- Jun 17, 2022
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Tonight was beautiful. The moon stood tall across the sky to send down the beaming light on the river to make it shine up like the stars themselves. It was a perfect night to return back to the same place he kept on visiting, months after months on repeat. The pattern never changed. It never would. Down here by the river was the only place he belonged to be.
Two years had already passed by..so many full moons had passed since then. So many times he had been standing here now by the river to place the six hyacinth flowers into the water to watch them drift far away. Every single full moon this would be the place to be, repeating the same thing over and over again, to place the same flowers at the river, each one for someone that had been lost, stolen from him. The rest of the remaining time was nothing but a blurr, a meaningless existence. Everyday since then they had just been drifting day by day, just a empty shell of who he once had been. Grief had left a lasting mark on the soul. Too many losses. Anything good he so dared to touch would turn into nothing but dust. A place to belong did not exist for someone like them.
The last flower had been dropt into the still river to float away slowly to accompany the rest on the journey. Ravendusk followed the unchanged pattern to watch under a heartbreaking silence. No matter how much time passed this unbearable pain never seemed to go away. The guilt and self-lothing only seemed to grow stronger for each passing day...when thinking about what could have been. When thinking about this tiny paws, this innocent smiles that had shined so brightly once. It felt like forever ago now. Just a distant memory.
Ravendusk stared up at the stars even if fully aware no comfort would come from there. " If i serve you faithfully...will you let them in too?." an question that never would comfort with a answer they knew. It was pointless to wonder, to even dare to hope anymore. In the first place he shouldn't even be here in this place right now. It should just have been a temporary stay, an escape from reality for a while. But aha, look at him being a such fool to have stayed...dooming yet another life to death because of it.
His sorrowful gaze would find its way into the water once more to stare into his own spiteful reflection. " Peachpaw...i'm so sorry..." He had failed them. For two years time they had grieved their apprentice death, refusing to take on a new one ever since losing them. If he had just kept a closer eye on them....Peachpaw who had become the sole reason of him staying, to have given him a new purpose in life. A light in the darkness...gone all over again. His grief had keept them here, a thirst for justice to avenge their poor apprentice...until their grief had become the only reason of remaining to drift away until there was nothing left of him.
Sometimes he wished to just step out into the water to allow the waves to swollow them and sink to the bottom and let the coldness embrace them forever. That would have been fitting end for them for sure.
Two years had already passed by..so many full moons had passed since then. So many times he had been standing here now by the river to place the six hyacinth flowers into the water to watch them drift far away. Every single full moon this would be the place to be, repeating the same thing over and over again, to place the same flowers at the river, each one for someone that had been lost, stolen from him. The rest of the remaining time was nothing but a blurr, a meaningless existence. Everyday since then they had just been drifting day by day, just a empty shell of who he once had been. Grief had left a lasting mark on the soul. Too many losses. Anything good he so dared to touch would turn into nothing but dust. A place to belong did not exist for someone like them.
The last flower had been dropt into the still river to float away slowly to accompany the rest on the journey. Ravendusk followed the unchanged pattern to watch under a heartbreaking silence. No matter how much time passed this unbearable pain never seemed to go away. The guilt and self-lothing only seemed to grow stronger for each passing day...when thinking about what could have been. When thinking about this tiny paws, this innocent smiles that had shined so brightly once. It felt like forever ago now. Just a distant memory.
Ravendusk stared up at the stars even if fully aware no comfort would come from there. " If i serve you faithfully...will you let them in too?." an question that never would comfort with a answer they knew. It was pointless to wonder, to even dare to hope anymore. In the first place he shouldn't even be here in this place right now. It should just have been a temporary stay, an escape from reality for a while. But aha, look at him being a such fool to have stayed...dooming yet another life to death because of it.
His sorrowful gaze would find its way into the water once more to stare into his own spiteful reflection. " Peachpaw...i'm so sorry..." He had failed them. For two years time they had grieved their apprentice death, refusing to take on a new one ever since losing them. If he had just kept a closer eye on them....Peachpaw who had become the sole reason of him staying, to have given him a new purpose in life. A light in the darkness...gone all over again. His grief had keept them here, a thirst for justice to avenge their poor apprentice...until their grief had become the only reason of remaining to drift away until there was nothing left of him.
Sometimes he wished to just step out into the water to allow the waves to swollow them and sink to the bottom and let the coldness embrace them forever. That would have been fitting end for them for sure.
