♚ Before anyone can speak, a shadow is cast over Hyacinthbreath but she finds nothing but comfort, for once. For the longest time, taller cats standing over her- watching over her shoulder, judging her. It made her paranoid, terrified that they would judge her for her actions. But now, it was security- safety. Cicadastar protected her, and while she was still earning her new clanmates trust, it was ever present the mistrust in Cicadastar's eyes weren't directed at her. But her friends, once WindClan and now exiled.
They spoke out against her. Of course, something so small would lead to their exiles.
"I'm sorry you had to experience that," Hyacinthbreath exhales another shaky breath. Her mind is going a mile a minute, exhaustion weighing heavily on her shoulders. Even now, she couldn't protect those she loved from that tyrant of a woman.
I regret nothing, not even when I vowed to come back to kill her. A promise I intend to keep. Hyacinthbreath remembers those who had vengeance sworn against their Queen of the Moors. Hyacinthbreath turns her gaze away from her friends, leveling violet hues towards the arriving RiverClanners. Smokethroat pushes himself to Cicadastar's side, and she sighs in relief; two people she knew she could trust, it was okay. She anchors herself to their presence, boosting her own confidence once more.
"mein König-" She meows to Cicada, voice calm now.
But Galeforce's words reaches her ears first.
Sunsetbreeze died. I'm sorry. He... he died protecting me... protecting me in a fight that should have never happened. Tunneling, tunneling- back down the hole she went. Agony, agony. Before she knows it, she feels tears slip down her cheeks once more. That one, he'd come to her for advice and changed his life because of it. He'd found who he really was, trusted in
her to help him. She'd done something good for another person, made their life easier- and he.. Died..
Beesong voices his opinion, she can't help the small inkling of wanting to defend one who gave her a place to belong first. But he's right. Ever since they came to the Moors.. Something has never been right.
"She believes WindClan is closer to StarClan because of the open skies. There are no trees impeding their sight of the stars above." She remarks simply, scuffing her paw in the mud idly. She turns to the medicine cat, a desperate look in her eyes. She wants to ask him to help the two toms, but knows better- turning away soon after. Bonejaw voices her concerns,
What is she doing to him? Is Dandelionwish okay and why keep him trapped there if she doesn't.... She trails off. Hyacinth already knows.
"She's paranoid at heart. Dandelionwish knows too much for her to let him go." She replies simply, biting the inside of her cheek. She sniffles away tears, meeting her friend's gazes.
"Don't.. Don't blame yourself for Sunset. He was.. a good soul. I know you loved him in your own way, Galeforce. You two were inseparable." She reassures the tom, wanting so achingly to cross the border and nuzzle them both for reassurance. Nothing was ever that simple. Was she so horrible, as to be so useless to help her origin Clan? Was she a horrible person, starting a life here in RiverClan while others suffered? Cindershade remarks that she hopes it's not a ploy, and Hyacinth shakes her head.
"Sootstar has her own plans for her Clan, but she's pregnant now. Her priority will be preventing war, with everything going on right now. She put herself in a tight spot with that raid on SkyClan, tactically." The soldier hummed softly to herself, turning to look at the RiverClan Leader.
"Es ist nicht sicher für die, sir. Sootstar doesn't care if she loses her original clanmates. Her newer soldiers are more willing to take orders without questioning her, and that's dangerous. For everyone." She shudders at the thought, wants to cross over once more and nudge Yewberry. It must have taken a lot for him to speak out against his Queen, he's always been less prone to acting out. He had enough. She turns back to her friends.
"Thank you for telling me this, Yew, Gale.. Mein König, I ask for permission to guide these cats through the outskirts of our territory and into twolegplace, if possible. I would be happy if a patrol came with me, we could even hunt on the way back."