- May 17, 2023
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THE HERMIT ─── This was not supposed to happen. Not today. Not tomorrow. Not anytime soon.
It was meant to be a simple trek towards the border, one that he believed would finally get to be mundane now that the rogues had scattered off to the shadows they belonged to. The boulder-like weight of everything that had happened was beginning to roll gently down the top of his neck, releasing the tension that he tended to build with each stressor that decided to attach itself to his life. It was now gently rocking side to side between his shoulders as the silence was beginning to allow his stream of thoughts to flow. The rogue invasion had brought a sense of resentment that left a bitter taste to stick to his tongue, like sap and the idea of the sickness haunted him. Would it ever return? They had lost so many precious lives, his needlepoint pupils flickered up at the cooling transition of golden sunsets to navy night as he hoped to see more stars above, the ones that belonged to his clanmates.
As he observed the sky, he was relieved Hazecloud had not been included in a constellation, and despite their...separation, Rookfang had no ill will towards her now that he had heard Lichentail and her had reunited. There was a precious bond and he found soft comfort that they realized their importance for one another. Besides, the warrior knew he was a damaged piece, one that could not seem to fit in and lock into a relationship without bringing his baggage of worries and fears. He was not fit to emotionally untangle said baggage, he was still in his ignorant justification that it was necessary to him. The paranoia had kept him alive so far but with a pricey cost to the connections he cherished. So now, all he did was recount finding his adopted brother, Velvetpaw. This was a silver lining to his somewhat bleak life that kept the small glint in his eyes as he allowed a gentle warmth to loosen his broad shoulders, allowing the rock to roll down to his spine. He knew with the rogues ruthlessly taking the lives of their fallen ex-leader, Cicadastar, some clanmates had once again risen with suspicion of those with rogue-blood.
Rogue-blood. That word was as common as his name, fresh and searing to his heart that despite it all, he felt inferior for the mixed blood that ran through him. His mother. Rogue. His father. Riverclanner. Outsider. Traitor. There was no positive association to any of his history with his parental figures, one was a persistent voice within his head while the other was a voice he had never heard echo through it.
"Don't bother trying to look for him. He wasn't much use after I told him."
"Oh."
"Now, now, why the-"
"-long face?"
The boulder crashed to the suddenly frigid ground beneath him as it rolled off his jagged tail, the splintering cracks roaring in his ears as the voice he heard within his mind was coming from beside him. Rookfang went to a statuesque halt, half-lidded eyes exploded wide open, the warm orange-gold hues that were mostly hiding now mixing with his stormy blues as he looked towards the horizon. The sun was setting. Blinding his sensitive vision and causing the dark figure to want to shield away like some archaic tale of a vampire as he stared forward, his body happily accepting any pain that would reach him if it meant not looking next to him, the direction over the border where the voice had come from. Yet, no catastrophic event crashed down on him or unusual punishment from above sought him out. It seemed, that the worst was already here and Rookfang knew he had to face it. So...he slowly and stiffly turned his head. And locked terrified stare with the glinting eyes of a snake underneath a cat's clothing. His dearly beloved mother. She flashed a dearly beloved smile, the fangs he had inherited from her glinting right back at him. No wonder some kits and apprentices found him terrifying. He was the offspring of a monster.
This is where the time became as murky as being trapped in a tar pit, slow and suffocating. Yet, it felt like every second counted in the worst way possible as he listened to her, her sickly sweet voice dancing in the air with his voice refusing to join the ballad. She was happy to see him. She was not. She wished she had come sooner. It's been moons. She had no idea he had been here. Foghorn had stated and his mind quoted 'She visits. Told her I had tried convincing you to join Windclan but you like slimy fish too much.' That had also...been moons ago. Yet, lie after lie, Rookfang's rebuttals remained lodged within his burning windpipe. All, he could do was accept the sinking tar that was swallowing him up inch by inch in the spot he remained rooted to as the melting sky began to darken and his mother was appearing to quickly lose patience with her senseless chatter not reaching him. Then again, he remembered she never really had much patience for him.
"I need a favor."
Oh?
"...little brother....can't take care of...."
Oh.
It happened. Again.
History repeated itself to those who did not learn from it, Rookfang had now learned that the hard way. He was limping slowly, crimson-splattered paws dragging against the dirt and fallen leaves as if he had truly been imprisoned within a tar pit. He heaved, dry throat screaming and wheezing but the ribbon of blood that leaked from his slashed eye had danced into the side of his muzzle and flowed into his parted jaws. He needed to make it back. It was dark. It was scary. Rookfang knew this was no suitable environment for the bundle of soft fur that he carried. His half-lidded eyes--no, eye was barely open, not out of defeated exasperation or ravaging insomnia. But, pain. So...much pain. It was not seeping away like the creek of blood and scent of fox that trailed behind his stumbling and swaying form. The sable figure was now inching little by little to the entrance of the camp as every trained designed muscle clicked and locked with each step, sudden rust had settled in and was slowing him down as his already diminished vision was blurring in and out of focus. The favor. Accepting it is what led him to become the pathetic state he is in now. Wounded. Damaged. Bloody. Tired.
His open eyelid was fluttering like a frantic butterfly, not aiding in his vision or composure as he suddenly pressed himself against the cool lumber of a nearby tree, sending a silent thanks to Starclan for else, he would have simply found the dirt ground as his support. It felt like he had barely moved but the soft trembling meow that reached his velvety ears was encouraging him to keep moving even if it meant spending the rest of the night to reach their home. Tightening his grip and readjusting, Rookfang shuffled closer, pushing past the tall reeds that lined the clearing of the camp. The gentle pressure it provided to the gashes that streaked his shoulder and face was oddly comforting as if to replace a mother's touch that only left him damaged one way or another. As he finally broke through the curtain that shielded them, Rookfang's silver-lined figure seemed to practically be crawling, aching claws digging to the ground as his shivering form finally decided it was safe to let go.
The ground had never felt kinder as if Mother Earth was cradling him, the stiff composure long forgotten with sore jaws cracking open to release the kitten that was tainted with his blood as the legs beneath him gave out. His undamaged mixed eye locked onto it with heavy guilt as the moonlight shone on the splintered scarlet fur of the quivering child, of his little brother. His little brother, who...was beginning to gently shift away from him. Was it out of fear? Confusion? Horror? His melted figure was refusing to do what his foggy mind was attempting to command, the energy he had clung onto was now pooling around him with his scarlet self-made sun on the terra. Rookfang felt another tiresome sting, but it was coming from behind his eyes, prickling and beginning to swell. Was he going to...? He screwed his eyes shut as pale fangs clenched tight in retaliation. Instead, he contrived himself to let out a pathetic shout, voice cracking with the plea for aid. The fallen warrior could not bear the thought of losing another sibling. Not like--Rookfang let out a low gargled groan as he attempted to cry out once more.
"S-Someone! Pl...Please help...."
[ ooc | please wait for @valekit ➶ to respond before replying / rookfang's wounds: three gash wounds on left shoulder, sliced right ear, and large crescent wound across right eye ]
It was meant to be a simple trek towards the border, one that he believed would finally get to be mundane now that the rogues had scattered off to the shadows they belonged to. The boulder-like weight of everything that had happened was beginning to roll gently down the top of his neck, releasing the tension that he tended to build with each stressor that decided to attach itself to his life. It was now gently rocking side to side between his shoulders as the silence was beginning to allow his stream of thoughts to flow. The rogue invasion had brought a sense of resentment that left a bitter taste to stick to his tongue, like sap and the idea of the sickness haunted him. Would it ever return? They had lost so many precious lives, his needlepoint pupils flickered up at the cooling transition of golden sunsets to navy night as he hoped to see more stars above, the ones that belonged to his clanmates.
As he observed the sky, he was relieved Hazecloud had not been included in a constellation, and despite their...separation, Rookfang had no ill will towards her now that he had heard Lichentail and her had reunited. There was a precious bond and he found soft comfort that they realized their importance for one another. Besides, the warrior knew he was a damaged piece, one that could not seem to fit in and lock into a relationship without bringing his baggage of worries and fears. He was not fit to emotionally untangle said baggage, he was still in his ignorant justification that it was necessary to him. The paranoia had kept him alive so far but with a pricey cost to the connections he cherished. So now, all he did was recount finding his adopted brother, Velvetpaw. This was a silver lining to his somewhat bleak life that kept the small glint in his eyes as he allowed a gentle warmth to loosen his broad shoulders, allowing the rock to roll down to his spine. He knew with the rogues ruthlessly taking the lives of their fallen ex-leader, Cicadastar, some clanmates had once again risen with suspicion of those with rogue-blood.
Rogue-blood. That word was as common as his name, fresh and searing to his heart that despite it all, he felt inferior for the mixed blood that ran through him. His mother. Rogue. His father. Riverclanner. Outsider. Traitor. There was no positive association to any of his history with his parental figures, one was a persistent voice within his head while the other was a voice he had never heard echo through it.
"Don't bother trying to look for him. He wasn't much use after I told him."
"Oh."
"Now, now, why the-"
"-long face?"
The boulder crashed to the suddenly frigid ground beneath him as it rolled off his jagged tail, the splintering cracks roaring in his ears as the voice he heard within his mind was coming from beside him. Rookfang went to a statuesque halt, half-lidded eyes exploded wide open, the warm orange-gold hues that were mostly hiding now mixing with his stormy blues as he looked towards the horizon. The sun was setting. Blinding his sensitive vision and causing the dark figure to want to shield away like some archaic tale of a vampire as he stared forward, his body happily accepting any pain that would reach him if it meant not looking next to him, the direction over the border where the voice had come from. Yet, no catastrophic event crashed down on him or unusual punishment from above sought him out. It seemed, that the worst was already here and Rookfang knew he had to face it. So...he slowly and stiffly turned his head. And locked terrified stare with the glinting eyes of a snake underneath a cat's clothing. His dearly beloved mother. She flashed a dearly beloved smile, the fangs he had inherited from her glinting right back at him. No wonder some kits and apprentices found him terrifying. He was the offspring of a monster.
This is where the time became as murky as being trapped in a tar pit, slow and suffocating. Yet, it felt like every second counted in the worst way possible as he listened to her, her sickly sweet voice dancing in the air with his voice refusing to join the ballad. She was happy to see him. She was not. She wished she had come sooner. It's been moons. She had no idea he had been here. Foghorn had stated and his mind quoted 'She visits. Told her I had tried convincing you to join Windclan but you like slimy fish too much.' That had also...been moons ago. Yet, lie after lie, Rookfang's rebuttals remained lodged within his burning windpipe. All, he could do was accept the sinking tar that was swallowing him up inch by inch in the spot he remained rooted to as the melting sky began to darken and his mother was appearing to quickly lose patience with her senseless chatter not reaching him. Then again, he remembered she never really had much patience for him.
"I need a favor."
Oh?
"...little brother....can't take care of...."
Oh.
It happened. Again.
History repeated itself to those who did not learn from it, Rookfang had now learned that the hard way. He was limping slowly, crimson-splattered paws dragging against the dirt and fallen leaves as if he had truly been imprisoned within a tar pit. He heaved, dry throat screaming and wheezing but the ribbon of blood that leaked from his slashed eye had danced into the side of his muzzle and flowed into his parted jaws. He needed to make it back. It was dark. It was scary. Rookfang knew this was no suitable environment for the bundle of soft fur that he carried. His half-lidded eyes--no, eye was barely open, not out of defeated exasperation or ravaging insomnia. But, pain. So...much pain. It was not seeping away like the creek of blood and scent of fox that trailed behind his stumbling and swaying form. The sable figure was now inching little by little to the entrance of the camp as every trained designed muscle clicked and locked with each step, sudden rust had settled in and was slowing him down as his already diminished vision was blurring in and out of focus. The favor. Accepting it is what led him to become the pathetic state he is in now. Wounded. Damaged. Bloody. Tired.
His open eyelid was fluttering like a frantic butterfly, not aiding in his vision or composure as he suddenly pressed himself against the cool lumber of a nearby tree, sending a silent thanks to Starclan for else, he would have simply found the dirt ground as his support. It felt like he had barely moved but the soft trembling meow that reached his velvety ears was encouraging him to keep moving even if it meant spending the rest of the night to reach their home. Tightening his grip and readjusting, Rookfang shuffled closer, pushing past the tall reeds that lined the clearing of the camp. The gentle pressure it provided to the gashes that streaked his shoulder and face was oddly comforting as if to replace a mother's touch that only left him damaged one way or another. As he finally broke through the curtain that shielded them, Rookfang's silver-lined figure seemed to practically be crawling, aching claws digging to the ground as his shivering form finally decided it was safe to let go.
The ground had never felt kinder as if Mother Earth was cradling him, the stiff composure long forgotten with sore jaws cracking open to release the kitten that was tainted with his blood as the legs beneath him gave out. His undamaged mixed eye locked onto it with heavy guilt as the moonlight shone on the splintered scarlet fur of the quivering child, of his little brother. His little brother, who...was beginning to gently shift away from him. Was it out of fear? Confusion? Horror? His melted figure was refusing to do what his foggy mind was attempting to command, the energy he had clung onto was now pooling around him with his scarlet self-made sun on the terra. Rookfang felt another tiresome sting, but it was coming from behind his eyes, prickling and beginning to swell. Was he going to...? He screwed his eyes shut as pale fangs clenched tight in retaliation. Instead, he contrived himself to let out a pathetic shout, voice cracking with the plea for aid. The fallen warrior could not bear the thought of losing another sibling. Not like--Rookfang let out a low gargled groan as he attempted to cry out once more.
"S-Someone! Pl...Please help...."
[ ooc | please wait for @valekit ➶ to respond before replying / rookfang's wounds: three gash wounds on left shoulder, sliced right ear, and large crescent wound across right eye ]