sensitive topics melted wax ] near-drowning

icarus

a fool fated to fall
Nov 11, 2024
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[ cw for descriptions of drowning ]

The river snarls and bellows beneath the heavy, brooding sky, its banks swollen with the deluge of recent rains. The forest frames the scene, its towering trees standing as a silent, shadowy audience to the solitary figure poised in the reeds. Icarus crouches low, his wiry frame hidden within the tall, swaying grasses. His eyes, sharp as a predator's, pierce through the undergrowth, locked onto his target—a sparrow. The tiny bird flits carelessly, oblivious to its stalker as it pecks at the scattered seeds dotting the earth. This is his moment. His heartbeat thunders in his chest, a drumbeat of raw adrenaline. Every nerve in his body feels alive, alight with the anticipation of the hunt. For moons, survival has demanded every ounce of his cunning, every shred of instinct. The thrill of it never dulls, yet this moment is unlike any other. A bird—so tantalizingly elusive—is a victory he has yet to claim. They embody freedom, grace, triumph. He crouches lower, his lean muscles coiling, every fiber of his being focused on the promise of success.

Then he leaps.

The sparrow reacts in a burst of frantic energy, wings beating in a flurry as it tries to flee. For a fleeting instant, triumph surges through Icarus. His claws graze the bird's tail feathers, so close he can almost feel its warmth, almost taste the glory. But then his foot strikes the slick, unstable edge of the riverbank. The rain-soaked earth gives way beneath him, crumbling into a cascade of loose soil. Time seems to slow, the moment stretching impossibly thin as the world upends. Then it snaps back, harsh and real, as the icy water consumes him. The river's roar swallows everything—the sparrow's alarmed cries, his own sharp gasp of shock. It surges around him, unyielding, cold fingers dragging him down into its depths. His world becomes a chaotic swirl of foam, shadows, and silenced screams. He kicks, claws scrabbling for purchase on something, anything. But the river offers no mercy, no reprieve, only relentless force.

He breaks the surface for a brief, desperate breath. Air sears his lungs, and hope sparks—but just as quickly, the current yanks him under again. The cold tears through him, sapping his strength, his clarity. His chest burns, his limbs flail in futile rebellion against the river's might. I can't die here. The thought blazes through his mind, fierce and defiant, but it is a flicker in the face of the relentless pull. Panic overwhelms him, drowning out reason and strategy. He fights wildly, thrashing against the water with every ounce of his waning energy. Memories surge unbidden—his reckless decisions, the path that has led him here. Running from everything, chasing something more. Freedom. The sun. The stars. He wanted it all, sought it out relentlessly, and now he's paying the price.

The edges of his vision darken, the world narrowing to the roaring, unforgiving water. His limbs grow heavy, his will crumbling like the bank that betrayed him. As his strength ebbs, so does the fight. He surrenders, the river claiming him as its own. In his final moments of consciousness, irony pierces through the haze of despair. This is what I wanted, isn't it? The freedom to fly my own course? When the river finally spits him out, it is as though it has grown tired of its plaything. Icarus is flung onto a rocky shore like a piece of driftwood, his body limp and lifeless in the shallows. The water laps at him gently now, a cruel mockery of the violence it has wrought. He lies unmoving, his sodden fur plastered against his bony frame, breaths faint and uneven, but there, just barely.

Above, the storm's tyranny begins to break. A tentative beam of sunlight pierces the clouds, dappling the turbulent river with gold. It falls upon Icarus, weak and shivering, as though offering solace to the barely living. The world grows quiet around him, save for the river's muted whispers. Somewhere, a sparrow sings—a small, defiant melody against the vast silence.​
 
The river takes as much as it gives. It's something that Sunpaw came to learn rather quickly. It's something all RiverClanners come to understand very quickly. The river gives food, gives life, gives many things that they need to survive. It gives them strength, it teaches them to use their bodies. But just as quickly, even the strongest swimmer, the best hunter, the best friend of the river, can be swept under the current and never be seen again. It happened with Owlpaw's first mentor. It happened with many faces afterwards, and many more during the flash flooding that they had had. The River was never a beast to play with.

But on occasion, it shows some faces mercy.

Sunpaw is out with a small patrol of other warriors. The weather lately has been shifting colder, and even now as she walks, her fur is ruffled out to try and keep herself warm. And amidst the sound of footsteps, her gaze scans out, and at first she thinks nothing of it. But her gaze keeps returning to it. She flicks her ears, and slowly changes direction to pad just a little bit closer. And then her stomach really plunges down. "There's somebody over there!" she calls backwards to the patrol that's with her. They haven't moved either, and given that she can't immediately identify a scent she feels okay picking up her step to push her way forward.

It is somebody. They're not awake. And through the dapple of sunlight, Sunpaw draws in a sharp breath through her teeth.

"Can we... even take on another mouth to feed right now?" she murmurs it out loud, a question that maybe should have stayed inside of her head. It's a terrible think to think. Even just some moons ago, she herself had been on the receiving end of RiverClan's hospitality. Sure, she had also joined rather rapidly and rather quickly became - with some bumps along the way - a true RiverClanner; but the atmosphere in camp now, the resources, the season even, were much different now than they were just a few precious six moons ago. That doesn't mean they can just leave them to die, obviously, but... "They're alive, right?"