- Jun 13, 2022
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The sun had not been shining, days ago.
In seclusion, seperated from his mate physically, and from everyone emotionally, Twitchbolt had forgotten that the weater would change- forgotten that the rain had to stop, and would cease mingling his blood with the mud. Figfeather's cold regard stuck like a shard of ice in his mind. Orangestar's ill-hidden disapproval, burning in umber eyes, were braned on his memory. All he could do was remind himself, a maddened mantra, that this was for the best.
I disagree, Orangestar had said, but ultimately had allowed him to bury his future in the muck, to spit on it. Removing a tumour was a painful thing, though- wasn't it? The process was ugly and unpleasant, but eventually new flowers would bloom beneath their feet. Twitchbolt was not a summer rain, nourishing the plants. He was a thunderstorm, violent, felling trees- and predictable in its tumult. Everyone had seen it coming. Everyone knew it was for the best.
Emerging from the medicine den, the bicolour tom let forth a hoarse sigh. Eyes lifted to look at him- faces gawked, no doubt. Twitchbolt jittered more violently than ever- spasming eyelids, chattering teeth, flexing claws, purling muscles. It was the worst he'd looked in a long time. Who would expect anything else?
The cat who threw away an ideal destiny. Who slapped his leader in the face. It's for the greater good, he knew it- it was for SkyClan's benefit that they should never have him as their leader, but no doubt any cat would glance his way and think him utterly pathetic. In deputyship, he had not been good enough- a baffling choice, an utter mess. Back down a step, he was a coward brimming with disrespect. There was no winning.
Pathetically, he shivered his way over to the freshkill pile. Someone was staring. "What?" It came out harsher than he would have liked.
In seclusion, seperated from his mate physically, and from everyone emotionally, Twitchbolt had forgotten that the weater would change- forgotten that the rain had to stop, and would cease mingling his blood with the mud. Figfeather's cold regard stuck like a shard of ice in his mind. Orangestar's ill-hidden disapproval, burning in umber eyes, were braned on his memory. All he could do was remind himself, a maddened mantra, that this was for the best.
I disagree, Orangestar had said, but ultimately had allowed him to bury his future in the muck, to spit on it. Removing a tumour was a painful thing, though- wasn't it? The process was ugly and unpleasant, but eventually new flowers would bloom beneath their feet. Twitchbolt was not a summer rain, nourishing the plants. He was a thunderstorm, violent, felling trees- and predictable in its tumult. Everyone had seen it coming. Everyone knew it was for the best.
Emerging from the medicine den, the bicolour tom let forth a hoarse sigh. Eyes lifted to look at him- faces gawked, no doubt. Twitchbolt jittered more violently than ever- spasming eyelids, chattering teeth, flexing claws, purling muscles. It was the worst he'd looked in a long time. Who would expect anything else?
The cat who threw away an ideal destiny. Who slapped his leader in the face. It's for the greater good, he knew it- it was for SkyClan's benefit that they should never have him as their leader, but no doubt any cat would glance his way and think him utterly pathetic. In deputyship, he had not been good enough- a baffling choice, an utter mess. Back down a step, he was a coward brimming with disrespect. There was no winning.
Pathetically, he shivered his way over to the freshkill pile. Someone was staring. "What?" It came out harsher than he would have liked.
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