- Jul 27, 2022
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He finds himself at the edge of the river, frigid water rolling over his paws. He's been finding himself coming here more often despite the fear of rushing water; the water lately has been tamer, or... At least each time he has come here it has been. Buck had given him swimming lessons, in much calmer water and in a fleeting moment he wonders if the waters newfound association of her is what lightens the fear that would have sparked in to his chest otherwise. He clenches his teeth taught.
He feels pathetic. He's no help to the clan, he does not know how to weave with paws that fumble too close to one another, has not attempted to fish since Clearsight tried to teach him. A heavy sigh tumbles from his mouth as he raises his eyes from the water to the evening sun setting on the horizon, painting the sky like wildfire. His eyes soften as he turns his attention back, a sappy thought about Buck coming back. He's seen how comfortable the other cats seem in the water, how Willowroot and their siblings had spoken of being in this vast land of water and being fine with it. Perhaps its time for him to conquer his fear. Become a better man. Not mooch off the kindness of others.
He so desperately wants to be something great.
He makes his way further in to the water, careful paws feeling around for a sudden drop-off. When he finds it, he takes a deep breath and his heart picks up speed. Today would be the day....! He'd catch a fish, he'd be so good and maybe his mind would calm down with the hurtful things it spouts about himself. He stands there as Clearsights voice echoes in his head, asking for help won't make you any less a warrior-- if anything, you'll be a better one. He feels slightly more determined now as he lets himself drop off in to the water.
For a second he thinks hes drowning again and his paws almost refuse to work with him, but he overcomes it quickly by thinking once more of Clear's advice. Still, silent, invisible- I want to tread quietly. he nods at his own thoughts and his paws move, theres no heavy splashing as he treads deeper in to the river, forcing his breathing to be steady. Just like how he sees other cats swim, he replicates it with slight difficulty, though it only strains his mind rather than his technique.
Theres a shadow beneath the water. Face the sun. His eyes fleet up and he nods silently, taking a deep breath as he prepares to go under. He dips himself fully in. The pressure immediately hits him but hes desperate despite the fear filling in his chest, desperate to prove himself. Paws snag scales and he almost reels back, but he focuses on using his back paws to propel himself back up to the surface and for once he does it. The fish is thrashing as his head breaks surface tension, but pride fills his body like a fire, he just... Needs to get it to the shore. He's struggling to haul both him and the fish but he makes it, somehow.
Paws scratch against riverbed and he knows hes there, his fur is dripping and he knows hes beyond cold but the fire keeps him temporarily warm. Theres a fish at his paws now and hes beaming, bright and happy. Tears mist in his eyes, hes finally did it, his technique can use a lot of work, but by the Stars he finally did it. Finally the flood gates open and he begins to sob out of pure joy, pride in himself. "I- I finally did it!"
He feels pathetic. He's no help to the clan, he does not know how to weave with paws that fumble too close to one another, has not attempted to fish since Clearsight tried to teach him. A heavy sigh tumbles from his mouth as he raises his eyes from the water to the evening sun setting on the horizon, painting the sky like wildfire. His eyes soften as he turns his attention back, a sappy thought about Buck coming back. He's seen how comfortable the other cats seem in the water, how Willowroot and their siblings had spoken of being in this vast land of water and being fine with it. Perhaps its time for him to conquer his fear. Become a better man. Not mooch off the kindness of others.
He so desperately wants to be something great.
He makes his way further in to the water, careful paws feeling around for a sudden drop-off. When he finds it, he takes a deep breath and his heart picks up speed. Today would be the day....! He'd catch a fish, he'd be so good and maybe his mind would calm down with the hurtful things it spouts about himself. He stands there as Clearsights voice echoes in his head, asking for help won't make you any less a warrior-- if anything, you'll be a better one. He feels slightly more determined now as he lets himself drop off in to the water.
For a second he thinks hes drowning again and his paws almost refuse to work with him, but he overcomes it quickly by thinking once more of Clear's advice. Still, silent, invisible- I want to tread quietly. he nods at his own thoughts and his paws move, theres no heavy splashing as he treads deeper in to the river, forcing his breathing to be steady. Just like how he sees other cats swim, he replicates it with slight difficulty, though it only strains his mind rather than his technique.
Theres a shadow beneath the water. Face the sun. His eyes fleet up and he nods silently, taking a deep breath as he prepares to go under. He dips himself fully in. The pressure immediately hits him but hes desperate despite the fear filling in his chest, desperate to prove himself. Paws snag scales and he almost reels back, but he focuses on using his back paws to propel himself back up to the surface and for once he does it. The fish is thrashing as his head breaks surface tension, but pride fills his body like a fire, he just... Needs to get it to the shore. He's struggling to haul both him and the fish but he makes it, somehow.
Paws scratch against riverbed and he knows hes there, his fur is dripping and he knows hes beyond cold but the fire keeps him temporarily warm. Theres a fish at his paws now and hes beaming, bright and happy. Tears mist in his eyes, hes finally did it, his technique can use a lot of work, but by the Stars he finally did it. Finally the flood gates open and he begins to sob out of pure joy, pride in himself. "I- I finally did it!"
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