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Foxtail shifts in his nest, letting out a groan at, yet another, a sleepless night. He opens his tired olive green eyes, and tucks his tail over his paws. His nest feels comfortable, and his eyes feel ready for sleep. But when he closes his eyes to enter his dreams, his mind feels awake. His thoughts are running wild— wilder than they have ever done before— and he simply cannot sleep in this condition. What if I’m still failing Smokestar? His mind hisses, anxiety sinking into his chest. Foxtail had been too inexperienced to handle Eelpaw. As the rogue situation intensified, he pushed her aside to apprentice chores after apprentice chores. ...He thought he was keeping her safe; she was far too young to be out in RiverClan territory with rogues lurking in every corner. And now it’s his fault her training has been delayed! Only a moon had gone by before Smokestar entrusted his nephew to Foxtail. He wants to believe he’s a better mentor this time around... there hasn’t been a waking moment where he and Pebblepaw aren’t out and about. Pebblepaw is excelling in hunting, making progress in battling and tracking.
But what about swimming?
Pebblepaw doesn’t know how to swim, He thinks with dread, his claws flexing onto his nest. And it’s my fault. …StarClan forbid Pebblepaw accidentally got swept by a nasty current, or fell into deep water— would the instincts of a RiverClanner take over, or would his apprentice drown? His RiverClan instincts certainly didn’t take over when he was an apprentice, that’s for sure. ...He’d be among silverpelt if it weren’t for Feathergaze, and he shudders at the thought. The frozen river accident was moons, moons, ago. And it still has a toll on the young warrior. He remembers how frigid the water felt. And how silent drowning really is. He didn’t cry for help; he didn’t splash around and make a dramatic scene. It’s quiet and deadly, and it was pure luck his friend noticed him slip underneath the frigid water.
I’m failing Pebblepaw. Just like I failed Eelpaw.
He’s avoiding training all over again, isn’t he? He’s been so, so, busy with Pebblpaw’s hunting, battling, and scent tracking progress. But an entire moon has passed. He can’t remember a single instance where he brought Pebblepaw to the river, that wasn’t for a fishing lesson. He lets out a heavy sigh. "I-I don’t want to fail him too," He quietly murmurs, ears pinning back. But if he can barely get himself to swim comfortably, how will he teach Pebblepaw? How will he ensure his fear won’t pass down onto his apprentice? He gulps, that only means one thing.
He steps out of his nest, and exits the warriors den, the moonlight brightening up the night. Most of the clan is in deep slumber, and his gaze flashes over to the apprentice’s den. His gaze lands on the slumbering form of his apprentice, with his two littermates close by. With a quiet sigh, he looks away and pads through the quiet camp. His paws get closer and closer to the water that surrounds their camp, his heart starting to race on instinct. I have to improve myself before I can teach him, He tells himself, his limbs shaking. He lifts his paw, and briefly hesitates. He stares at the calm water and disrupts it as he steps in.
He pushes himself forward and goes deeper into the water, until only his head is visible. "S-stay calm… stay calm," He whispers to himself as he kicks in the water, and keeps himself afloat. He’s safe. He isn’t going to drown. …But despite repeating this mantra in his head, his heart continues to be on edge. This is only the start to overcome his fear of water. It won’t magically go away after a simple swim, but at least he’s trying. A heavy, nervous breath leaves his maw as he continues his nightly swim. This is necessary, He thinks one more time, not noticing the silhouette approaching him from behind.
But what about swimming?
Pebblepaw doesn’t know how to swim, He thinks with dread, his claws flexing onto his nest. And it’s my fault. …StarClan forbid Pebblepaw accidentally got swept by a nasty current, or fell into deep water— would the instincts of a RiverClanner take over, or would his apprentice drown? His RiverClan instincts certainly didn’t take over when he was an apprentice, that’s for sure. ...He’d be among silverpelt if it weren’t for Feathergaze, and he shudders at the thought. The frozen river accident was moons, moons, ago. And it still has a toll on the young warrior. He remembers how frigid the water felt. And how silent drowning really is. He didn’t cry for help; he didn’t splash around and make a dramatic scene. It’s quiet and deadly, and it was pure luck his friend noticed him slip underneath the frigid water.
I’m failing Pebblepaw. Just like I failed Eelpaw.
He’s avoiding training all over again, isn’t he? He’s been so, so, busy with Pebblpaw’s hunting, battling, and scent tracking progress. But an entire moon has passed. He can’t remember a single instance where he brought Pebblepaw to the river, that wasn’t for a fishing lesson. He lets out a heavy sigh. "I-I don’t want to fail him too," He quietly murmurs, ears pinning back. But if he can barely get himself to swim comfortably, how will he teach Pebblepaw? How will he ensure his fear won’t pass down onto his apprentice? He gulps, that only means one thing.
He steps out of his nest, and exits the warriors den, the moonlight brightening up the night. Most of the clan is in deep slumber, and his gaze flashes over to the apprentice’s den. His gaze lands on the slumbering form of his apprentice, with his two littermates close by. With a quiet sigh, he looks away and pads through the quiet camp. His paws get closer and closer to the water that surrounds their camp, his heart starting to race on instinct. I have to improve myself before I can teach him, He tells himself, his limbs shaking. He lifts his paw, and briefly hesitates. He stares at the calm water and disrupts it as he steps in.
He pushes himself forward and goes deeper into the water, until only his head is visible. "S-stay calm… stay calm," He whispers to himself as he kicks in the water, and keeps himself afloat. He’s safe. He isn’t going to drown. …But despite repeating this mantra in his head, his heart continues to be on edge. This is only the start to overcome his fear of water. It won’t magically go away after a simple swim, but at least he’s trying. A heavy, nervous breath leaves his maw as he continues his nightly swim. This is necessary, He thinks one more time, not noticing the silhouette approaching him from behind.
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WAHOOO 100TH POST
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credit to skaicraft (via insta) for the artwork <3
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Foxtailwarriorcisgender male [he / him]
warmhearted
timid
experience: trained
backstory: [HYPERLINK]
biography: [HYPERLINK]
credit to kabliahk via insta for the chibi <3
eyes: green
pelt: cinnamon/chocolate
fur length: long
parents: dawnflower and redfur (riverclan npcs)
19 moons