- Dec 15, 2022
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She finds him alone in camp, doing ... doing Snakeblink things, probably. Snakeblink things are not like normal things. They're their own category. He's funny that way.
She asks him to take her out of camp. To go on a walk. She wants to ... she wants to talk to him. It's been forever and if... if she's gonna be honest, she wants someone to lean on who isn't Willowroot. Because she always leans on Willowroot. And she feels really guilty about that sometimes. And especially now, after the battle... Willowroot got hurt, she lost a friend and Ashpaw doesn't want to — doesn't want to put anything else on their plate.
She's been feeling really — mean about herself lately. Stupid little kid, she thinks sometimes, why can't you act your age like every other apprentice? Still behind, no matter how hard she tries, still running and running after a finish line that runs, too.
She feels selfish for asking, tries to disguise it. "Um... it's just been awhile since we talked! You could — you could take me fishing? You're good at fishing." Oh, yes, Ashpaw, very casual. Good job.
Snakeblink has always been kind to her, though. Has always liked her. He watches out for her — makes her feel safe. She knows he's probably got, like, real friends, other friends who are his age but maybe he won't mind... hanging out with her too.
Should he oblige she'll take the lead, bounding out of the camp as quickly as she can. It's so depressing to be in lately. "How... how are you doing?" she'll ask. "The raid... um... that was..."
Scary, she's thinking. Awful. They attacked us in our own home and we could barely fight them off. Couldn't fight them off, really, they — they —
"I just wanted to catch up," she finishes weakly, "since so much... bad stuff has happened."
How does she ask for... support? Admit that she's not doing so great? The words get all twisted up in her throat, till she doesn't even know what they would have been anymore.
She asks him to take her out of camp. To go on a walk. She wants to ... she wants to talk to him. It's been forever and if... if she's gonna be honest, she wants someone to lean on who isn't Willowroot. Because she always leans on Willowroot. And she feels really guilty about that sometimes. And especially now, after the battle... Willowroot got hurt, she lost a friend and Ashpaw doesn't want to — doesn't want to put anything else on their plate.
She's been feeling really — mean about herself lately. Stupid little kid, she thinks sometimes, why can't you act your age like every other apprentice? Still behind, no matter how hard she tries, still running and running after a finish line that runs, too.
She feels selfish for asking, tries to disguise it. "Um... it's just been awhile since we talked! You could — you could take me fishing? You're good at fishing." Oh, yes, Ashpaw, very casual. Good job.
Snakeblink has always been kind to her, though. Has always liked her. He watches out for her — makes her feel safe. She knows he's probably got, like, real friends, other friends who are his age but maybe he won't mind... hanging out with her too.
Should he oblige she'll take the lead, bounding out of the camp as quickly as she can. It's so depressing to be in lately. "How... how are you doing?" she'll ask. "The raid... um... that was..."
Scary, she's thinking. Awful. They attacked us in our own home and we could barely fight them off. Couldn't fight them off, really, they — they —
"I just wanted to catch up," she finishes weakly, "since so much... bad stuff has happened."
How does she ask for... support? Admit that she's not doing so great? The words get all twisted up in her throat, till she doesn't even know what they would have been anymore.
—— " i found gold in the wreckage "
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@Snakeblink
for clarity, snake could roll a 2 on perception and still notice that somethings wrong
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- 9 month old orange tabby with green eyes
- apprenticed to lead warrior willowroot
- crushing hard on iciclepaw
- happy-go-lucky, mischievous, hardworking
- very friendly, but defensive of riverclan!
- got real fucked up as a kid so if she seems like she was fucked up as a kid, that's why
- "speech" -
- KICKED FOX ASS
- she is on a JOURNEY