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the moon is high when she enters the olivine - woven medicine den, heavy eyes blinking against the vast absence of light compared to the gleaming alabaster outside. stone - driven edges are bathed in a cutting incandesce of bonebleach white, shadows deep and far cast, stretching tendril - like around where her cousin winds tight in a sloppily woven nest, thickets of herb and trinkets laced into deep, iron scented greenery. her sickness has its merits ; while few and far between, her presence in the medicine den is something still frequent, frequent enough to earn nothing but a glance and greeting blink from the alabaster medic.. but she is slumbering when tender pawsteps find entry, always too soft, too light, soundless unlike the wheezing that falls quiet from an ever parted maw.
hidden within some awful, morbid shadow of her mind, shellpaw feels a tether to this den. morguelike, her final resting place — she’d been destined to wither upon a pile of moss no cat could touch, infused with the sick - sweet scent of infection and heat that kept her hazy. hazier. her survival had been a desperate scramble for barter, lost to her as all time seems to be in here. only the feversick memories of a blinding white light, soot - stink lingering at the edges of fur haloed in starlight. standing with her back against the light, chest heaving from her run back ; moonbeam had saved her life. nursed her like a rotting flower, paws cupped in a gentle hover at paled petals until the beginnings of life began to seep back into her roots. until color flooded her veins again. this place is a comfort, a coffin.. a carapace.
still the thrum of funeral song pounds in the pulse of blood at her ears ; each beat of her heart a rabbitpulse death toll, the shuddering flick of a timer counting down. her recent spar had left gaunt sides aching, a sharp twinge on the underside of her rib that she does her best to ignore — apprentices got hurt all the time, she’d heard. it was a part of training, she’d heard. shellpaw had always thought her muscles would ache from exertion, from a run through the meadows or a long, blow - for - blow training session. something she could only feel when the adrenaline died down, flooding her body with exhaustion and putting her to her nest with the rest of her den mates.. not from this. not from the few yards of sprinting she’d taken away from unsheathed claws and a snarling hound, not from being flattened by her own doing — being swatted like a gnat at midnightpaw’s ear.
restlessness had found her late tonight ; curled in the center of her nest with limbs drawn close and tucked, watching the slow rise - fall of pebblepaw’s chest aside her. it did not help, not as it usually did. not when her mind whirls with a shroud dark as the night around her, the crevices in which growing bodies curl, snoring into the riverhumid air. they sleep soundly, unmoving, unperturbed and shellpaw couldnt wrap her mind around it — weren’t they scared? weren’t they worried? was she weak for it, the devastation that finds her in the wake of blood, cruelty? lambs wool blackens ; the sliver of metal that had caught her leader’s foot, the dog that had torn holes into her belly with its awful, drooling maw, the blood that ran down the length of long, mottled arms and into the pale of her fur. it still runs, rivulets through the space between lilac striping and she feels sticky with it, the old blood crusting her memory.
the decision to visit him comes on quick ; comes on in the space between gentle sleep snorting and the rustle of kicking dreamers. she knew from the brief space they’d shared that cicadaflight was as tumultuous at moonhigh as she tended to be, as weary and mindtorn as she tended to be.. but caring. still affording to offer pieces of himself with fur tattered, loyal as a bound mongrel and just as sharp ( how? how could she do that? ). flicking strawberry eyes away from the tangle of short white limbs twined sleepily in dappled black ones, she finds him in the far corner — steps forward and the curtain falls shut behind her, draping the den in a flat layer of starless night. shellpaw wobbles with sudden disorientation ; dips her head, plods forward like a shark to blood in the direction she knows he is, velveteen nostrils flaring at the scent of aging cobweb, of poultice and scabbing wounds. her eyes adjust slow and inch by inch, she can make out the slopes of his coiled body, scuffed limbs outstretched past the gnarled limits of his nest and hollow side heaving quick, rapidfire breaths.
his expression is taut, eyes closed, but consciousness shellpaw cannot tell. his eyes are bleared into shadow, furthered by the semi - constant smear across rheumy retinas that blears long snouted features into a swathes of surreal black mottled white.
he should rest, she thinks, i should go. because he’d evaded hounds teeth only to find himself caught in a rogues path, torn from the maw upward in the same way the dogs had been. a long, split snout pulled back upon rubberblack lips to reveal the broken shards of yellowing molars behind. she does not go. for a moment, she merely stands ; hovers, a blinding beacon of alabaster - lilac curl amidst the otherwise overwhelming darkness, eyes wrought a bloodied amber as she watches him. the shell she’d brought from her nest hangs too heavy in her maw — a pale pink thing, smooth and whirl patterned. a gift from pebblepaw and riverpaw on the day of her ceremony, just after her mother had ascended the stone and announced that they would be mentoring her themself.
in her minds eye, lichenstar’s mistridden fur douses deep with clot - speckled blood. a droplet falls high from the river stone where she bleeds starclan’s word from an open maw, feeling the splash of warmth hit her nose where she binds her in promise. their eyes roll back.
shellpaw blinks, shakes her head, sniffs at the sudden lilt of snot that wettens her maw. it quickens her pulse, opens her mouth to breath suddenly urgent, ” c’cadaf’ght..? “ around her shell, nothing more than trembling birdwhisper. short ears flick back fractionally, lowering her skull to deposit her shell between the bashful inturn of tuft tipped paws. her tail comes to cover it for safe keeping, thornlike claws fiddling with its rippled edges when she inhales, a rickety and stuttering thing.. pauses, just in time for something to caw mournfully just beyond camp walls, ” i can’t sleep.. i’m scared. said low, like a confession, flits her gaze around and away as if it were one ( he’d fought a dog, a rogue. she couldn’t, didn’t know if she ever could. shell watch her mother die again, and again, and again.. ), ” can i stay here? for, um, just a little while.. “
hidden within some awful, morbid shadow of her mind, shellpaw feels a tether to this den. morguelike, her final resting place — she’d been destined to wither upon a pile of moss no cat could touch, infused with the sick - sweet scent of infection and heat that kept her hazy. hazier. her survival had been a desperate scramble for barter, lost to her as all time seems to be in here. only the feversick memories of a blinding white light, soot - stink lingering at the edges of fur haloed in starlight. standing with her back against the light, chest heaving from her run back ; moonbeam had saved her life. nursed her like a rotting flower, paws cupped in a gentle hover at paled petals until the beginnings of life began to seep back into her roots. until color flooded her veins again. this place is a comfort, a coffin.. a carapace.
still the thrum of funeral song pounds in the pulse of blood at her ears ; each beat of her heart a rabbitpulse death toll, the shuddering flick of a timer counting down. her recent spar had left gaunt sides aching, a sharp twinge on the underside of her rib that she does her best to ignore — apprentices got hurt all the time, she’d heard. it was a part of training, she’d heard. shellpaw had always thought her muscles would ache from exertion, from a run through the meadows or a long, blow - for - blow training session. something she could only feel when the adrenaline died down, flooding her body with exhaustion and putting her to her nest with the rest of her den mates.. not from this. not from the few yards of sprinting she’d taken away from unsheathed claws and a snarling hound, not from being flattened by her own doing — being swatted like a gnat at midnightpaw’s ear.
restlessness had found her late tonight ; curled in the center of her nest with limbs drawn close and tucked, watching the slow rise - fall of pebblepaw’s chest aside her. it did not help, not as it usually did. not when her mind whirls with a shroud dark as the night around her, the crevices in which growing bodies curl, snoring into the riverhumid air. they sleep soundly, unmoving, unperturbed and shellpaw couldnt wrap her mind around it — weren’t they scared? weren’t they worried? was she weak for it, the devastation that finds her in the wake of blood, cruelty? lambs wool blackens ; the sliver of metal that had caught her leader’s foot, the dog that had torn holes into her belly with its awful, drooling maw, the blood that ran down the length of long, mottled arms and into the pale of her fur. it still runs, rivulets through the space between lilac striping and she feels sticky with it, the old blood crusting her memory.
the decision to visit him comes on quick ; comes on in the space between gentle sleep snorting and the rustle of kicking dreamers. she knew from the brief space they’d shared that cicadaflight was as tumultuous at moonhigh as she tended to be, as weary and mindtorn as she tended to be.. but caring. still affording to offer pieces of himself with fur tattered, loyal as a bound mongrel and just as sharp ( how? how could she do that? ). flicking strawberry eyes away from the tangle of short white limbs twined sleepily in dappled black ones, she finds him in the far corner — steps forward and the curtain falls shut behind her, draping the den in a flat layer of starless night. shellpaw wobbles with sudden disorientation ; dips her head, plods forward like a shark to blood in the direction she knows he is, velveteen nostrils flaring at the scent of aging cobweb, of poultice and scabbing wounds. her eyes adjust slow and inch by inch, she can make out the slopes of his coiled body, scuffed limbs outstretched past the gnarled limits of his nest and hollow side heaving quick, rapidfire breaths.
his expression is taut, eyes closed, but consciousness shellpaw cannot tell. his eyes are bleared into shadow, furthered by the semi - constant smear across rheumy retinas that blears long snouted features into a swathes of surreal black mottled white.
he should rest, she thinks, i should go. because he’d evaded hounds teeth only to find himself caught in a rogues path, torn from the maw upward in the same way the dogs had been. a long, split snout pulled back upon rubberblack lips to reveal the broken shards of yellowing molars behind. she does not go. for a moment, she merely stands ; hovers, a blinding beacon of alabaster - lilac curl amidst the otherwise overwhelming darkness, eyes wrought a bloodied amber as she watches him. the shell she’d brought from her nest hangs too heavy in her maw — a pale pink thing, smooth and whirl patterned. a gift from pebblepaw and riverpaw on the day of her ceremony, just after her mother had ascended the stone and announced that they would be mentoring her themself.
in her minds eye, lichenstar’s mistridden fur douses deep with clot - speckled blood. a droplet falls high from the river stone where she bleeds starclan’s word from an open maw, feeling the splash of warmth hit her nose where she binds her in promise. their eyes roll back.
shellpaw blinks, shakes her head, sniffs at the sudden lilt of snot that wettens her maw. it quickens her pulse, opens her mouth to breath suddenly urgent, ” c’cadaf’ght..? “ around her shell, nothing more than trembling birdwhisper. short ears flick back fractionally, lowering her skull to deposit her shell between the bashful inturn of tuft tipped paws. her tail comes to cover it for safe keeping, thornlike claws fiddling with its rippled edges when she inhales, a rickety and stuttering thing.. pauses, just in time for something to caw mournfully just beyond camp walls, ” i can’t sleep.. i’m scared. said low, like a confession, flits her gaze around and away as if it were one ( he’d fought a dog, a rogue. she couldn’t, didn’t know if she ever could. shell watch her mother die again, and again, and again.. ), ” can i stay here? for, um, just a little while.. “
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frail alabaster molly with lilac striping and watery amber eyes.SHELLPAW 𓆉 SHE / HER. SEVEN MOONS OLD, APPRENTICE OF RIVERCLAN, MENTORED BY LICHENSTAR ; SMELLS LIKE SALT & RIVER BLOOMS. HAZECLOUD xx LICHENSTAR, NIECE TOSMOKESTAR. PENNED BY ANTLERS-----------------° ❀ ⋆
CHRONICALLY ILL ; prone to wheezing, nose at a constant drip from longterm illness - induced nasal polyps. not contagious.