standing on the edge, face up || slatepaw

LYNXTOOTH.

father, savior
Dec 18, 2022
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// this takes place before the blizzard snows everybody in ... fluid time

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"get up."

he spits into the snow-flecked dirt, face twisted into a snarl — little son of a bitch won't do anything right. all this training, all this painstaking effort and for what ?

"i said get up."

one child a prodigy, come home with head held high, pelt bloodied for windclan's honor — and one a disgrace. it's that kittypet's blood, he knows, running weak and soft through the veins of lynxtooth's own son. perhaps if he'd had the boy from birth. if he'd killed the bitch sooner. perhaps then he could have molded this pathetic kit into a warrior. but he sees his battle in the boy's eyes, sees gentleness that refuses his attempts to claw it out.

they've been training for hours now, in the cold — lynxtooth's long, sleek pelt easily buffeting the wind — and it isn't enough. the boy still crumbles beneath fractions of strength, pitiful and weak, like a kitten mewling for its mother.

the warrior stalks forward, claws unsheathed, and digs them into the fur of slatepaw's scruff — he drags the child up, hoists him into the air with perhaps more violence than necessary — "stand." he barks the word, unforgiving, brutal. "you are a warrior in training. a windclanner, not some fishkisser, not a kittypet."

he thinks of the little riverclan girl — (she'd had long red fur, like his own, a bit rarer in mollies. she'd have to have two ginger parents for that coat, and something in him... wonders.) — and how she'd known slatepaw's name. how slate had known hers.

"though you seem to see no trouble mingling with fishkissers — "

he aims another blow, this one to slatepaw's side, aiming to bowl the child over — he snarls, furious that slatepaw would embarrass him like that in front of clanmates. "look at you, barely able to stand a few hours of sparring. where is your stance? where is your grit? stars above, your brother would be humiliated to see you like this."

"you humiliate this clan. you humiliate me."

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slatepaw
6 moons - windclan apprentice - speech

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another day of training. couldn't they give it a rest?

slatepaw was never built for fighting, but that never stopped his father from giving it his all. while he was adding a second or two onto how long it took to knock him down every day, it still took only a few hours - quick, by windclan's standards, - before he was buckled over as he is now. slatepaw was crouched low to the ground, heaving, seeing red. his pawpads were blistered, ears numb from the cold. he was probably dehydrated, having sweat off any water he had the chance to drink before training. but yet, lynxtooth was taunting him, urging him up to fight back. go to hell, was all he could think.

the mention of ashpaw as he was dragged up by his scruff sent a jolt of anxiety through the small tom. you don't know her, he hoped. he had intended to keep ashpaw's identity a secret, even from gravelpaw - both for her safety and his own selfish needs. he felt that she was his only hope in this world, and he wouldn't let his family take that from him. but, luckily, lynxtooth changed the subject.

as slatepaw was knocked over again, he felt his head whirl with exhaustion, no longer budging to stand up. instead, he casted a long glare towards lynxtooth, gaze clouded with hurt and hate. of course he brought up his brother. slatepaw loved gravelpaw, as much as he could love anyone in this starclan forsaken clan, but god did he wish his brother would disappear sometimes. he was used to being compared to the heftier tom, the soldier that his father was desperately trying to make slatepaw into. but that didn't stop it from bothering him every once in a while. he was jealous of his brother, as he admitted over and over to himself. jealous of lynxtooth's pride, of his easier training routine, his status within the clan's social hierarchy. slatepaw was nothing but a feeble outcast in his shadow.

maybe it's time he grew a pair and changed that.

after lynxtooth ended his angry rant, slatepaw dared to speak up against his father. "humiliated? do you know how humiliating it was to watch a young, half-trained apprentice go to war in his father's stead?" he retorted, voice quiet as if he wasn't sure if he wanted lynxtooth to actually hear him or not. he meant every word truly - all night while he sat guard with his father, he longed for gravelpaw to be sitting with him instead. so he didn't have to wait painfully for his brother to return home alive; he'd be waiting eagerly for his father's body to be dragged miles through the snow at the end of the patrol. the thought only fueled him further, shrouding any rational thoughts with a blanket of hatred. with finality to his words, he spoke again, venom lacing his voice: "i wish you went and died instead of sunsetbreeze."



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༶•┈┈⛧┈★ just a castaway, an island lost at sea


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