private RETURN TO HOLY GROUND [collecting moonstones]

༄༄ Grief shrouds the she-cat like fog, dense and impenetrable. The destruction that her mate’s death has wrought is all too clear in the way that she walks, the way that she speaks. The way that once-pristine calico fur has grown unkempt, the way that once-fierce golden eyes have dulled. Her bones do not show, not yet, but it is a near thing. Through it all, one thing is clear: WindClan’s deputy is not faring well.

She hardly recognizes the outside of the den from… over a year ago now, it must have been, when she acted as an escort for Vulturemask. Her tired paws scrape across the dirt with a renewed vigor, though her body still moves as though it is being dragged, rather than walking on its own. "We’re here," she croaks as she slinks her way into the cave ahead of the patrol, her voice worn raw from nights spent wallowing in her own devastation.

She looks at the glowing moonstone with tired, dulled eyes. It feels as though she should say something, offer forth some kind of acknowledgment for each of the stones that they take. For Larkfeather. For Lilacstem. For Bearflight. She feels guilty, having no words to say for any of them, no grand speeches or tales of their lives. She cannot speak of them, because the only name she cares to say is Bluepool’s.

She shakes her head. "Each of you, find a stone for your kin. We will not linger long." Her eyes are once again drawn to the stone that lies in the den’s center. Leaders and medicine cats touch it to communicate with the dead, so why should it not work the same for her? This is her chance, if there ever was one. She could speak to her beloved once again, and tell her one last goodbye. If she had known it would be her last time seeing Bluepool, she would have certainly said more when the silvery tabby left camp. She has more to say—she has so much more to say. So much more to do. They didn’t have enough time. They’ll never… have enough time.

She turns away from the moonstone, regret already slithering its way up her throat. The selection of stones is wide, but one of them catches her eye quickly. Smooth and spotless, a perfect grave marker is plucked from the ground with a dark paw, and the calico stares down at it for a few heartbeats before nodding once, to herself. For Bluepool. My love, now and forever. This is it, until I see you again.

  • ooc: set before duskclan invasion! @PINKPAW @FEATHERSPINE @sparkspirit
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    SCORCHSTREAK ❯❯ she/they, deputy (tunneler) of windclan
    small, slim flame-streaked calico with fiery golden eyes. cold and closed-off, ferociously protective of her clanmates. rarely seen aboveground.
    mate to bluepool ; sibling to rattleheart & rabbitclaw
    mentor to pinkpaw
    peaceful and healing powerplay permitted
    penned by foxlore
 
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Her heart felt clamped by fox jaws, iron tight and unrelenting. Featherspine's posture was miserable as she walked, a dogged, robotic stride moving tired limbs. Marbled stripes heaved with effort, and light barely flickered within sun blister yellow eyes even as they befell the Moonstone. A soft sigh was pulled from her lungs, unwillingly given to the watching stars.

Are you here, Bluepool? A silent hope. Did I do well? And how pathetic was it to want to hear her boisterous voice tell him, with clear sincerity, that he had done well? He was a warrior now- honed, forged, perfect. Ice in her eyes when regarding enemies, a stinging blizzard in battle to protect those she loved. Flashing claws would find purchase on anything that threatened anyone striving against tiredness, insomnia, nightmares... she had to guard, and guard her heart all the while.

Scorchstreak earned a nod, a hollowed-out murmur of, "Got it." The blue light of the stone shimmered sapphire in slitted pupils. Are you here, Bearflight? And was he ashamed of her? Bitter that she thought of protecting so much, and yet had so blatantly failed him? He should never have been beneath those blazing fangs. He had not been ready to face danger- in fact, he had been entirely unwilling. If he had used a thorny tongue to whip in his defence...

It could have been her, instead.

Sparkspirit and Pinkpaw both earned a glance- for their kin, too. She'd never been good at reading glimmers in eyes... what they were thinking, whether they were moruning or doubting, it was lost on her. Scorchstreak's emptiness was easy to see, though... the flame-twisted deputy earned a small, soft flick of Featherspine's tail, the most she could do for comfort... no good at it. And hardly good at what he pursued so heartlessly, either.

Featherspine's gaze found a large, smooth stone... slightly flat, but would bludgeon with a powerful throw. Bearflight. Strength in his body he refused to use. Dawn-sun eyes squeezed shut, tears glazing, stinking beneath the wrenching. They would not fall- he would not let them. Guard us, brother. Give me your strength.

Not his empathy. She did not know what she would do with it.
✦ penned by pin
 
Scorchstreak is so sad... and she deserves to be. Maybe... should be? But Pinkpaw just wishes that she didn't have to be. She wishes that her smiles weren't so rare... That she could see a pretty flower or feel the sun warm her back and just be happy because that was such a nice little thing... She wants her coat to be shiny, her nest to be nice and laced with feathers. She wants Scorchstreak to see the moor, and not think about the burn, but just... life is nice. Maybe really liking someone— loving someone in any way you wanted to, means you had to cry when they were gone, or else you're not really loving them at all. Was that it?

If Pinkpaw dies, and... she would.

She accepts this with a wobbly mouth. A deep breath in. The slump of her shoulders. When she dies... she wouldn't ask any cat to be sad for her. Not like she could — but she wouldn't want that, either. She'll die smiling, if she can... Even if she'd rather not die at all.

The moonstone is like nothing she's seen before. A stone still, but somehow completely different from the likes of outlook rock... and she can only imagine how much cooler it must look when the Medicine Cats met and the sky was gleaming...

She nods to Scorchstreak, and then she's searching the floor... A stone for Lilacstem, for Larkfeather... she keeps her eyes open for something for Bluepool too, big and bright enough for Featherspine and Scorchstreak to be happy. Scorchstreak should pick it. She would pick it, but Pinkpaw could help, couldn't she...?

The one that catches her eye isn't too much like that... Big enough that they'd need all four of them to carry it, or embued with star - power in a visible, speckling way. It's smooth and round, different shades of grey make for a stripe in its rocky pelt... It's... easy. It's cute. Pinkpaw could cover it with a single paw, and there's something about that she likes. Held carefully in her mouth, she bring it to Sparkspirit. " D'you think Lilacstem would like this one? " quietly, she mews. " I think she would. " And because, if there was any time she could ask, it would be now, she holds it up to the moonstone itself to show her, even if it was quiet.

I know you don't hate WindClan, she thinks at them very hard. StarClan is only quiet, though.