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A trickle like a new-leaf stream come to life after months of freeze and chill, it had started small and grown louder in its heavy downpour, tumbling tumultuously and relentlessly as it sought to carve a new path- her nerves had gone from their usual tingling nature to something akin to a full body shaking. Stress was not uncommon, leadership not an unfamiliar burden and yet... this gnawed at the tender parts of her belly, made her lungs constrict worse than the tense grip of yellow cough. The coming chill was all too familiar, the losses they'd suffered still fresh in the hearts and minds of anyone old enough to know the dangers of winter; their home flooded, prey scarce, territory snapped up by greedy claws that saw their struggle as an opportunity. She loathed them for it, for the part they'd played in seeing her colony struggle and made worsened by their efforts.
She was no better than ThunderClan this leaf bare and it had yet to begin.
Lingering like a ghost just outside the barrier-like leaves of the willow den, the deputy was none too certain she wasn't about to become one. The time to sit on her heels and lick her wounds had passed and reality, in its relentless persistence, demanded addressing now before a rounded belly sold her out as a fool, as someone blinded by tearful reunion in the face of so much sorrow. Clearing her throat, it felt dry and her gravelly voice felt more hoarse than ever as she brushed past wilting leaves of the deciduous flora, "Smokestar," it felt strange on her tongue, the way his suffix clinked against the back of her teeth in a way 'throat' hadn't.
He was not someone to fear in the same ways his mottled heart-keeper had been, an observation she was reminded of in every small interaction, in every gentle-toned meeting he held with his council. Their opinions were valued and not treated with scorn, like blasphemy against the fishbone crown he wore. He trusts you, was a sentiment offered to her as reassurance but that made it all the more daunting. He had said once... that they were not the sum of their mistakes, but how they chose to grow from them.
Had he known then, where fatherhood would take him? What StarClan was willing to tear from him with his namesake raw from yelling, his paws bloodied and claws torn to fight- how cruel, those stars, they thought for the hundredth time in the last two moons.
"If you have a moment..." It wasn't something she could prepare him for.. but it was done. It couldn't be taken back (a truth she understood and feared more than anything). "I'd rather you hear this from me."
It should be good news if it weren't for the changing of the season. If it weren't for the imminent war at their doorstep.
CLAIM THE BURIAL I SEEK IN DREAMS
FLOWING RIVER CEMETARY