=#222830][abbr='Fearful of']♡[/abbr][/color] Fearful of
[color=#505864][abbr='Dislikes']♡[/abbr][/color] Dislikes
[color=#576B89][abbr='Suspicious']♡[/abbr][/color] Suspicious of
[color=#5C7DAF][abbr='Rival']♡[/abbr][/color] Rivalry
[color=#5C9CAF][abbr='Jealous']♡[/abbr][/color] Jealous of
[color=#53BDB8][abbr='Distrusts']♡[/abbr][/color] Distrustful of
[color=#32D1B9][abbr='Annoyance']♡[/abbr][/color] Annoyed by
[color=#32D187][abbr='Weird']♡[/abbr][/color] Weirded out by
[color=#47E34A][abbr='Confused / Unsure']♡[/abbr][/color] Confused / Unsure of
[color=#83ED85][abbr='Complicated Feelings']♡[/abbr][/color] Complicated Feelings
[color=#AEED83][abbr='Wants to know better']♡[/abbr][/color] Wishes to know better
[color=#DAF09E][abbr='Shy']♡[/abbr][/color] Shy towards
[color=#BBDF5B][abbr='Respects']♡[/abbr][/color] Respects
[color=#C3CD27][abbr='Comfortable']♡[/abbr][/color] Comfortable with
[color=#C4AF14][abbr='Likes']♡[/abbr][/color] Likes
[color=#BB980E][abbr='Finds Entertaining']♡[/abbr][/color] Finds Entertaining
[color=#BC7E0E][abbr='Friend']♡[/abbr][/color] Friends with
[color=#BC660E][abbr='Close friend']♡[/abbr][/color] Close friends with
[color=#BC540E][abbr='Safe']♡[/abbr][/color] Safe around
[color=#BC2F0E][abbr='Like family']♡[/abbr][/color] Like family
[color=#AE1915][abbr='Family']♡[/abbr][/color] Family
[color=#900B1F][abbr='Protective']♡[/abbr][/color] Protective of
[color=#B32548][abbr='Admires']♡[/abbr][/color] Admires
[color=#D13A86][abbr='Platonic Love']♡[/abbr][/color] Platonic Love
[color=#E353C1][abbr='Puppy crush']♡[/abbr][/color] Puppy-crush
[color=#D54AE3][abbr='Crushing on']♡[/abbr][/color] Crushing on
[color=#c24ae3][abbr='Head over heels']♡[/abbr][/color] Head-over-heels for
[color=#994ce0][abbr='Romantic love']♡[/abbr][/color] Romantic Love[/columns]
[tabs][slide=family][color=white][b]BOBBIE /[/b][/color] [color=#222830][abbr='Fearful of']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#505864][abbr='Dislikes']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#53BDB8][abbr='Distrusts']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#83ED85][abbr='Complicated Feelings']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]I don't hate you. I hate that I still love you after everything you've done. Lupinepaw says I don't. I never loved you, that's what she said. I wish that were true, it would've everything so much easier. Sometimes I wish you would just say you hated me mom. That you wished I was never born. Maybe if you told me that I would've stopped waiting for you a long time ago. Hoping and wishing you'd come up to me and say I love you. I'm happy you were born. I wonder if I asked you, would you say it? Even if it was a lie? After all, you always loved Lupine and Drowsy more. And even if I was your only kit, you'd still pick him over me in the end wouldn't you? Please, just tell me. What's wrong with me? Do I remind you too much of dad? Is that why you never look at me? You stopped being there for me. I hate you for it. All I wanted was you. ALL I HAD WAS YOU! I'M! I'm... I'm so tired mom. Please... just tell me you never cared, so I can stop hoping for something that'll never come true. We both know I don't matter much. It should be easy! It's as simple as picking ticks. Once you've picked it, you'll feel so relieved. We'll both feel so much better. And what better time than now? After all, you have three new kits to look after now! A fresh new start. It's the perfect time to get rid of what you don't need. It's not like you'll miss it. I'm willing to bet you'll forget it ever existed in a moon![/quote]
[color=white][b]DUKE /[/b][/color] [color=black][abbr='Loathes']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#83ED85][abbr='Complicated Feelings']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]You're still a mystery to me. The only things I know are from mom, and even then she doesn't tell me everything. We never met, but I know you're a terrible tom. You left mom when she needed you. I wish I could see you, so I can finally know if I look like you. Would you laugh if you saw me? After all, isn't it amusing to see your son turn out just as ugly as you? What lies would you tell me? If I'm selfish then so are you. Maybe even more than me. I wish I could kill you for everything you've done. But... Maybe you do know what's wrong with me. If I'm just like you, then maybe you know what's wrong with us. Will I finally get an answer to everything?[/quote]
[color=white][b]DROWSYNOSE /[/b][/color] [color=#83ED85][abbr='Complicated Feelings']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#C3CD27][abbr='Comfortable']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#C4AF14][abbr='Likes']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BC540E][abbr='Safe']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#900B1F][abbr='Protective']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]Sometimes I think you're the only who actually cares about me. Well, I know Fireflypaw and Silversmoke does. But, I mean out of the four of us. You, me, Lupine, and Mom. Growing up, you never left me behind. You always listened and talked to me. And even when you were asleep, I never felt alone. I'd leave you gifts and you would come thank me. Mom and Lupine don't thank me. Would it make you sad to know you're the only one whose actually hugged me? Mom and Lupine haven't hugged me in moons. I'm starting to forget when was the last time they did. Something happened to you. I'm going to figure out who hurt you and make them pay for it. No one hurts my brother and gets away with it. Did you know? I was going to cry when you hugged me tight. You... Thought I died. I don't know why, but it made me so happy. Now I know if I did die, you'll cry for me. You'll miss me. More than mom and Lupine ever will. I'm happy we're brothers. And... If anything happened and I did wind up dead, I'll be watching over you. You'll never be alone.[/quote]
[color=white][b]LUPINESONG /[/b][/color] [color=#5C7DAF][abbr='Rival']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#5C9CAF][abbr='Jealous']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#53BDB8][abbr='Distrusts']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#32D1B9][abbr='Annoyance']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#83ED85][abbr='Complicated Feelings']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]There are times where I want to choke you and see you squirm helplessly under me. Then, I think about the past when I wanted to show you that I'm just as good as you. Growing up you always perfect. A shining star out of the three of us. Drowsy agreed too. We talked about you and how we wished we were just as gifted. I'm weird and terrible with talking to others. I knew I could never catch up, so I thought maybe if I became stronger I could prove that I'm your equal. Life isn't that simple though. Not only did you become popular, don't think I don't see you surrounded by the other apprentices and hear them say good things about you, but you took away my first friend. You didn't even care. Couldn't you just let me have one thing? You already have so much, why'd you have to take it? Then, you have the gall to look at me in my face and say everything is my fault. My fault that I don't have what I want. When isn't it? Tell me, when is it never Crowpaw's fault. It's always me. Don't you think I get I'm a mistake? At least I can admit that, but you? Nothing is ever your fault. Whenever you cry there's always someone coming to comfort you. How is that fair? No one gives me a hug or tells me it's okay when I make a mistake! I'm sick of it. I'm going to beat you just watch. I'll be strong enough that you won't take away anymore from me. And the next time you come crying to me for help, you're not getting any.[/quote]
[color=white][b]CANDORKIT /[/b][/color] [color=#505864][abbr='Dislikes']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#5C9CAF][abbr='Jealous']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#32D187][abbr='Weird']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#83ED85][abbr='Complicated Feelings']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]I'm supposed to be your big brother, but I don't like you. The more I look at you and the others. the more I wish I could throw you off the tallest tree and hope you get hurt. That makes me a bad cat, doesn't it? You haven't done anything wrong to me yet. To be honest I'm not happy you were born. I'm still furious mom didn't even bother to tell us she was going to mates with your father. Anyway, I don't want to near you at all. The only thing I can promise is making sure you don't do something stupid and die. Don't expect anything else from me.[/quote]
[color=white][b]HOLLYKIT /[/b][/color] [color=#505864][abbr='Dislikes']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#5C9CAF][abbr='Jealous']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#32D187][abbr='Weird']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#83ED85][abbr='Complicated Feelings']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]I have no interest in being close to you either. I'd prefer it if you just called me Crowpaw and nothing else. I refuse to answer to big brother. Like Candorkit and Lionkit, I'll make sure you don't die. Mom would be sad if her precious babies got hurt after all. You look a little more like mom that I don't know if that makes it worse for you or better. Oh well, it's not like I'll stick around long enough to figure out how I feel. Enjoy mom while you can.[/quote]
[color=white][b]LIONKIT /[/b][/color] [color=#505864][abbr='Dislikes']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#5C9CAF][abbr='Jealous']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#32D187][abbr='Weird']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#83ED85][abbr='Complicated Feelings']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]I refuse to look at you the most. You're too much like Blazestar that I don't even want to begin to think about him. It's too disturbing too look at you and be enraged when all I can see is your dad's ghost watching me with disappointment. Maybe that makes it worse? Knowing that he's there judging me, but I shouldn't feel like it's wrong to want nothing to do with you. After all, your father hurt Fireflypaw. Our parents, hurt us. They didn't care to ask what we would feel. So... I shouldn't be punished for not being happy about any of you being born.[/quote]
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[slide=clanmates][color=white][b]SILVERSMOKE /[/b][/color] [color=#BBDF5B][abbr='Respects']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#C3CD27][abbr='Comfortable']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#C4AF14][abbr='Likes']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BB980E][abbr='Finds Entertaining']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BC540E][abbr='Safe']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#AE1915][abbr='Family']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#B32548][color=#900B1F][abbr='Protective']♡[/abbr][/color][abbr='Admires']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]We aren't related by blood, but sometimes I wish I was. You told me you'd make an awful father and that you didn't know how when I asked you to be mine. I still don't know why you said yes. I'm happy you did though. We both have terrible dads. Actually, that's wrong! I have a great dad. He can be stubborn and gruff and mean and drive me insane sometimes, but he's also awkward. Kind, apologizes when he does something wrong, supportive, pushes me when he knows I can be so much better, drags me to get help when I'm too stubborn, tells me the truth, and has always been there for me. Even at my worst. I'm not the greatest cat out there I know. I'm moody, stubborn, selfish, and say things that hurt others. But you never gave up on me. I hope I can make it up to you someday. I'll be a warrior soon and it won't be the same between us. That scares me. I don't want you to forget about me dad. But I'm excited too. When I'm a warrior I'll get to do more things and you won't have to protect me as much! When I'm a warrior I can protect you too! I want to make you proud not only to have an apprentice like me, but a son too. I know you see me that way. You're not good at hiding it. No matter what happens you'll always be my dad. Nothing will ever change that. I hope I can be a little but cooler than you someday, so get ready! I'll be asking for so many spars you'll be sick of it! Oh and... I love you dad, thank you for everything.[/quote]
[color=white][b]SLATE /[/b][/color] [color=#576B89][abbr='Suspicious']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BB980E][abbr='Finds Entertaining']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]I used to hate you more when I was younger and that was because you became Cherrypaw's mentor. She wanted Figfeather to be her mentor, but Blazestar thought you'd would be better for her. Maybe I'd loathe you now if she and I were still friends. Don't get me wrong I don't hate you, but I don't like you either. If I had to pick between you or throwing myself in the river I'd take the river any day. Honestly, I think you're a jerk. A lot of the times what you say is so stupid I don't get how you're a lead warrior sometimes. I'm just glad that Orangestar didn't make you deputy. Although if there's something good about you it's how flustered you get when she's around. That's a nice look on you. Not so high and mighty now, huh? I don't care much about you. I mean sure I have to listen to you and not get on your bad side, but I don't respect you. If I was forced to say what I respect when it comes to you, it's how silly you can be. Not sorry, dad's the best fighter in Skyclan not you. It wouldn't be fair of his son to say another tom is better than him, right? I'm sure you'd understand.[/quote]
[color=white][b]TWITCHBOLT /[/b][/color] [color=#AEED83][abbr='Wants to know better']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BBDF5B][abbr='Respects']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#C3CD27][abbr='Comfortable']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#C4AF14][abbr='Likes']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BC540E][abbr='Safe']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#B32548][abbr='Admires']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]Growing up I always admired and liked you. We're sort of the same and it felt like we were both underdogs? Oddpaw taught me that word. Anyway, I wished you were my mentor when I was a kit. It didn't happen of course, but you were my target. The fact that Orangestar made you deputy made me happy because it meant even those who are called weird can be deputies. We don't talk much. Sometimes I wish we could talk more, but I don't know what to talk about. I'll be a warrior soon, so I'm hoping we'll get some chances to hangout! You've really inspired me growing up and even though my path is different now, I just want you to know how much your presence reassures me. I respect you lots and if you ever need me to do something, I'll do it![/quote]
[color=white][b]ORANGESTAR /[/b][/color] [color=#AEED83][abbr='Wants to know better']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#DAF09E][abbr='Shy']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BBDF5B][abbr='Respects']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#C4AF14][abbr='Likes']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BC540E][abbr='Safe']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BC2F0E][abbr='Like family']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#B32548][abbr='Admires']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]Cherry's pretty mom! Sorry, I had to get that out one more time. I dunno. It's kind of weird. Not you! You're not weird. I mean it's weird how things change and still stay the same. You're not really my mom and I know that, but you were there. I remember when Bobbie went out for a break you took care of me like your own. Maybe it was just part of the job of being a queen, but you didn't have to be nice to me. You could've just made sure I didn't die or something. I know I was one of the worst kits. Throwing tantrums, crying myself to sleep, or screeching until my voice became hoarse. I've always thought you were cool and nice. Growing up, I haven't spoken to you much. It's even harder now that you're leader, but I'm not upset. Even though I'm not your kit, I was shocked to hear you talk about me. NOTHING BAD THOUGH! Just saying how I've improved and how time changes things. It probably didn't mean much to you, but it makes me happy to know you're still looking after me in a way. Although... Not gonna lie I'm a bit scared of how you feel about now. Now that I'm dating Owlheart. I hope you're not mad at me and if you are then I hope not too mad. I promise one thing Orangestar. I'll do my best for Owlheart and try not to hurt her. And if you want to test me then I accept. I'll prove myself worthy of her.[/quote]
[color=white][b]CHERRYBLOSSOM /[/b][/color] [color=#47E34A][abbr='Confused / Unsure']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#83ED85][abbr='Complicated Feelings']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]What happened to us? We used to be best friends. Did I do something wrong? I know I do a lot of things wrong, but you usually tell me. You haven't told me anything. I'm angry at you. When I was sick you didn't visit me. You talked to Lupinepaw a lot. I was there too y'know? And then you left. Is that where it all went wrong? When you left? And then when you came back, I couldn't see my best friend anymore. When we did talk, it was like you didn't want to even look at me. You were always running off. I'm starting to wonder if we were really friends. I don't remember a time where you actually listened to my problems. I was always following you. You were everything to me. And then... It meant nothing. Do you even remember me? The fun times we had? The way we used to laugh together? Or were you faking it all along? I can't tell anymore and maybe I really am stupid. I want to believe that I meant something. That at one point in your life you liked me. Cared about me. I still have the feathers you gave me. I still wear them. When you started to talk to me less I still wore them. After you left I still wore them. And when you came back I still wore them. Even though we aren't friends anymore, I still wear them. You don't react to them. I guess I was forgotten? I'm hoping you'll give me an answer someday, so I can finally stop holding on for something that's over. I'm frustrated, sad, and honestly I... I'm grateful for everything you taught me. Cherry, you were my first friend. I miss you.[/quote]
[color=white][b]OWLHEART /[/b][/color] [color=#AEED83][abbr='Wants to know better']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#DAF09E][abbr='Shy']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BBDF5B][abbr='Respects']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#C3CD27][abbr='Comfortable']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#C4AF14][abbr='Likes']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BC540E][abbr='Safe']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#900B1F][abbr='Protective']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#B32548][abbr='Admires']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#E353C1][abbr='Puppy crush']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]I'm one of her partners. She's beautiful. If I could I would ditch patrols and other duties just to hold her forever. I'd love that. I love her. I see the way she holds our sun so gently and all I want to do is watch until the moon rises. I'm not jealous. Why would I be when I know that my heart belongs to them? They both love me and I love them, seeing Oddpaw burry his little nose in her fur does something to me. I don't know what it is. Just watching them makes me excited? I want to jump on them for some reason? I dunno know, it's weird. I... I want to jump on them. Hold both of them down, not enough to hurt them. Stars, that's the last thing I want. I don't want to accidentally hurt her or him. Surprise them and kiss them both forever. When... When Owlheart speaks I could listen to her all day and night. Her voice is like listening to the river, it lulls you to sleep and makes you feel safe. I always want to be with her. Protect her, help her when she asks, and finally get better at hunting so I can bring her favorite meal. We aren't sleeping in the same nest for a moon. It's so fucking difficult not to grab her when our nests are so close. I want her. I want her so much. The selfish part of me wants to run away with her and take Oddpaw with us. That way we can all be together the way we want to. We don't have to work all the time. We could spend all day kissing and cuddling. I'm a light sleeper so I'll stay up watching both of them and fighting off anything that tries to hurt us. I know it's wrong and I wouldn't actually do that to her or him. Owlheart. I think that's a fitting name. You're so unsure of yourself and shy, you think you're weak. I don't think so. I think you're kind and the one of the strongest cats I know. More than me, I hope you'd realize that someday. Owlheart, is a wonderful name. I know your mom probably meant you're compassionate and kind, which is okay. There is nothing wrong with that. I think it's fitting because you have mine and Oddpaw's too. Never forget that.[/quote]
[color=white][b]ODDPAW /[/b][/color] [color=#AEED83][abbr='Wants to know better']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#C3CD27][abbr='Comfortable']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#C4AF14][abbr='Likes']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BB980E][abbr='Finds Entertaining']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BC7E0E][abbr='Friend']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#BC540E][abbr='Safe']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#900B1F][abbr='Protective']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#B32548][abbr='Admires']♡[/abbr][/color][color=#E353C1][abbr='Puppy crush']♡[/abbr][/color]
[quote]Maybe I should call him mouse with how cute their squeaks are. I still can't believe they bit me. Got 'em back though! Watch this turn into a biting war, not that I mind. I love them. I love Oddpaw and I'm one of his partners. Sometimes I can't believe it. It feels like only a few sunrises ago when I was asked to be friends. I couldn't say no, not with a smile like that and how honest he is. I knew right and there I liked him. Not the way I do now, but I promised myself even back then I would look out for them. We'll be best friends till the end. It's different now though. I'm happy he gave me, no us, both Owlheart and I a chance. Oddpaw trusted us. My sun, always making us laugh and look forward to another day. Even in the toughest times, our sun shares their light. That's not entirely why I love you. It could never be just that. You're more than a cat who makes us laugh and smile. Oddpaw you don't need to shine every day and I hope you know that. I'll be here when you have a horrible day where you can't even get out of bed. Owlheart will be there too. My sun, she loves you so much. You should've seen her after the meeting. When we both were making our own nests she kept thinking of you. We both did. We both love you after all. We'll be there if you let us. I'm not as good as comfort as her, but I'll try my best for you. Both of you. I meant it when I said I'll do anything for you. Maybe all I can do is protect you, but I want to be better. I can see it sometimes. When I see Owlheart showering you with her love. Sometimes you look desperate. Like we're both going to leave you. I won't leave you and Owlheart won't either. We miss you. We miss being together and sleeping in the same nest. Even though we're warriors now that doesn't mean we'll forget all about you. Owlheart and I promised my sun. We promised we'd wait for you. No matter how painful it gets, it'll be worth it. All I want is to hold you in my arms again. To kiss you till you forget your own name. Finally, making you so speechless you can't turn Owlheart or I to mush with your words. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for making you all alone. When we're together again, we won't let you go ever again.[/quote]
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