- Jun 7, 2022
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She hasn’t been around these parts in what feels like forever, a distant memory or a past lived life, shes tired and it shows with the way her shoulders sag and the light doesn’t quite meet her eyes. Shes tired. It… also felt like weeks since she had talked to little Forestpaw, the first face she had seen in weeks. She especially feels anger at Salamander for the abandonment, the giving away of her kittens.
Could she truly be mad, though? When she had done the same thing? Not by choice, though. She had tried to drag Bone back, branded insane- maybe she truly was. She’s learned to leave it in the past. Dwelling on it only made her sob uncontrollably.
But shes desperate. She can feel the coming ache, a familiar one in her bones, and just once more does she want to rest with her family. Getting sick out here… surely meant death. And she’s scared. Shes terrified. Shes spent her whole loner life trying to atone for what she had done, screamed loudest at the stars when they did not answer her. Perhaps this is her personal hell that they bestowed upon her. Whatever she does will never be enough to gain the stars good graces once more.
The crunch of snow was new to her but the moors weren’t. It brought a bitter anger in her heart, one she hadn’t felt in so long. She shakes her cinnamon swirled pelt out, a sigh tumbling from her mouth. She truly feels exhausted, out of options, I want my babies. It’s all she has wanted for so long but she had not had the concept of time on her side. She needed to hunt, hunt, hunt regardless of how many times she came back empty-pawed.
She gets closer to the Windclan border, hesitantly places a paw over it when she sees a figure. Perhaps with enough begging they’ll be nice, they’ll get her sons and daughters-
"Oh mon bebe... Is that you? Really you?" called out, cresting the hill was a scarred pelt, one she knew by heart. One she had brought in, loved as fiercely as if he were her own blood, tears and sweat. Mist wells in her eyes. Oh, he has grown, he has grown in to a fine cat. She doesn’t want to break down in front of him but it feels like its futile. It’s really him, her Bumble, her little bumble bee.
Could she truly be mad, though? When she had done the same thing? Not by choice, though. She had tried to drag Bone back, branded insane- maybe she truly was. She’s learned to leave it in the past. Dwelling on it only made her sob uncontrollably.
But shes desperate. She can feel the coming ache, a familiar one in her bones, and just once more does she want to rest with her family. Getting sick out here… surely meant death. And she’s scared. Shes terrified. Shes spent her whole loner life trying to atone for what she had done, screamed loudest at the stars when they did not answer her. Perhaps this is her personal hell that they bestowed upon her. Whatever she does will never be enough to gain the stars good graces once more.
The crunch of snow was new to her but the moors weren’t. It brought a bitter anger in her heart, one she hadn’t felt in so long. She shakes her cinnamon swirled pelt out, a sigh tumbling from her mouth. She truly feels exhausted, out of options, I want my babies. It’s all she has wanted for so long but she had not had the concept of time on her side. She needed to hunt, hunt, hunt regardless of how many times she came back empty-pawed.
She gets closer to the Windclan border, hesitantly places a paw over it when she sees a figure. Perhaps with enough begging they’ll be nice, they’ll get her sons and daughters-
"Oh mon bebe... Is that you? Really you?" called out, cresting the hill was a scarred pelt, one she knew by heart. One she had brought in, loved as fiercely as if he were her own blood, tears and sweat. Mist wells in her eyes. Oh, he has grown, he has grown in to a fine cat. She doesn’t want to break down in front of him but it feels like its futile. It’s really him, her Bumble, her little bumble bee.
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