- Apr 12, 2024
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Why are we much different from the clan cats? Aren't we... clan cats? Thriftfeather had tried to soothe their worries, but only created more. Why does Starclan look kindly upon the other clans and not them? StarClan doesn't—they don't look kindly on us here. He had said. But why? What makes them different? Why can't Duskclan attend a gathering like the other clans do, and why are they so different? Why won't Starclan look at me?
Today she'll find out. They'll make their way in to Windclan, and they'll watch these cats. And maybe- maybe they'll copy them, any rituals, anything that they have. Maybe for once in their life, Gravelpaw wants to be swaddled with light and not shadow, clinging like swamp moss; bathed in love, to not be met with a venom-sweet smile from Ebonylight. I'll find out why. And when I find out, i'll- i'll share it with Hungerpaw and Thriftfeather. And then we can all be happy. Oh, to run away, to be looked at sweetly. To be in a place where no one knows your name. I don't even know my name.
Their heart beats wildly. The border, the strong, unmistakable scent of Windclan, stands right before them... In front of them, Windclan, behind them, a life she never truly wanted. And the horseplace fields, too. Crossing it feels like lightning, a hot flash of shame and then its over once they step in. What am I doing? What do they plan on doing when they're caught? They'll be flayed alive, surely... Leaving the camp with Vulturekit had nearly cost them their life. It's a miracle they left without any scratches. And speaking of Vulturekit... Their heart pangs at the loss of their friend. He's gone. Unsure of where he was, and truthfully Gravelpaw did try to search, really! Wherever he is, they hope hes alive. The thought of a body laying lifeless somewhere makes them nauseous. They push forwards, for what feels like hours but in reality only a couple minutes, to suddenly draw to a stop.
Theres pawsteps ahead. They know they need to high-tail it out of there, but the curiosity of seeing something, someone... Maybe they're nice. Maybe they're nicer than anyone else. Indecision leads them to freeze up, like those deer do in the distance when they hear a snap of a branch, like a feeble kit. Whose there, they almost try to bark out, but their mouth is dry, and the sun above is too hot, and the fear of being found out runs rampant.
Today she'll find out. They'll make their way in to Windclan, and they'll watch these cats. And maybe- maybe they'll copy them, any rituals, anything that they have. Maybe for once in their life, Gravelpaw wants to be swaddled with light and not shadow, clinging like swamp moss; bathed in love, to not be met with a venom-sweet smile from Ebonylight. I'll find out why. And when I find out, i'll- i'll share it with Hungerpaw and Thriftfeather. And then we can all be happy. Oh, to run away, to be looked at sweetly. To be in a place where no one knows your name. I don't even know my name.
Their heart beats wildly. The border, the strong, unmistakable scent of Windclan, stands right before them... In front of them, Windclan, behind them, a life she never truly wanted. And the horseplace fields, too. Crossing it feels like lightning, a hot flash of shame and then its over once they step in. What am I doing? What do they plan on doing when they're caught? They'll be flayed alive, surely... Leaving the camp with Vulturekit had nearly cost them their life. It's a miracle they left without any scratches. And speaking of Vulturekit... Their heart pangs at the loss of their friend. He's gone. Unsure of where he was, and truthfully Gravelpaw did try to search, really! Wherever he is, they hope hes alive. The thought of a body laying lifeless somewhere makes them nauseous. They push forwards, for what feels like hours but in reality only a couple minutes, to suddenly draw to a stop.
Theres pawsteps ahead. They know they need to high-tail it out of there, but the curiosity of seeing something, someone... Maybe they're nice. Maybe they're nicer than anyone else. Indecision leads them to freeze up, like those deer do in the distance when they hear a snap of a branch, like a feeble kit. Whose there, they almost try to bark out, but their mouth is dry, and the sun above is too hot, and the fear of being found out runs rampant.
- @SCORCHSTORM
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baby,gravelkit
❥ demi-girl 𓆩✧𓆪 she/they 𓆩✧𓆪 05 months
❥ duskclan apprentice 𓆩✧𓆪 mentored by thriftfeather
❥ black/blue smoke chimera with high white and blue eyes
❥ "speech, 9d9adf" 𓆩✧𓆪 thoughts
❥ single 𓆩✧𓆪 not interested in love (unknown sexuality)
❥ smells like chilled rain and pine needles 𓆩✧𓆪 nostalgic & icy
❥ penned by chuff