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Her loping strides are swift and clumsy, aiming to reach the river's cool water without paying much mind to the scratched - up branches she leaves in her wake, gathering the trembling - taut thread of her composure tight in her paws and holding it fast. Tension still winds tight in every compact line of her body, nerves bundling tightly between her knotted shoulders and in the creased furrow of her muzzle, the narrowed slits of her eyes—the heat of a live wire still burrows through her veins, leaving her crescent - curved claws, still unsheathed, aching to sink into something.
They only find a home in the bark beneath her paws. She exiles herself, if only temporarily, a familiar ritual, afraid of what the firebrands of her claws might do—fearful of scorching herself, her children, her Clanmates, even those she cannot bear to like. For the shame and the guilt and the regret bear a bitter companion on their tongue—fear, fear of what she might do, what she might say, when red clots the corners of her vision and her visage transforms itself into that of a wolf, of curled lips and bared fangs and spiked fur.
Her fur has mostly settled by the time she reaches RiverClan's border and drops from her tree, her fangs re - hidden behind rumpled white muzzle, her tail finally stilled—but she cannot fully disguise the gnarled pull the her tabby - washed bridge of her nose, nor the trembling of her powerful limbs, the way each paw slams into the sandy earth beneath it like a conquest. Anger beats tightly in the high curve of her neck, the neat squaring of her jaw, cramming in alongside stress in a jostling of warm bodies. Nor can she hide from herself the shame that writhes serpentine in her gut at the momentary lack of full control, the way her temper had strained against its leash, threadbare and ever - tightening and speckled with a hound's foam.
Doeblaze settles defeatedly to earth, and it is only when her dipped forelimb stings and stains the water crimson that she notices the shallow wound carved there—whether it was dealt by her own claws or an errant thorn - lined branch, she cannot say, so lost had she been in a scarlet haze. The sigh she heaves is hoarse and bearing the weight of the world in its weariness, perched lonely on the border as she delicately rinses her wound, dips her muzzle to drink, as if she might ever cleanse the bitterness from her lips.
OOC : Open to RiverClanners, but also to any SkyClanners who might've followed her or been in the area!♥︎