- Jun 7, 2022
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GUTTA CAVAT LAPIDEM : it was late. stars stud the sky above, tinged navy - black and startlingly cold. thick curls protect him from the brisk wind but even he feels the bite of its bitter chill, each step upon stone like a shockwave up the length of his arms. the river was near untouchable now — frosting further with each passing day, he watches their main source of protection, of life, cut off from them for the season. their freshkill pile is measly, ever - waning, and the panic keeps them out and on the hunt.
with willowroot soft and round with kits, nesting now amongst the milk thistle and moss of the nursery — and soon to be joined by bonejaw as the days get colder, shorter. the bicolors growing belly flashes behind his mind’s eye and his stress only increases, paperthin lids squeezing shut against the twinge of pain in his temples. two litters. — he and buckgait had taken the brunt of patrolling since the fated skirmish. and with now smokethroat, his other lead warrior, down for the count, their workload has only increased in that time. partially due to the fact that cicadastar himself could not seem to leave the rabbit - laden border, staring absently over the flatlands as if his icy gaze could freeze the specks of life he occasionally sees in quick passing ; he could rip them apart still, ached for it, felt the urge in his jaw to lock onto the soft spots of throat and pull. his mind occupies with phantom memories of claws tearing open that wiry side, digging into the soft innards of that wretched windclanner for reasons beyond the damned rabbit. it had fed them well, though. it had fed them absurdly well, a single rabbit . . the apprentices had shared it and left with bellies full, tittering with life for the first time in days. the chimera wished he could’ve seen it. smokethroat, he should’ve been there — to congratulate iciclepaw, to bat her over the ears playfully, he should have heard her gripe at him through mouthfuls of grey - brown fur and rabbit meat.
it’s silent when he enters the medicine den. the stench of herbs and blood flood his senses and he is tired, exhaustion pulsing from his looming form in palpable waves. the majority of riverclan had long since retired but he had only just come back, along with a gaggle of warriors willing to venture out for a late night hunting session. not much luck. no luck, in fact, and he once again retires without a meal in his stomach. it hurts, and his mind swims with the thought of life pre - war. pre - clan. his jaw sets, swallowing hard as he casts his gaze about the stony cavern, spotting beesong curled in the furthest corner, fast asleep. the man had already altered them of his intended presence and he does his best not to rouse him as he creeps towards an ever - familiar shadow, still banded with fresh cobweb and dripping with assorted herbs. as the leader pads closer he can see his face was clean — cleaned gently, and the feeling of the short, silken fur along rounded cheeks is a ghost upon his barbed tongue — and he’s relaxed, save for the faintest twitch of a whiskered brow. the chimera sighs, watching the cloud of breath dissipate around his arched muzzle. smokethroat had not woken since he’d been out. once again, he’d left the warrior in this prison of a nest, and returned to him just the same. once again, he crawls home to him, whether he ever knows it or not.
cicadastar rounds the dark tom — his heart, his beloved, his could have been — and smokethroat does not move. it is expected now and still the phantom lies, whispers, “ hallo, mein herz. “ quiet. the man slowly lowers himself to lie to his back, close, warm. he does not want to wake beesong and perhaps it’s futile, but as he adjusts long, mottled limbs around the tom, he murmurs the details of the day : what he’s missed, the hunts, the patrols, the worry for him. his ivory chin slowly rests carefully in the dip of his neck, feels the miraculously steady pulse in his throat beat against his own, breathes his words against the warrior’s ear. he speaks for a while, absently, watches the clouds roll from within the stony den. a particularly thick one covers the glow of moonlight and the world is suddenly darker, and in this quiet, he can pretend the man is only asleep. he can pretend his sunburst eye would open, gaze up at him, flit away with an embarrassed cough and suddenly his chest hurts — his eyes squeeze against it again but his chest hurts and his words trail into silence, slowly. he releases a breath and the clouds pass, bathing them in a streak of milky moonlight and he can see the tom’s face again, soft and relaxed and wounded, the jagged ends of fresh scars visible just beneath the fresh wrap of cobweb over his eye socket. the phantom is gazing at him, brow furrowed. eyes tender.
“ beautiful, stubborn thing . . “ perhaps he was selfish. perhaps he could be, in this moment — white paws against dark, ivory - speckled pelt. he is desperate, a pitiful, begging god beneath the eyes of starclan. the heavens gleam above, watching, “ open your eyes. “ you fought him. you fought well. you did so well, look at me — his throat clicks and his ears lower and he is exhausted. a bone - deep tiredness sets in, thick and heavy and his teeth grit, frustrated. he would not sleep tonight, he knows it. the tom could wake tonight and that knowledge, or hope, alone was enough to keep his mind from calming long enough to rest. he would remain by his side, should sleep come or not. he would not be alone, should he be welcomed back to the living. his chest twinges again.
icy luminaries close and a thick, plumelike tail comes to wrap loosely around smokethroat’s front, hoping to warm him from the chill of the riverlands.
he hums a lullaby.
with willowroot soft and round with kits, nesting now amongst the milk thistle and moss of the nursery — and soon to be joined by bonejaw as the days get colder, shorter. the bicolors growing belly flashes behind his mind’s eye and his stress only increases, paperthin lids squeezing shut against the twinge of pain in his temples. two litters. — he and buckgait had taken the brunt of patrolling since the fated skirmish. and with now smokethroat, his other lead warrior, down for the count, their workload has only increased in that time. partially due to the fact that cicadastar himself could not seem to leave the rabbit - laden border, staring absently over the flatlands as if his icy gaze could freeze the specks of life he occasionally sees in quick passing ; he could rip them apart still, ached for it, felt the urge in his jaw to lock onto the soft spots of throat and pull. his mind occupies with phantom memories of claws tearing open that wiry side, digging into the soft innards of that wretched windclanner for reasons beyond the damned rabbit. it had fed them well, though. it had fed them absurdly well, a single rabbit . . the apprentices had shared it and left with bellies full, tittering with life for the first time in days. the chimera wished he could’ve seen it. smokethroat, he should’ve been there — to congratulate iciclepaw, to bat her over the ears playfully, he should have heard her gripe at him through mouthfuls of grey - brown fur and rabbit meat.
it’s silent when he enters the medicine den. the stench of herbs and blood flood his senses and he is tired, exhaustion pulsing from his looming form in palpable waves. the majority of riverclan had long since retired but he had only just come back, along with a gaggle of warriors willing to venture out for a late night hunting session. not much luck. no luck, in fact, and he once again retires without a meal in his stomach. it hurts, and his mind swims with the thought of life pre - war. pre - clan. his jaw sets, swallowing hard as he casts his gaze about the stony cavern, spotting beesong curled in the furthest corner, fast asleep. the man had already altered them of his intended presence and he does his best not to rouse him as he creeps towards an ever - familiar shadow, still banded with fresh cobweb and dripping with assorted herbs. as the leader pads closer he can see his face was clean — cleaned gently, and the feeling of the short, silken fur along rounded cheeks is a ghost upon his barbed tongue — and he’s relaxed, save for the faintest twitch of a whiskered brow. the chimera sighs, watching the cloud of breath dissipate around his arched muzzle. smokethroat had not woken since he’d been out. once again, he’d left the warrior in this prison of a nest, and returned to him just the same. once again, he crawls home to him, whether he ever knows it or not.
cicadastar rounds the dark tom — his heart, his beloved, his could have been — and smokethroat does not move. it is expected now and still the phantom lies, whispers, “ hallo, mein herz. “ quiet. the man slowly lowers himself to lie to his back, close, warm. he does not want to wake beesong and perhaps it’s futile, but as he adjusts long, mottled limbs around the tom, he murmurs the details of the day : what he’s missed, the hunts, the patrols, the worry for him. his ivory chin slowly rests carefully in the dip of his neck, feels the miraculously steady pulse in his throat beat against his own, breathes his words against the warrior’s ear. he speaks for a while, absently, watches the clouds roll from within the stony den. a particularly thick one covers the glow of moonlight and the world is suddenly darker, and in this quiet, he can pretend the man is only asleep. he can pretend his sunburst eye would open, gaze up at him, flit away with an embarrassed cough and suddenly his chest hurts — his eyes squeeze against it again but his chest hurts and his words trail into silence, slowly. he releases a breath and the clouds pass, bathing them in a streak of milky moonlight and he can see the tom’s face again, soft and relaxed and wounded, the jagged ends of fresh scars visible just beneath the fresh wrap of cobweb over his eye socket. the phantom is gazing at him, brow furrowed. eyes tender.
“ beautiful, stubborn thing . . “ perhaps he was selfish. perhaps he could be, in this moment — white paws against dark, ivory - speckled pelt. he is desperate, a pitiful, begging god beneath the eyes of starclan. the heavens gleam above, watching, “ open your eyes. “ you fought him. you fought well. you did so well, look at me — his throat clicks and his ears lower and he is exhausted. a bone - deep tiredness sets in, thick and heavy and his teeth grit, frustrated. he would not sleep tonight, he knows it. the tom could wake tonight and that knowledge, or hope, alone was enough to keep his mind from calming long enough to rest. he would remain by his side, should sleep come or not. he would not be alone, should he be welcomed back to the living. his chest twinges again.
icy luminaries close and a thick, plumelike tail comes to wrap loosely around smokethroat’s front, hoping to warm him from the chill of the riverlands.
he hums a lullaby.
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− CICADASTAR ; he / him. roughly thirty nine months old, riverclan leader
− handsome, lanky black smoke tortie chimera with curly fur and ice blue eyes
− gay. speaks with a german accent, ages on the seventh, penned by antlers
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@Smokethroat MY SCRIMBLOS !!!!!
- none.