- Aug 1, 2022
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IM SCARED TO GET CLOSE AND I HATE BEING ALONE
I LONG FOR THE FEELING TO NOT FEEL AT ALL
THE HIGHER I GET, THE LOWER I SINK
I CAN'T DROWN MY DEMONS, THEY KNOW HOW TO SWIM
After the death of Wisteriapaw, Sootstar had ordered all of the sick cats out of camp and to the old badger set out in the hills. It was a smart decision, and while there were many Windclanners who thought such an order was cruel and unnecessary, Coldsnap was not among them. Sickness was a killer and their healer was inexperienced despite his raw talent, and as much as the gray tabby had faith in Dandelionwish, this would be their first time facing a winter and they had no mentor or support to fall back on.
It was one more stack of angst to pile onto their already mile-high list of drama, and Coldsnap was grateful not to be among those stuck in their nest waiting for a sound recovery. He had too much to do to be stuck idle, and that wasn't just because of his usual workload. He had promised Hyacinth that he'd look after the cats she was leaving behind, and he couldn't very well do that if he was stuck in bed all day coughing up a storm.
And had it been but a few weeks prior, Coldsnap probably wouldn't have ventured anywhere near the old badger set just to avoid getting sick. Not that he had much of a worry to begin with in regards to it- his coat was thick and his immune system was strong, his body built off cold nights spent in the shadows training. He was just as at home in the bitter cold as he was in the heat when his coat thinned, maybe even more so. Still, he wouldn't have risked it. What would have been the point? His presence wouldn't have helped any of them.
And it still wouldn't, he knew that. He wasn't a healer, wasn't good company, couldn't even call himself a 'friend' to most of the cats in there since he didn't spend enough time with any of them to warrant the merit of such a title. His presence would have been utterly pointless, but still..
He'd promised Hyacinth he'd look after them all.
And so white paws carried him through the snow from which his name was derived, white blending with white and speckling tabby grey in stray snowflakes. Most cats thought his name came from his cold persona, but no. Coldsnap had been born in the frigid cold of bareleaf, in the middle of a snowstorm that had cause a whiteout for miles around. He'd been named for the day and what his mother had remembered most of all; the cold, the snow, the air pooling in front of her muzzle with each breath.
Maybe thats why the cold had never bothered him, why the ice in his heart had settled so easily.
It was noon when he showed up at the badger set, knowing that Dandelion had been forced to return to the main camp to help with a clanmates injury. It was nothing serious, but Coldsnap had used the incident as a chance to slip away into the hills, unseen and unheard, a fat bird held in his jaws. He'd caught it while out hunting that morningand since nobody had taken it he figured he was clear to bring it along. At the very least, he could use it as an excuse once Dandelion returned and he was inevitably caught and thrown out.
The scent of sickness was strong as Coldsnap slipped inside the tunnel, grumbling slightly at the squeeze it caused on a cat as broad as he was. There was still pleanty of room considering it had been sized for a badger, but Cold wasn't small and he was used to the wide open spaces of the moors, not this cramped, underground setup happening here. Thankfully, things opened up once he got inside, and a few moments later he found himself in the main chamber, several nests of sleeping cats spread out around him. It didn't take long for golden-yellow eyes to find the familiar coat of Coalfoot, and he carefully made his way over to where they were laying, taking a quiet seat at their bedside.
"You awake, Coalfoot?" he asked after setting the bird down beside him, voice low so as not to disturb the other ill cats. If he wasn't, Coldsnap would let him rest, leaving the bird for them to discover later.
windclan warrior - male - 12 months - a large, dark grey tabby with yellow eyes
I LONG FOR THE FEELING TO NOT FEEL AT ALL
THE HIGHER I GET, THE LOWER I SINK
I CAN'T DROWN MY DEMONS, THEY KNOW HOW TO SWIM
After the death of Wisteriapaw, Sootstar had ordered all of the sick cats out of camp and to the old badger set out in the hills. It was a smart decision, and while there were many Windclanners who thought such an order was cruel and unnecessary, Coldsnap was not among them. Sickness was a killer and their healer was inexperienced despite his raw talent, and as much as the gray tabby had faith in Dandelionwish, this would be their first time facing a winter and they had no mentor or support to fall back on.
It was one more stack of angst to pile onto their already mile-high list of drama, and Coldsnap was grateful not to be among those stuck in their nest waiting for a sound recovery. He had too much to do to be stuck idle, and that wasn't just because of his usual workload. He had promised Hyacinth that he'd look after the cats she was leaving behind, and he couldn't very well do that if he was stuck in bed all day coughing up a storm.
And had it been but a few weeks prior, Coldsnap probably wouldn't have ventured anywhere near the old badger set just to avoid getting sick. Not that he had much of a worry to begin with in regards to it- his coat was thick and his immune system was strong, his body built off cold nights spent in the shadows training. He was just as at home in the bitter cold as he was in the heat when his coat thinned, maybe even more so. Still, he wouldn't have risked it. What would have been the point? His presence wouldn't have helped any of them.
And it still wouldn't, he knew that. He wasn't a healer, wasn't good company, couldn't even call himself a 'friend' to most of the cats in there since he didn't spend enough time with any of them to warrant the merit of such a title. His presence would have been utterly pointless, but still..
He'd promised Hyacinth he'd look after them all.
And so white paws carried him through the snow from which his name was derived, white blending with white and speckling tabby grey in stray snowflakes. Most cats thought his name came from his cold persona, but no. Coldsnap had been born in the frigid cold of bareleaf, in the middle of a snowstorm that had cause a whiteout for miles around. He'd been named for the day and what his mother had remembered most of all; the cold, the snow, the air pooling in front of her muzzle with each breath.
Maybe thats why the cold had never bothered him, why the ice in his heart had settled so easily.
It was noon when he showed up at the badger set, knowing that Dandelion had been forced to return to the main camp to help with a clanmates injury. It was nothing serious, but Coldsnap had used the incident as a chance to slip away into the hills, unseen and unheard, a fat bird held in his jaws. He'd caught it while out hunting that morningand since nobody had taken it he figured he was clear to bring it along. At the very least, he could use it as an excuse once Dandelion returned and he was inevitably caught and thrown out.
The scent of sickness was strong as Coldsnap slipped inside the tunnel, grumbling slightly at the squeeze it caused on a cat as broad as he was. There was still pleanty of room considering it had been sized for a badger, but Cold wasn't small and he was used to the wide open spaces of the moors, not this cramped, underground setup happening here. Thankfully, things opened up once he got inside, and a few moments later he found himself in the main chamber, several nests of sleeping cats spread out around him. It didn't take long for golden-yellow eyes to find the familiar coat of Coalfoot, and he carefully made his way over to where they were laying, taking a quiet seat at their bedside.
"You awake, Coalfoot?" he asked after setting the bird down beside him, voice low so as not to disturb the other ill cats. If he wasn't, Coldsnap would let him rest, leaving the bird for them to discover later.
windclan warrior - male - 12 months - a large, dark grey tabby with yellow eyes