private STAR-KISSED CHILD &. marblekit

[CHILLEDSTAR.]

it's been... a long few days. exhausting in every single sense of the word and they don't really know how to make it stop. they've done all they can really. they beg and beg to starclan and yet they never hear their pleas. or maybe they do and just don't care. they're exhausted. sometimes talking to the youth of the clan is a lot less taxing on them than it is to talk to the older ones. the ones who judge and judge and never ever could find themselves being leader. they can judge all they want but until they have a clan to lead, to care for in its entirety, they'd never understand.

with a sigh, they pick themself up from the floor, stretching out and sighing as they tilted their head to the sky. the stars deemed... alright. they missed the rain though. what they wouldn't do for the clouds to cover the sky and cause a light downpour onto their pelt. they don't expect to see marblekit up but they are welcome company nonetheless. they find thself sitting beside the young kit, tilting their head and bumping against them in greeting.

"can't sleep? ...me neither. what's on your mind, little pebble?"

———————---***i try to live in black and white***———————---​

but i'm so blue✧ i'd like to mean it when i say i'm over you

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• — black feline with a white marking across their face, a white chin, a white right front paw, and blue eyes. chilledstar is covered in scars, the most prominent ones being the one across their face, and the one across their neck.
  — 47 moons old; ages the 3rd every month
  — they / them pronouns
  — aromantic / homosexual ; currently not looking
  — child of JAGGED and RAVEN
  — shadowclan ; loyal to shadowclan ; other info if applicable
  — mildly difficult to befriend ; trusts barely anyone; trusts no one outside of shadowclan
  — "speech", thoughts, attacking
  — peaceful powerplay allowed

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[MARBLEPAW]

Their dreams have unsettled them. Marblekit woke in a world of darkness, the air hot and thick and stagnant, the scents rotten and bloated. Sycamorekit had been there, his fur brushing against hers, but they hadn't been alone. Her pelt prickles as she remembers green eyes opening into the darkness, as she remembers a shadow peeling itself from the forest and approaching on ghostly paws. "My kits," she'd murmured, and her voice had been so sweet, so soft. She aches for her mother when she awakens, but it's tinged with something like fear. She can taste it, metallic and strong in the back of her throat.

There's a rustle behind her. Chilledstar emerges from their den, looking restless, tired. Their face bumps affectionately against Marblekit's in greeting. "Can't sleep?... Me neither. What's on your mind, little pebble?" Marblekit blinks up at the ShadowClan leader, her smile chasing some of the misgivings from her body. "Had a bad dream, is all," she murmurs. "I saw Siltcloud. She never seems like a bad cat in my dreams."

『 out of character. 』 ✧･ﾟ:* 『 about. 』

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• Marblekit, she/they w/ feminine and non-gendered terms.
  — “speech”, thoughts, attack
  — 5 moons old, ages realistically on the 1st.
  — mentored by n/a ; mentoring n/a ; previously mentored n/a
  — shadowclan kit, formerly a rogue. siltcloud x lilacfur, gen 3.
  — currently mated to n/a.
  — penned by Marquette.
  
  
  sh fawn tabby with dull green eyes. courageous, curious, introspective, observant, judgmental, snarky.
  
  

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[CHILLEDSTAR.]

"a bad dream?"

they echo, a frown fixing on their face. they move to lay down so they're at a better level with the younger cat. they gently move to groom her fur down listening to her soft words with a hum. they say they've had a nightmare but follow it with the fact that their mother seems nice in them. was it truly a nightmare or was it something that she didn't know how to classify because she doesn't know how to feel towards her mother?

"it's never easy. your mother may not have been a good shadowclanner, or even a good cat, but she was a good mother. she loved you. that's why she gave you to us. she wanted you and sycamorekit to be safe. I'll do everything in my power to make sure of it. I may not like siltcloud, but... you're not her. and she may have hurt a lot of cats but she cared about you. more than she did herself."

they take a moment before letting their head rest on their paws.

"I wish I had more answers for you but I don't. not this time. love of any kind is always complicated."

———————---***i try to live in black and white***———————---​

but i'm so blue✧ i'd like to mean it when i say i'm over you

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• — black feline with a white marking across their face, a white chin, a white right front paw, and blue eyes. chilledstar is covered in scars, the most prominent ones being the one across their face, and the one across their neck.
  — 47 moons old; ages the 3rd every month
  — they / them pronouns
  — aromantic / homosexual ; currently not looking
  — child of JAGGED and RAVEN
  — shadowclan ; loyal to shadowclan ; other info if applicable
  — mildly difficult to befriend ; trusts barely anyone; trusts no one outside of shadowclan
  — "speech", thoughts, attacking
  — peaceful powerplay allowed

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[MARBLEPAW]

The gentle swipe of Chilledstar's tongue against Marblekit's pelt is shocking, at first, but soon she is lulled into a sense of security. "She loved you. That's why she gave you to us," the ebony leader murmurs, and Marblekit nods. "I know. Sometimes, in my head, I get confused..." She closes moss-colored eyes, her ears flicking. "I see her, and I forget why I'm supposed to dislike her now. I just remember the good stuff..." Chilledstar tells her it's never easy, that it will never be easy, and Marblekit thinks about how unfair that is. Other kits get to feel love for their parents without shame, she thinks, and fights against the dull ache in her chest.

Chilledstar pulls away and rests their scarred chin on their paws. There's a weight about them, a burden. Marblekit wishes she could make things better for them, too. She bumps her face against Chilledstar's and gives them a gentle lick on the cheek. "Did you have a bad dream, too?"

『 out of character. 』 ✧･ﾟ:* 『 about. 』

• ooc: —
• 
• Marblekit . Marblepaw, she/they w/ feminine and non-gendered terms.
  — “speech”, thoughts, attack
  — 6 moons old, ages realistically on the 1st.
  — mentored by Starlingheart ; mentoring n/a ; previously mentored n/a
  — shadowclan medicine cat apprentice, formerly a rogue. siltcloud x lilacfur, gen 3.
  — currently mated to n/a.
  — penned by Marquette.
  
  
  sh fawn tabby with dull green eyes. courageous, curious, introspective, observant, judgmental, snarky.
  
  

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