nothing to change【♛】Forestshade


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BRIARPAW — hello, my old heart.
Once, a much smaller Briarkit had hoped that once she was made into an apprentice, her mother’s attention would finally be flickered in her direction.
Every catch, every new move Skunktail had taught to her, the ebony apprentice only wanted to show one cat- and sometimes she got the chance to, before her mother would be called away to tend to her own apprentices, her own warrior duties.
Briarpaw understood, truly she did, convincing her small heart that what Forestshade was doing was respectable, and Briarpaw was simply the daughter of an important warrior.
Yet, there was something more important than her silly, juvenile feelings at stake- it was Screechpaws future.
Sweetpaw she was able to look out for easy enough, her soft-spoken sibling rarely ever on the lookout for trouble, and normally glued to their mother’s side anyways.
Screechpaw however, was growing to become the eldest sisters biggest worry, their sibling bickering quickly turning into scolding, her basic littermate obligations morphing into something taxing, Briarpaw’s love for her sibling too stubborn to relent.
The final straw came early in the morning, groggy eyes still blinking away sleep happening to catch sight of Screechpaw sticking his nose into minor trouble.
Yet, Forestshade was there, and Briarpaw felt relieved for a fleeting moment, her mother could correct him this time, she was free to go about her morning without a hiccup.
Nope.
Forestshade had been quick to turn her attention elsewhere, most likely to attend to Sweetpaw and Orchidpaws training.
It is well past Sun-high when Briarpaw was able to catch sight of her mother again, where they scheduled finally aligned for the perfect opportunity.
"Forestshade!" The child calls, bee-lining after patchwork fur until she knows her mothers attention has been captured.
"We need to talk… about Screechpaw, I’m worried about him."
Please, listen.

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Ever since that night the mother had found Screechkit out in the marsh by himself, sneaking away from camp, things have only gotten worse. As an apprentice, he is bolder with his rule-breaking, more frequent. Of course this upsets Forestshade, for she wants her kits to grow up to be respected and valued warriors of the clan, not shamed troublemakers. So when she catches him this morning, she swiftly sends him back to Chilledstar with hushed words and a flicking tail, sweeping his shenanigans under the metaphorical rug. No one needs to know, because if they did, it would look bad on her, it would look bad on him. So his mistake, like past ones, is erased, with no one to spare even a glance to.

Except to her daughter. Her ears prick when she hears Briarpaw’s call, voice tinged with a sort of desperation. She faces her ebony child’s direction, brow lifted in curiosity. “There’s no need to be worried,” She mews back to her, voice casual as she guides her to the edge of camp. Her tail brushes her daughter’s shoulder briefly as if to show comfort, but her attitude is flippant. She wants to deny there is any serious problem with Screechpaw’s actions. “What’s all this about, kid?”
 

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BRIARPAW — hello, my old heart.
There’s no need to be worried.
A nonchalant drawl from her mother’s lips, and Briarpaw feels a disappointed pang in her chest, as though the conversation was already over before it could even begin.
Still, she lets the patchwork warrior guide her way from prying ears, eyes lingering on the fleeting but meaningful gesture of small comfort that is brushed against her shoulder.
What’s this all about, kid?
Stars may forsake the adolescent, but Briarpaw is thankful for her mother’s blindness in this moment, as the other cannot see the disdainful scowl that blooms on juvenile features.
"What…what do you mean?" The raven apprentice finally replies, "He sneaks away from camp, doesn’t complete his chores, disobeys practically everything. You know this." Her next reply is spoken with tact, though her usual blunt edge is always softened when speaking with Forestshade, her voice subconsciously a tad meeker.
"He could get hurt one day, with no one to help him. He… he could fall behind in his training, be held back." Perhaps Forestshade didn’t know, maybe she just needed an explanation.
Surely, if she knew everything, the torbie would finally step in.

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Forestshade frowns, ears pulling back. Yes, Screechpaw’s behavior isn’t what she wants it to be, and to her Briarpaw’s concerns are absolutely valid. But what can she do? She can’t let her son be caught, be punished - it would put him behind in training, ruin his reputation, ruin her reputation. So she covers for him, over and over and over.

Ear folding back further, she lowers her voice so only her daughter can hear them, nervous about any prying eyes or ears. “It’s going to be fine, Briarpaw. He’ll get over this phase, he’s just…young. He’s not as responsible as you’ve always been, but he’ll learn. He’ll get on the right track.” And as always, she believes he’ll get on his own track. She has never been the type of mother to want her kits to follow any path she laid out for them; it’s why she left them so often in the nursery to their own devices. Screechpaw is just…taking longer to find that path.
 

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BRIARPAW — hello, my old heart.
Any tremor of hope Briarpaw may have felt seeing her mother’s ears draw back, to see her maw twitch in a small frown.
Until, for a third time, she is brushed off.
It’s going to be fine, Briarpaw.
Involuntarily, the adolescent can feel her whiskers begin to twitch, her frustration no longer discreet in the way it radiates from her fur.
Even if the patchwork warrior was right, if everything was fine and normal, Screechpaw still needed direction, anyone could see that.
"Covering his tracks won’t work forever." While not a proper outcry, Briarpaw suppresses the urge to wince at the coldness in her grumbling tone, the disdain.
She hadn’t meant to sound so harsh, but as wide optics stare into her mothers unseeing for only a couple of heartbeats longer, she would finally let go of the conversation by stomping away, brushing past the warrior in a huff.
She was trying- why couldn’t Forestshade? Why couldn’t Screechpaw?
Why doesn’t anyone care?

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Her ears flatten against her skull as she stifles the urge to wince at her daughter’s harsh tone. She’s angry, anyone can tell that much. But before she can say anything, she feels her fur against her as she leaves, brushing past her and huffing and then she’s gone.

Forestshade is left sitting alone, a frown tugging at her lips as she faces the ground. What am I meant to do? A heavy sigh flits from her jaws as she hangs her head in defeat for a moment before pushing herself to her paws. She will just need to keep doing what she’s doing keeping her son out of trouble - Briarpaw will understand some day.