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Valepaw still refused to swim.
He had spent more moons of his life as an apprentice than not and can still recall the seething jealousy he felt to know that he was one of the last apprentices to be named before the introduction of a code that would've stalled it. The majority of his den-mates now did not understand that fear, of being three months old and wandering a world you hadn't even fully grown into. He tried his best to live his life with some amount of honor... some sort of decency and bravery befitting the heroes from stories. Idealizing the strength and determination of his brother did little to stem the delusions of grandeur, of a Valepaw grown up to be so sturdy and reliable that even the most powerful tide could not stir him.
It's harder than it looks... The tender spots where teeth had dug into his flesh serve as a reminder that bravery can be synonymous with stupidity... Otterbite had been impressed with his ability to stubbornly persist but... He'd said her name. Had been so weak-willed as to summon her without thinking and that struck an anxious chord through him. He'd broken one of his own cardinal rules... Betrayed Moonbeam in that small but important way.
Valepaw worried that being a warrior wasn't something he was cut out to be. He wasn't a terribly good fighter, actively avoided it if he could and hunting had been a constant struggle. Redpath insisted he learn to fish, that was the point of being a RiverClanner, in no small way but he couldn't even set foot in the shallows without tensing up. That left what few creatures still skittered across their lands and not many of his clan-mates shared much interest in prioritizing that kind of hunting.
But he did. Elbows scuffed and pads rubbed raw from failure after failure, the chimera insisted that he would learn to contribute. That he wouldn't continue to pluck food off the fresh-kill pile and offer nothing in return. He'd lazed around enough in the time spent nursing his leg and even though he was scared of it giving out on him, the insistence to be the brave knight he wanted to be lulled that fear to barely a simmer.
This time, as he leapt forward with claws outstretched towards a small rodent, he wouldn't find the dirt between his nails and scraping at his clumsily placed limbs. Instead, there is a scent of freedom.... of accomplishment and he picks up a fat water vole in his fanged mouth with a delight unparalleled to anything else he'd felt in life. The walk back to camp is far quicker than the trek out had been, with a bounce to his step that foretells his good humors before he even can deposit his catch on the pile. "For someone who wants a break from fish," he announces decidedly, puffing out his chest with pride.
He had spent more moons of his life as an apprentice than not and can still recall the seething jealousy he felt to know that he was one of the last apprentices to be named before the introduction of a code that would've stalled it. The majority of his den-mates now did not understand that fear, of being three months old and wandering a world you hadn't even fully grown into. He tried his best to live his life with some amount of honor... some sort of decency and bravery befitting the heroes from stories. Idealizing the strength and determination of his brother did little to stem the delusions of grandeur, of a Valepaw grown up to be so sturdy and reliable that even the most powerful tide could not stir him.
It's harder than it looks... The tender spots where teeth had dug into his flesh serve as a reminder that bravery can be synonymous with stupidity... Otterbite had been impressed with his ability to stubbornly persist but... He'd said her name. Had been so weak-willed as to summon her without thinking and that struck an anxious chord through him. He'd broken one of his own cardinal rules... Betrayed Moonbeam in that small but important way.
Valepaw worried that being a warrior wasn't something he was cut out to be. He wasn't a terribly good fighter, actively avoided it if he could and hunting had been a constant struggle. Redpath insisted he learn to fish, that was the point of being a RiverClanner, in no small way but he couldn't even set foot in the shallows without tensing up. That left what few creatures still skittered across their lands and not many of his clan-mates shared much interest in prioritizing that kind of hunting.
But he did. Elbows scuffed and pads rubbed raw from failure after failure, the chimera insisted that he would learn to contribute. That he wouldn't continue to pluck food off the fresh-kill pile and offer nothing in return. He'd lazed around enough in the time spent nursing his leg and even though he was scared of it giving out on him, the insistence to be the brave knight he wanted to be lulled that fear to barely a simmer.
This time, as he leapt forward with claws outstretched towards a small rodent, he wouldn't find the dirt between his nails and scraping at his clumsily placed limbs. Instead, there is a scent of freedom.... of accomplishment and he picks up a fat water vole in his fanged mouth with a delight unparalleled to anything else he'd felt in life. The walk back to camp is far quicker than the trek out had been, with a bounce to his step that foretells his good humors before he even can deposit his catch on the pile. "For someone who wants a break from fish," he announces decidedly, puffing out his chest with pride.