- Jul 15, 2022
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It is the confinement, ultimately, that gets to Betonyfrost.
Time passes strangely, in that moments could be days or days could pass in a matter of a single heartbeat. The only thing Betonyfrost knows is the once comforting tangle of thorned branches over her head and the maddening walls of packed snow trapping her in. She’s never been prone to adventure, content to curl in a sunbeam in camp or lounge in a quiet space— but this is something else entirely. If Betonyfrost gets out of this, she’ll run the length of the territory.
She doesn’t think she’ll get out of this.
“He was going to let me die,” Betonyfrost says, without an audience in mind. She just needs her voice heard, “And you, you lot were going to stand by and watch it happen.”
Betonyfrost isn’t angry— rather she is a strange sort of calm, with something like a plea in her voice.
“I’ll starve or, or when the snow has melted enough he’ll put me back out there. Don’t think he won't. And not one of you will raise a paw except to bury me,” She’s laying down, not quite looking at any of her fellow warriors, but not out of her usual avoidance, “And when I’m gone, which one of you is going to become me? The only ones safe from it are his blood. I see that now.”
She’s too young to die. She doesn’t want to die, not here, not trapped.
“I didn’t do anything to deserve this— this apathy. So I’ve lost my temper on occasion. I get angry, I get so angry, but I wouldn’t if— I wouldn’t get so angry if I had someone on my side. I used to keep it in, but I’ve run out of space in me. I need to put that anger somewhere. That isn’t so bad,” She’s rambling now, shaking her head and closing her dull eyes.
“I could go back,” Betonyfrost knows, even in such a state, that going back to the old her is as likely a puddle returning to rain and falling upwards into a cloud, but she cannot stop herself from talking, “I wasn’t liked anymore then than now but— but no one would’ve watched me die like this.”
At last, Betonyfrost casts her eyes skyward, finally finding a direction for her words, and longs for the sight of an expansive sky above her, “StarClan, don’t let me die here. If you must take something from me, don’t let it be my life. Take anything else, but don’t take that.”
Above, but not nearly high enough, the low canopy of the bramble offers no sympathy.
Time passes strangely, in that moments could be days or days could pass in a matter of a single heartbeat. The only thing Betonyfrost knows is the once comforting tangle of thorned branches over her head and the maddening walls of packed snow trapping her in. She’s never been prone to adventure, content to curl in a sunbeam in camp or lounge in a quiet space— but this is something else entirely. If Betonyfrost gets out of this, she’ll run the length of the territory.
She doesn’t think she’ll get out of this.
“He was going to let me die,” Betonyfrost says, without an audience in mind. She just needs her voice heard, “And you, you lot were going to stand by and watch it happen.”
Betonyfrost isn’t angry— rather she is a strange sort of calm, with something like a plea in her voice.
“I’ll starve or, or when the snow has melted enough he’ll put me back out there. Don’t think he won't. And not one of you will raise a paw except to bury me,” She’s laying down, not quite looking at any of her fellow warriors, but not out of her usual avoidance, “And when I’m gone, which one of you is going to become me? The only ones safe from it are his blood. I see that now.”
She’s too young to die. She doesn’t want to die, not here, not trapped.
“I didn’t do anything to deserve this— this apathy. So I’ve lost my temper on occasion. I get angry, I get so angry, but I wouldn’t if— I wouldn’t get so angry if I had someone on my side. I used to keep it in, but I’ve run out of space in me. I need to put that anger somewhere. That isn’t so bad,” She’s rambling now, shaking her head and closing her dull eyes.
“I could go back,” Betonyfrost knows, even in such a state, that going back to the old her is as likely a puddle returning to rain and falling upwards into a cloud, but she cannot stop herself from talking, “I wasn’t liked anymore then than now but— but no one would’ve watched me die like this.”
At last, Betonyfrost casts her eyes skyward, finally finding a direction for her words, and longs for the sight of an expansive sky above her, “StarClan, don’t let me die here. If you must take something from me, don’t let it be my life. Take anything else, but don’t take that.”
Above, but not nearly high enough, the low canopy of the bramble offers no sympathy.
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